第 55 节
作者:蒂帆      更新:2024-04-14 09:15      字数:9322
  packing up my things; I did not know that you were coming to see
  me。〃
  He was glad that he had drawn down her wrath upon himself。
  〃Ah!〃 he sighed; as he sat down; 〃you children have broken my
  heart between you。 This is killing me。 My head feels as if it
  were on fire。 Be good to each other and love each other! This
  will be the death of me! Delphine! Nasie! come; be sensible; you
  are both in the wrong。 Come; Dedel;〃 he added; looking through
  his tears at the Baroness; 〃she must have twelve thousand francs;
  you see; let us see if we can find them for her。 Oh; my girls; do
  not look at each other like that!〃 and he sank on his knees
  beside Delphine。 〃Ask her to forgive youjust to please me;〃 he
  said in her ear。 〃She is more miserable than you are。 Come now;
  Dedel。〃
  〃Poor Nasie!〃 said Delphine; alarmed at the wild extravagant
  grief in her father's face; 〃I was in the wrong; kiss me〃
  〃Ah! that is like balm to my heart;〃 cried Father Goriot。 〃But
  how are we to find twelve thousand francs? I might offer myself
  as a substitute in the army〃
  〃Oh! father dear!〃 they both cried; flinging their arms about
  him。 〃No; no!〃
  〃God reward you for the thought。 We are not worth it; are we;
  Nasie?〃 asked Delphine。
  〃And besides; father dear; it would only be a drop in the
  bucket;〃 observed the Countess。
  〃But is flesh and blood worth nothing?〃 cried the old man in his
  despair。 〃I would give body and soul to save you; Nasie。 I would
  do a murder for the man who would rescue you。 I would do; as
  Vautrin did; go to the hulks; go〃 he stopped as if struck by
  a thunderbolt; and put both hands to his head。 〃Nothing left!〃 he
  cried; tearing his hair。 〃If I only knew of a way to steal money;
  but it is so hard to do it; and then you can't set to work by
  yourself; and it takes time to rob a bank。 Yes; it is time I was
  dead; there is nothing left me to do but to die。 I am no good in
  the world; I am no longer a father! No。 She has come to me in her
  extremity; and; wretch that I am; I have nothing to give her。 Ah!
  you put your money into a life annuity; old scoundrel; and had
  you not daughters? You did not love them。 Die; die in a ditch;
  like the dog that you are! Yes; I am worse than a dog; a beast
  would not have done as I have done! Oh! my head 。 。 。 it throbs
  as if it would burst。〃
  〃Papa!〃 cried both the young women at once; 〃do; pray; be
  reasonable!〃 and they clung to him to prevent him from dashing
  his head against the wall。 There was a sound of sobbing。
  Eugene; greatly alarmed; took the bill that bore Vautrin's
  signature; saw that the stamp would suffice for a larger sum;
  altered the figures; made it into a regular bill for twelve
  thousand francs; payable to Goriot's order; and went to his
  neighbor's room。
  〃Here is the money; madame;〃 he said; handing the piece of paper
  to her。 〃I was asleep; your conversation awoke me; and by this
  means I learned all that I owed to M。 Goriot。 This bill can be
  discounted; and I shall meet it punctually at the due date。〃
  The Countess stood motionless and speechless; but she held the
  bill in her fingers。
  〃Delphine;〃 she said; with a white face; and her whole frame
  quivering with indignation; anger; and rage; 〃I forgave you
  everything; God is my witness that I forgave you; but I cannot
  forgive this! So this gentleman was there all the time; and you
  knew it! Your petty spite has let you to wreak your vengeance on
  me by betraying my secrets; my life; my children's lives; my
  shame; my honor! There; you are nothing to me any longer。 I hate
  you。 I will do all that I can to injure you。 I will 。 。 。〃
  Anger paralyzed her; the words died in her dry parched throat。
  〃Why; he is my son; my child; he is your brother; your
  preserver!〃 cried Goriot。 〃Kiss his hand; Nasie! Stay; I will
  embrace him myself;〃 he said; straining Eugene to his breast in a
  frenzied clasp。 〃Oh my boy! I will be more than a father to you;
  if I had God's power; I would fling worlds at your feet。 Why
  don't you kiss him; Nasie? He is not a man; but an angel; a angel
  out of heaven。〃
  〃Never mind her; father; she is mad just now。〃
  〃Mad! am I? And what are you?〃 cried Mme。 de Restaud。
  〃Children; children; I shall die if you go on like this;〃 cried
  the old man; and he staggered and fell on the bed as if a bullet
  had struck him。〃They are killing me between them;〃 he said to
  himself。
  The Countess fixed her eyes on Eugene; who stood stock still; all
  his faculties were numbed by this violent scene。
  〃Sir? 。 。 。〃 she said; doubt and inquiry in her face; tone; and
  bearing; she took no notice now of her father nor of Delphine;
  who was hastily unfastening his waistcoat。
  〃Madame;〃 said Eugene; answering the question before it was
  asked; 〃I will meet the bill; and keep silence about it。〃
  〃You have killed our father; Nasie!〃 said Delphine; pointing to
  Goriot; who lay unconscious on the bed。 The Countess fled。
  〃I freely forgive her;〃 said the old man; opening his eyes; 〃her
  position is horrible; it would turn an older head than hers。
  Comfort Nasie; and be nice to her; Delphine; promise it to your
  poor father before he dies;〃 he asked; holding Delphine's hand in
  a convulsive clasp。
  〃Oh! what ails you; father?〃 she cried in real alarm。
  〃Nothing; nothing;〃 said Goriot; 〃it will go off。 There is
  something heavy pressing on my forehead; a little headache。 。 。 。
  Ah! poor Nasie; what a life lies before her!〃
  Just as he spoke; the Countess came back again and flung herself
  on her knees before him。 〃Forgive me!〃 she cried。
  〃Come;〃 said her father; 〃you are hurting me still more。〃
  〃Monsieur;〃 the Countess said; turning to Rastignac; 〃misery made
  me unjust to you。 You will be a brother to me; will you not?〃 and
  she held out her hand。 Her eyes were full of tears as she spoke。
  〃Nasie;〃 cried Delphine; flinging her arms round her sister; 〃my
  little Nasie; let us forget and forgive。〃
  〃No; no;〃 cried Nasie; 〃I shall never forget!〃
  〃Dear angels;〃 cried Goriot; 〃it is as if a dark curtain over my
  eyes had been raised; your voices have called me back to life。
  Kiss each other once more。 Well; now; Nasie; that bill will save
  you; won't it?〃
  〃I hope so。 I say; papa; will you write your name on it?〃
  〃There! how stupid of me to forget that! But I am not feeling at
  all well; Nasie; so you must not remember it against me。 Send and
  let me know as soon as you are out of your strait。 No; I will go
  to you。 No; after all; I will not go; I might meet your husband;
  and I should kill him on the spot。 And as for signing away your
  property; I shall have a word to say about that。 Quick; my child;
  and keep Maxime in order in future。〃
  Eugene was too bewildered to speak。
  〃Poor Anastasie; she always had a violent temper;〃 said Mme。 de
  Nucingen; 〃but she has a good heart。〃
  〃She came back for the endorsement;〃 said Eugene in Delphine's
  ear。
  〃Do you think so?〃
  〃I only wish I could think otherwise。 Do not trust her;〃 he
  answered; raising his eyes as if he confided to heaven the
  thoughts that he did not venture to express。
  〃Yes。 She is always acting a part to some extent。〃
  〃How do you feel now; dear Father Goriot?〃 asked Rastignac。
  〃I should like to go to sleep;〃 he replied。
  Eugene helped him to bed; and Delphine sat by the bedside;
  holding his hand until he fell asleep。 Then she went。
  〃This evening at the Italiens;〃 she said to Eugene; 〃and you can
  let me know how he is。 To…morrow you will leave this place;
  monsieur。 Let us go into your room。Oh! how frightful!〃 she
  cried on the threshold。 〃Why; you are even worse lodged than our
  father。 Eugene; you have behaved well。 I would love you more if
  that were possible; but; dear boy; if you are to succeed in life;
  you must not begin by flinging twelve thousand francs out of the
  windows like that。 The Comte de Trailles is a confirmed gambler。
  My sister shuts her eyes to it。 He would have made the twelve
  thousand francs in the same way that he wins and loses heaps of
  gold。〃
  A groan from the next room brought them back to Goriot's bedside;
  to all appearances he was asleep; but the two lovers caught the
  words; 〃They are not happy!〃 Whether he was awake or sleeping;
  the tone in which they were spoken went to his daughter's heart。
  She stole up to the pallet…bed on which her father lay; and
  kissed his forehead。 He opened his eyes。
  〃Ah! Delphine!〃 he said。
  〃How are you now?〃 she asked。
  〃Quite comfortable。 Do not worry about me; I shall get up
  presently。 Don't stay with me; children; go; go and be happy。〃
  Eugene went back with Delphine as far as her door; but he was not
  easy about Goriot; and would not stay to dinner; as she proposed。
  He wanted to be back at the Maison Vauquer。 Father Goriot had
  left his room; and was just sitting down to dinner as he came in。
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