第 2 节
作者:蝴蝶的出走      更新:2024-04-14 09:15      字数:9319
  was using her as an antidote for remorse; until he found;
  too late; that he had acquired the habit。  During that time
  he had received no news from home。  Wade did not know
  where he was; and he was not sure of Wade's exact
  address; and was afraid to write。  He thought he had
  better let matters rest as they were for a while。
  One afternoon he and Mrs。 Conant hired two ponies
  and rode out along the mountain trail as far as the little
  cold river that came tumbling down the foothills。  There
  they stopped for a drink; and Merriam spoke his piece
  he proposed; as Bibb had prophesied。
  Mrs。 Conant gave him one glance of brilliant tenderness;
  and then her face took on such a strange; haggard look
  that Merriam was shaken out of his intoxication and
  back to his senses。
  〃I beg your pardon; Florence;〃 he said; releasing her
  hand; 〃but I'll have to hedge on part of what I said。  I
  can't ask you to marry me; of course。  I killed a man
  in New York  a man who was my friend … shot him
  down  in quite a cowardly manner; I understand。  Of
  course; the drinking didn't excuse it。  Well; I couldn't
  resist having my say; and I'll always mean it。  I'm here
  as a fugitive from justice; and  I suppose that ends
  our acquaintance。〃
  Mrs。 Conant plucked little leaves assiduously from the
  low…hanging branch of a lime tree。
  〃I suppose so;〃 she said; in low and oddly uneven
  tones; 〃but that depends upon you。 I'll be as honest as
  you were。  I poisoned my husband。  I am a self…made
  widow。  A man cannot love a murderess。  So I suppose
  that ends our acquaintance。〃
  She looked up at him slowly。  His face turned a little
  pale; and he stared at her blankly; like a deaf…and…dumb
  man who was wondering what it was all about。
  She took a swift step toward him; with stiffened arms
  and eyes blazing。
  〃Don't look at me like that!〃 she cried; as though she
  were in acute pain。  〃Curse me; or turn your back
  on me; but don't look that way。  Am I a woman to be
  beaten?  If I could show you  here on my arms; and
  on my back are scars  and it has been more than a year
  scars that he made in his brutal rages。  A holy nun
  would have risen and struck the fiend down。  Yes; I
  killed him。  The foul and horrible words that he hurled
  at me that last day are repeated in my ears every night
  when I sleep。  And then came his blows; and the end of
  my endurance。  I got the poison that afternoon。  It
  was his custom to drink every night in the library before
  going to bed a hot punch made of rum and wine。  Only
  from my fair hands would he receive it  because he knew
  the fumes of spirits always sickened me。  That night
  when the maid brought it to me I sent her downstairs
  on an errand。  Before taking him his drink I went to my
  little private cabinet and poured into it more than a tea…
  spoonful of tincture of aconite  enough to kill three
  men; so I had learned。  I had drawn 6;000 that I had
  in bank; and with that and a few things in a satchel
  I left the house without any one seeing me。  As I passed
  the library I heard him stagger up and fall heavily on a
  couch。  I took a night train for New Orleans; and from
  there I sailed to the Bermudas。  I finally cast anchor
  in La Paz。  And now what have you to say?  Can you
  open your mouth?〃
  Merriam came back to life。
  〃Florence;〃 he said earnestly; 〃I want you。  I don't
  care what you've done。  If the world  〃
  〃Ralph;〃 she interrupted; almost with a scream; 〃be
  my world!〃
  Her eyes melted; she relaxed magnificentlv and swayed
  toward Merriam so suddenly that he had to jump to
  catch her。
  Dear me! in such scenes how the talk runs into artificial
  prose。  But it can't be helped。  It's the subconscious
  smell of the footlights' smoke that's in all of us。  Stir
  the depths of your cook's soul sufficiently and she will
  discourse in Bulwer…Lyttonese。
  Merriam and Mrs。 Conant were very happy。  He
  announced their engagement at the Hotel Orilla del Mar。
  Eight foreigners and four native Astors pounded his back
  and shouted insincere congratulations at him。  Pedrito;
  the Castilian…mannered barkeep; was goaded to extra
  duty until his agility would have turned a Boston cherry…
  phosphate clerk a pale lilac with envy。
  They were both very happy。  According to the strange
  mathematics of the god of mutual affinity; the shadows
  that clouded their pasts when united became only half
  as dense instead of darker。  They shut the world out
  and bolted the doors。  Each was the other's world。  Mrs。
  Conant lived again。  The remembering look left her eyes
  Merriam was with her every moment that was possible。
  On a little plateau under a grove of palms and calabash
  trees they were going to build a fairy bungalow。  They
  were to be married in two months。  Many hours of the
  day they had their heads together over the house plans。
  Their joint capital would set up a business in fruit or
  woods that would yield a comfortable support。  〃Good
  night; my world;〃 would say Mrs。 Conant every evening
  when Merriam left her for his hotel。  They were very
  happy。  Their love had; circumstantially; that element
  of melancholy in it that it seems to require to attain
  its supremest elevation。  And it seemed that their mutual
  great misfortune or sin was a bond that nothing could
  sever。
  One day a steamer hove in the offing。  Bare…legged and
  bare…shouldered La Paz scampered down to the beach;
  for the arrival of a steamer was their loop…the…loop;
  circus; Emancipation Day and four…o'clock tea。
  When the steamer was near enough; wise ones pro…
  claimed that she was the Pajaro; bound up…coast from
  Callao to Panama。
  The Paiaro put on brakes a mile off shore。  Soon a
  boat came bobbing shoreward。  Merriam strolled down
  on the beach to look on。  In the shallow water the Carib
  sailors sprang out and dragged the boat with a mighty
  rush to the firm shingle。  Out climbed the purser; the
  captain and two passengers; ploughing their way through
  the deep sand toward the hotel。  Merriam glanced toward
  them with the mild interest due to strangers。  There was
  something familiar to him in the walk of one of the pas…
  sengers。  He looked again; and his blood seemed to turn
  to strawberry ice cream in his veins。  Burly; arrogant;
  debonair as ever; H。 Ferguson Hedges; the man he had
  killed; was coming toward him ten feet away。
  When Hedges saw Merriam his face flushed a dark
  red。  Then he shouted in his old; bluff way: 〃Hello;
  Merriam。  Glad to see you。  Didn't expect to find you
  out here。  Quinby; this is my old friend Merriam; of
  New York  Merriam; Mr。 Quinby。〃
  Merriam gave Hedges and then Quinby an ice…cold hand。
  〃Br…r…r…r!〃 said Hedges。  〃But you've got a frapp閐
  flipper!  Man; you're not well。  You're as yellow as a
  Chinaman。  Malarial here?  Steer us to a bar if there
  is such a thing; and let's take a prophylactic。〃
  Merriam; still half comatose; led them toward the
  Hotel Orilla del Mar。
  〃Quinby and I〃 explained Hedges; puffing through
  the slippery sand; 〃are looking out along the coast for
  some investments。  We've just come up from Concepci髇
  and Valparaiso and Lima。  The captain of this sub…
  sidized ferry boat told us there was some good picking
  around here in silver mines。  So we got off。  Now;
  where is that caf? Merriam?  Oh; in this portable soda
  water pavilion?〃
  Leaving Quinby at the bar; Hedges drew Merriam
  side。
  〃Now; what does this mean?〃 he said; with gruff
  kindness。  〃Are you sulking about that fool row we had?〃
  〃I thought;〃 stammered Merriam  〃I heard  they
  told me you were  that I had 〃
  〃Well; you didn't; and I'm not;〃 said Hedges。  〃That
  fool young ambulance surgeon told Wade I was a can…
  didate for a coffin just because I'd got tired and quit
  breathing。  I laid up in a private hospital for a month;
  but here I am; kicking as hard as ever。  Wade and I
  tried to find you; but couldn't。  Now; Merriam; shake
  hands and forget it all。  I was as much to blame as you
  were; and the shot really did me good  I came out of
  the hospital as healthy and fit as a cab horse。  Come on;
  that drink's waiting。〃
  〃Old man;〃 said Merriam; brokenly; 〃I don't know
  how to thank you  I  well; you know  〃
  〃Oh; forget it;〃 boomed Hedges。  〃Quinby'll die of
  thirst if we don't join him。〃
  Bibb was sitting on the shady side of the gallery waiting
  for the eleven…o'clock breakfast。  Presently Merriam
  came out and joined him。  His eye was strangely
  bright。
  〃Bibb; my boy;〃 said he; slowly waving his hand; 〃do
  you see those mountains and that sea and sky and sun…
  shine?  they're mine; Bibbsy  all mine。〃
  〃You go in;〃 said Bibb; 〃and take eight grains of
  quinine; right away。  It won't do in this climate for a
  man to get to thinking he's Rockefeller; or James O'Neill
  either。
  Inside; the purser was untying a great roll of newspapers;
  many of them weeks old; g