第 8 节
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  face; the curve of his lips; a prominent chin; the fine modelling of
  his forehead; his melancholy countenance; caused by a sense of his
  poverty warring with the powers that he felt within him; were all
  indications of repressed and imprisoned talent。 In any other place
  than the town of Alencon the mere aspect of his person would have won
  him the assistance of superior men; or of women who are able to
  recognize genius in obscurity。 If his was not genius; it was at any
  rate the form and aspect of it; if he had not the actual force of a
  great heart; the glow of such a heart was in his glance。 Although he
  was capable of expressing the highest feeling; a casing of timidity
  destroyed all the graces of his youth; just as the ice of poverty kept
  him from daring to put forth all his powers。 Provincial life; without
  an opening; without appreciation; without encouragement; described a
  circle about him in which languished and died the power of thought;a
  power which as yet had scarcely reached its dawn。 Moreover; Athanase
  possessed that savage pride which poverty intensifies in noble minds;
  exalting them in their struggle with men and things; although at their
  start in life it is an obstacle to their advancement。 Genius proceeds
  in two ways: either it takes its opportunitylike Napoleon; like
  Molierethe moment that it sees it; or it waits to be sought when it
  has patiently revealed itself。 Young Granson belonged to that class of
  men of talent who distrust themselves and are easily discouraged。 His
  soul was contemplative。 He lived more by thought than by action。
  Perhaps he might have seemed deficient or incomplete to those who
  cannot conceive of genius without the sparkle of French passion; but
  he was powerful in the world of mind; and he was liable to reach;
  through a series of emotions imperceptible to common souls; those
  sudden determinations which make fools say of a man; 〃He is mad。〃
  The contempt which the world pours out on poverty was death to
  Athanase; the enervating heat of solitude; without a breath or current
  of air; relaxed the bow which ever strove to tighten itself; his soul
  grew weary in this painful effort without results。 Athanase was a man
  who might have taken his place among the glories of France; but; eagle
  as he was; cooped in a cage without his proper nourishment; he was
  about to die of hunger after contemplating with an ardent eye the
  fields of air and the mountain heights where genius soars。 His work in
  the city library escaped attention; and he buried in his soul his
  thoughts of fame; fearing that they might injure him; but deeper than
  all lay buried within him the secret of his heart;a passion which
  hollowed his cheeks and yellowed his brow。 He loved his distant
  cousin; this very Mademoiselle Cormon whom the Chevalier de Valois and
  du Bousquier; his hidden rivals; were stalking。 This love had had its
  origin in calculation。 Mademoiselle Cormon was thought to be one of
  the richest persons in the town: the poor lad had therefore been led
  to love her by desires for material happiness; by the hope; long
  indulged; of gilding with comfort his mother's last years; by eager
  longing for the ease of life so needful to men who live by thought;
  but this most innocent point of departure degraded his passion in his
  own eyes。 Moreover; he feared the ridicule the world would cast upon
  the love of a young man of twenty…three for an old maid of forty。
  And yet his passion was real; whatever may seem false about such a
  love elsewhere; it can be realized as a fact in the provinces; where;
  manners and morals being without change or chance or movement or
  mystery; marriage becomes a necessity of life。 No family will accept a
  young man of dissolute habits。 However natural the liaison of a young
  man; like Athanase; with a handsome girl; like Suzanne; for instance;
  might seem in a capital; it alarms provincial parents; and destroys
  the hopes of marriage of a poor young man when possibly the fortune of
  a rich one might cause such an unfortunate antecedent to be
  overlooked。 Between the depravity of certain liaisons and a sincere
  love; a man of honor and no fortune will not hesitate: he prefers the
  misfortunes of virtue to the evils of vice。 But in the provinces women
  with whom a young man call fall in love are rare。 A rich young girl he
  cannot obtain in a region where all is calculation; a poor young girl
  he is prevented from loving; it would be; as provincials say; marrying
  hunger and thirst。 Such monkish solitude is; however; dangerous to
  youth。
  These reflections explain why provincial life is so firmly based on
  marriage。 Thus we find that ardent and vigorous genius; forced to rely
  on the independence of its own poverty; quits these cold regions where
  thought is persecuted by brutal indifference; where no woman is
  willing to be a sister of charity to a man of talent; of art; of
  science。
  Who will really understand Athanase Granson's love for Mademoiselle
  Cormon? Certainly neither rich menthose sultans of society who fill
  their haremsnor middle…class men; who follow the well…beaten high…
  road of prejudices; nor women who; not choosing to understand the
  passions of artists; impose the yoke of their virtues upon men of
  genius; imagining that the two sexes are governed by the same laws。
  Here; perhaps; we should appeal to those young men who suffer from the
  repression of their first desires at the moment when all their forces
  are developing; to artists sick of their own genius smothering under
  the pressure of poverty; to men of talent; persecuted and without
  influence; often without friends at the start; who have ended by
  triumphing over that double anguish; equally agonizing; of soul and
  body。 Such men will well understand the lancinating pains of the
  cancer which was now consuming Athanase; they have gone through those
  long and bitter deliberations made in presence of some grandiose
  purpose they had not the means to carry out; they have endured those
  secret miscarriages in which the fructifying seed of genius falls on
  arid soil。 Such men know that the grandeur of desires is in proportion
  to the height and breadth of the imagination。 The higher they spring;
  the lower they fall; and how can it be that ties and bonds should not
  be broken by such a fall? Their piercing eye has seenas did Athanase
  the brilliant future which awaited them; and from which they fancied
  that only a thin gauze parted them; but that gauze through which their
  eyes could see is changed by Society into a wall of iron。 Impelled by
  a vocation; by a sentiment of art; they endeavor again and again to
  live by sentiments which society as incessantly materializes。 Alas!
  the provinces calculate and arrange marriage with the one view of
  material comfort; and a poor artist or man of science is forbidden to
  double its purpose and make it the saviour of his genius by securing
  to him the means of subsistence!
  Moved by such ideas; Athanase Granson first thought of marriage with
  Mademoiselle Cormon as a means of obtaining a livelihood which would
  be permanent。 Thence he could rise to fame; and make his mother happy;
  knowing at the same time that he was capable of faithfully loving his
  wife。 But soon his own will created; although he did not know it; a
  genuine passion。 He began to study the old maid; and; by dint of the
  charm which habit gives; he ended by seeing only her beauties and
  ignoring her defects。
  In a young man of twenty…three the senses count for much in love;
  their fire produces a sort of prism between his eyes and the woman。
  From this point of view the clasp with which Beaumarchis' Cherubin
  seizes Marceline is a stroke of genius。 But when we reflect that in
  the utter isolation to which poverty condemned poor Athanase;
  Mademoiselle Cormon was the only figure presented to his gaze; that
  she attracted his eye incessantly; that all the light he had was
  concentrated on her; surely his love may be considered natural。
  This sentiment; so carefully hidden; increased from day to day。
  Desires; sufferings; hopes; and meditations swelled in quietness and
  silence the lake widening ever in the young man's breast; as hour by
  hour added its drop of water to the volume。 And the wider this inward
  circle; drawn by the imagination; aided by the senses; grew; the more
  imposing Mademoiselle Cormon appeared to Athanase; and the more his
  own timidity increased。
  The mother had divined the truth。 Like all provincial mothers; she
  calculated candidly in her own mind the advantages of the match。 She
  told herself that Mademoiselle Cormon would be very lucky to secure a
  husband in a young man of twenty…three; full of talent; who would
  always be an honor to his family and the neighborhood; at the same
  time the obstacles which her son's want of fortune and Mademoiselle
  Cormon's age presented to the marriage seemed to her almost
  insurmountable; she could think of nothing but patience as being able