第 15 节
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  CHAPTER I。
  My earliest impressions are of a huge; misshapen rock; against which
  the    hoarse   waves     beat   unceasingly。     On    this  rock   three   pelicans    are
  standing in a defiant attitude。 A dark sky lowers in the background; while
  two   sea…gulls   and   a   gigantic   cormorant   eye   with   extreme   disfavor   the
  floating corpse of a drowned woman in the foreground。 A few bracelets;
  coral   necklaces;   and   other   articles   of   jewelry;   scattered   around   loosely;
  complete this remarkable picture。
  It is one which; in some vague; unconscious way; symbolizes; to my
  fancy; the character   of a man。  I have   never been able   to explain   exactly
  why。 I think I must have seen the picture in some illustrated volume; when
  a baby; or my mother may have dreamed it before I was born。
  As a child I was not handsome。 When I consulted the triangular bit of
  looking…glass which I always carried with me; it showed a pale; sandy; and
  freckled   face;   shaded   by   locks   like   the   color   of   seaweed   when   the   sun
  strikes it in deep water。 My eyes were said to be indistinctive; they were a
  faint; ashen gray; but above them rose my only beautya high; massive;
  domelike  forehead;   with   polished   temples;   like   door…knobs of   the  purest
  porcelain。
  Our family was a family of governesses。 My mother had been one; and
  my   sisters   had   the   same   occupation。   Consequently;   when;   at   the   age   of
  thirteen; my eldest sister handed me the advertisement of Mr。 Rawjester;
  clipped from that day's 〃Times;〃 I accepted it as my destiny。 Nevertheless;
  a   mysterious     presentiment      of  an   indefinite   future   haunted     me   in  my
  dreams      that  night;  as  I  lay  upon    my   little  snow…white      bed。  The    next
  morning;   with   two   bandboxes   tied   up   in   silk   handkerchiefs;   and   a   hair
  trunk; I turned my back upon Minerva Cottage forever。
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  CHAPTER II。
  Blunderbore Hall; the seat of James Rawjester; Esq。; was encompassed
  by dark pines and funereal hemlocks on all sides。 The wind sang weirdly
  in the turrets and moaned through the long…drawn avenues of the park。 As
  I   approached   the   house   I   saw   several   mysterious   figures   flit   before   the
  windows; and a yell of demoniac laughter answered my summons at the
  bell。 While I strove to repress my gloomy forebodings; the housekeeper; a
  timid; scared… looking old woman; showed me into the library。
  I   entered;   overcome   with   conflicting   emotions。   I   was   dressed   in   a
  narrow   gown   of   dark   serge;   trimmed   with   black   bugles。   A   thick   green
  shawl   was pinned   across   my  breast。   My  hands   were   encased   with   black
  half…mittens     worked     with   steel  beads;   on   my   feet  were    large  pattens;
  originally    the   property   of  my    deceased    grandmother。      I  carried  a  blue
  cotton umbrella。 As I passed before a mirror; I could not help glancing at it;
  nor could I disguise from myself the fact that I was not handsome。
  Drawing   a   chair into   a   recess;   I   sat   down   with   folded hands;   calmly
  awaiting     the  arrival   of  my   master。   Once    or  twice    a  fearful  yell  rang
  through the house; or the rattling of chains; and curses uttered in a deep;
  manly voice; broke upon the oppressive stillness。 I began to feel my soul
  rising with the emergency of the moment。
  〃You look alarmed; miss。 You don't hear anything; my dear; do you?〃
  asked the housekeeper nervously。
  〃Nothing whatever;〃 I remarked calmly; as a terrific scream; followed
  by   the   dragging   of   chairs   and   tables   in   the   room   above;   drowned   for   a
  moment my reply。 〃It is the silence; on the contrary; which has made me
  foolishly nervous。〃
  The housekeeper looked at me approvingly; and instantly made some
  tea for me。
  I drank seven cups; as I was beginning the eighth; I heard a crash; and
  the next moment a man leaped into the room through the broken window。
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  CHAPTER III。
  The   crash   startled   me   from   my   self…control。   The   housekeeper   bent
  toward me and whispered:
  〃Don't be excited。 It's Mr。 Rawjester;he prefers to come in sometimes
  in this way。 It's his playfulness; ha! ha! ha!〃
  〃I perceive;〃 I said calmly。 〃It's the unfettered impulse of a lofty soul
  breaking the tyrannizing bonds of custom。〃 And I turned toward him。
  He had never once looked at me。 He stood with his back to the fire;
  which set off the herculean breadth of his shoulders。 His face was dark and
  expressive; his under jaw squarely formed; and remarkably heavy。 I was
  struck with his remarkable likeness to a Gorilla。
  As he absently tied the poker into hard knots with his nervous fingers;
  I watched him with some interest。 Suddenly he turned toward me:
  〃Do you think I'm handsome; young woman?〃
  〃Not classically beautiful;〃 I returned calmly; 〃but you have; if I may
  so    express   myself;    an   abstract   manliness;a     sincere   and   wholesome
  barbarity which; involving as it does the naturalness〃 But I stopped; for
  he   yawned   at   that   moment;an   action   which   singularly   developed   the
  immense       breadth   of  his  lower    jaw;and    I  saw   he  had   forgotten    me。
  Presently he turned to the housekeeper:
  〃Leave us。〃
  The old woman withdrew with a courtesy。
  Mr。   Rawjester   deliberately   turned   his   back   upon   me   and   remained
  silent for twenty  minutes。 I drew my shawl the more closely around my
  shoulders and closed my eyes。
  〃You are the governess?〃 at length he said。
  〃I am; sir。〃
  〃A   creature   who   teaches   geography;   arithmetic;   and   the   use   of   the
  globesha!a      wretched     remnant     of   femininity;a    skimp     pattern   of
  girlhood with a premature flavor of tea…leaves and morality。 Ugh!〃
  I bowed my head silently。
  〃Listen   to   me;   girl!〃   he   said   sternly;   〃this   child   you   have   come   to
  teachmy wardis not legitimate。 She is the offspring of my mistress;a
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  common harlot。 Ah! Miss Mix; what do you think of me now?〃
  〃I   admire;〃   I   replied   calmly;   〃your   sincerity。   A   mawkish   regard   for
  delicacy  might   have kept this disclosure to   yourself。  I only  recognize in
  your   frankness   that   perfect   community   of   thought   and   sentiment   which
  should exist between original natures。〃
  I looked up; he had already forgotten my presence; and was engaged in
  pulling off his boots and coat。 This done; he sank down in an arm…chair
  before the fire; and ran the poker wearily through his hair。 I could not help
  pitying him。
  The wind howled dismally without; and the rain beat furiously against
  the windows。 I crept toward him and seated myself on a low stool beside
  his chair。
  Presently he turned; without seeing me; and placed his foot absently in
  my lap。 I affected not to notice it。 But he started and looked down。
  〃You here yetCarrothead? Ah; I forgot。 Do you speak French?〃
  〃Oui; Monsieur〃
  〃Taisez…vous!〃       he  said   sharply;   with    singular   purity   of   accent。   I
  complied。 The wind moaned fearfully in the chimney; and the light burned
  dimly。 I shuddered in spite of myself。 〃Ah; you tremble; girl!〃
  〃It is a fearful night。〃
  〃Fearful! Call you this fearful; ha! ha! ha! Look! you wretched little
  atom; look!〃 and he dashed forward; and; leaping out of the window; stood
  like a statue in the pelting storm; with folded arms。 He did not stay long;
  but in a few minutes returned by way of the hall chimney。 I saw from the
  way   that   he   wiped   his   feet   on   my   dress   that   he   had   again   forgotten   my
  presence。
  〃You are a governess。 What can you teach?〃 he asked; suddenly and
  fiercely thrusting his face in mine。
  〃Manners!〃 I replied; calmly。
  〃Ha! teach ME!〃
  〃You mistake yourself;〃 I said; adjusting my  mittens。 〃Your manners
  require not the artificial restraint of society。 You are radically polite; this
  impetuosity and ferociousness is simply the sincerity which is the basis of
  a proper deportment。 Your instincts are moral; your better nature; I see; is