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作者:温暖寒冬      更新:2024-04-09 19:50      字数:9296
  and  the   old   woman;  whose   memory  for   names   was   infirm;   could
  not recall the name of the “blessed woman” who was Dinah’s chief
  friend in the Society at Leeds。
  During that long; long journey in the taxed cart; there was time
  for all the conjectures of importunate fear and struggling hope。 In
  the    very   first   shock  of  discovering   that   Hetty   had   not   been     to
  Snowfield; the thought of Arthur had darted through Adam like a
  sharp   pang; but  he   tried   for   some   time   to   ward   off   its   return   by
  busying   himself   with   modes   of   accounting   for   the   alarming   fact;
  quite    apart    from   that   intolerable    thought。     Some     accident    had
  happened。   Hetty   had;   by   some   strange   chance;   got   into  a   wrong
  vehicle from Oakbourne: she had been taken ill; and did not want
  to frighten them by letting them know。 But this frail fence of vague
  improbabilities       was    soon    hurled    down     by   a  rush    of  distinct
  agonising fears。 Hetty had been deceiving herself in thinking that
  she could love and marry him: she had been loving Arthur all the
  while;     and   now;    in  her   desperation      at  the   nearness     of   their
  marriage;   she   had   run   away。   And   she   was   gone   to  him。   The   old
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  indignation and  jealousy  rose  again; and   prompted   the  suspicion
  that  Arthur  had   been   dealing  falsely—had   written   to  Hetty—had
  tempted   her   to   come   to   him—being   unwilling;   after   all;   that   she
  should belong to another man besides himself。 Perhaps the whole
  thing had been contrived by him; and he had given her directions
  how   to   follow   him   to   Ireland—for   Adam   knew   that   Arthur   had
  been gone thither three weeks ago; having recently learnt it at the
  Chase。   Every  sad   look   of   Hetty’s;   since   she   had   been   engaged   to
  Adam; returned upon him now with all the exaggeration of painful
  retrospect。     He    had   been    foolishly   sanguine     and   confident。     The
  poor thing hadn’t perhaps known her own mind for a long while;
  had thought that she could forget Arthur; had   been   momentarily
  drawn towards the man who offered her a protecting; faithful love。
  He couldn’t bear to blame her: she never meant to cause him this
  dreadful   pain。   The      blame   lay   with   that   man    who   had    selfishly
  played   with   her   heart—had   perhaps   even   deliberately   lured   her
  away。
  At Oakbourne; the ostler at the Royal Oak remembered such a
  young  woman as Adam described   getting   out   of   the   Treddleston
  coach   more   than   a   fortnight   ago—wasn’t   likely   to   forget   such   a
  pretty lass as that in a hurry—was sure she had not gone on by the
  Buxton   coach  that  went  through  Snowfield;   but  had   lost  sight  of
  her while he went away with the horses and had never set eyes on
  her again。 Adam then went straight to  the  house   from   which  the
  Stoniton   coach   started:   Stoniton   was   the   most   obvious   place   for
  Hetty   to   go   to   first;   whatever   might   be   her   destination;   for   she
  would   hardly  venture   on   any  but  the   chief  coach…roads。 She   had
  been noticed here too; and was remembered to have sat on the box
  by the coachman; but the coachman could not be seen; for another
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  man   had  been   driving  on   that  road   in   his stead   the last  three   or
  four days。 He could probably be seen at Stoniton; through inquiry
  at the inn where the coach put up。 So the anxious heart…stricken
  Adam must of necessity wait and try to rest till morning—nay; till
  eleven o’clock; when the coach started。
  At Stoniton another delay occurred; for the old coachman who
  had driven Hetty would not be in the town again till night。 When
  he did come he remembered Hetty well; and remembered his own
  joke    addressed      to  her;   quoting     it  many    times    to   Adam;     and
  observing       with    equal    frequency      that    he   thought     there    was
  something   more   than   common;   because   Hetty   had   not   laughed
  when he joked her。 But he declared; as the people had done at the
  inn; that he had lost sight of Hetty directly she got down。 Part of
  the next morning was consumed in inquiries at every house in the
  town from which a coach started—(all in vain; for you know Hetty
  did    not   start  from    Stoniton    by   coach;    but   on  foot   in  the  grey
  morning)—and   then   in   walking   out   to   the   first   toll…gates   on   the
  different     lines   of   road;   in   the   forlorn    hope    of  finding    some
  recollection of her there。 No; she was not to be traced any farther;
  and   the   next   hard   task   for  Adam   was   to   go   home   and   carry   the
  wretched       tidings   to  the   Hall   Farm。     As   to  what    he  should     do
  beyond   that;   he   had   come   to   two   distinct   resolutions   amidst   the
  tumult   of   thought   and      feeling   which   was   going     on   within    him
  while he went to and fro。 He would not mention what he knew of
  Arthur   Donnithorne’s   behaviour   to   Hetty   till         there   was    a   clear
  necessity   for   it:   it   was   still   possible   Hetty   might   come   back;   and
  the disclosure might be an injury or an offence to her。 And as soon
  as    he  had    been    home    and    done    what   was    necessary     there   to
  prepare for his further absence; he would start off to Ireland: if he
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  found no trace of Hetty on the road; he would go straight to Arthur
  Donnithorne and make himself certain how far he was acquainted
  with  her  movements。   Several   times   the   thought   occurred   to   him
  that he would consult Mr。 Irwine; but that would be useless unless
  he told him all; and so betrayed the secret about Arthur。 It seems
  strange that Adam; in the incessant occupation of his mind about
  Hetty; should never have alighted on the probability that she had
  gone     to  Windsor;      ignorant    that   Arthur     was   no   longer     there。
  Perhaps       the   reason    was    that   he   could    not   conceive     Hetty’s
  throwing   herself   on   Arthur   uncalled;   he   imagined   no   cause   that
  could   have   driven   her   to   such   a   step;   after   that   letter   written   in
  August。 There were but two alternatives in his mind: either Arthur
  had written to her again and enticed her away; or she had simply
  fled   from    her   approaching       marriage     with   himself    because     she
  found; after all; she could not love him well enough; and   yet  was
  afraid of her friends’ anger if she retracted。
  With   this   last   determination   on   his   mind;   of   going   straight   to
  Arthur; the thought that he had spent two days in inquiries which
  had proved to be almost useless; was torturing to Adam; and yet;
  since   he   would   not   tell   the   Poysers   his   conviction   as   to   where
  Hetty was gone; or his intention to follow her thither; he must be
  able to say to them that he had traced her as far as possible。
  It  was    after   twelve    o’clock   on    Tuesday     night    when    Adam
  reached   Treddleston;   and;   unwilling   to   disturb         his  mother   and
  Seth; and also to encounter their questions at that hour; he threw
  himself      without      undressing       on     a   bed     at   the    “Waggon
  Overthrown;” and slept hard from pure weariness。 Not more than
  four hours; however; for before five o’clock he set out on his way
  home   in   the   faint  morning   twilight。   He   always   kept   a   key   of   the
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  workshop door in his pocket; so that he could let himself in; and he
  wished to enter without awaking his mother; for he was anxious to
  avoid telling her the new trouble himself by seeing Seth first; and
  asking   him   to   tell   her   when   it   should   be   necessary。   He   walked
  gently along the yard; and turned the key gently in the door; but;
  as he expected; Gyp; who lay in