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作者:温暖寒冬      更新:2024-04-09 19:50      字数:9302
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  wondrous harmonies searching the subtlest windings of your soul;
  the   delicate   fibres   of   life   where   no   memory   can   penetrate;   and
  binding      together     your    whole    being     past   and    present     in  one
  unspeakable   vibration;   melting   you   in   one   moment   with   all   the
  tenderness;       all  the   love   that   has   been     scattered    through      the
  toilsome years; concentrating in one emotion of heroic courage or
  resignation        all   the    hard…learnt       lessons     of    self…renouncing
  sympathy;   blending   your   present   joy   with   past   sorrow   and   your
  present  sorrow  with  all  your  past  joy?  If  not;   then   neither  is   it   a
  weakness       to   be   so   wrought   upon     by  the   exquisite    curves    of  a
  woman’s   cheek   and   neck   and   arms;   by   the   liquid   depths   of   her
  beseeching   eyes;   or   the   sweet   childish   pout   of   her   lips。   For   the
  beauty of  a lovely  woman  is like   music:   what  can  one say  more?
  Beauty has an expression beyond and far above the one woman’s
  soul that it clothes; as the words of genius have a wider meaning
  than the thought that prompted them。 It is more than a woman’s
  love   that   moves   us   in   a   woman’s   eyes—it   seems   to   be   a   far…off
  mighty love that has come near to us; and made speech for itself
  there; the rounded neck; the dimpled arm; move us by something
  more than their prettiness—by their close kinship with all we have
  known of tenderness and peace。 The noblest nature sees the most
  of this impersonal  expression  in  beauty  (it  is   needless   to  say  that
  there are gentlemen with whiskers dyed and undyed who see none
  of it whatever); and for this reason; the noblest nature is often the
  most   blinded   to   the   character   of   the   one   woman’s   soul   that   the
  beauty clothes。 Whence; I fear; the tragedy of human life is likely
  to continue for a long time to come; in spite of mental philosophers
  who  are   ready  with  the   best  receipts   for  avoiding  all mistakes   of
  the kind。
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  Our good Adam had no fine words into which he could put his
  feeling  for  Hetty:   he   could not  disguise mystery  in   this   way   with
  the appearance of knowledge; he called his love frankly a mystery;
  as you have heard him。 He only knew that the sight and memory
  of   her   moved     him    deeply;   touching     the   spring    of  all  love  and
  tenderness;       all  faith  and    courage     within    him。    How     could    he
  imagine narrowness; selfishness; hardness in her? He created the
  mind   he   believed   in   out   of   his   own;   which   was   large;   unselfish;
  tender。
  The    hopes     he   felt  about   Hetty    softened     a  little  his  feeling
  towards Arthur。 Surely his attentions to Hetty must have been of a
  slight   kind;   they   were   altogether   wrong;   and   such   as   no   man   in
  Arthur’s   position   ought   to   have   allowed   himself;   but   they   must
  have   had   an   air   of   playfulness   about   them;   which   had   probably
  blinded him to their danger and had prevented them from laying
  any strong hold on Hetty’s heart。 As the new promise of happiness
  rose for Adam; his indignation and jealousy began to die out。 Hetty
  was   not   made   unhappy;   he   almost   believed   that   she   liked         him
  best;    and    the   thought     sometimes       crossed    his   mind     that   the
  friendship which had once seemed dead   for  ever  might  revive   in
  the days to come; and he would not have to say “good…bye” to the
  grand   old   woods;   but   would   like   them   better   because   they   were
  Arthur’s。 For this new promise   of  happiness   following  so  quickly
  on the shock of pain had an intoxicating effect on the sober Adam;
  who   had   all   his   life   been   used   to   much   hardship   and   moderate
  hope。 Was he really going to have an easy lot after all? It seemed
  so; for at the beginning  of  November;   Jonathan   Burge;   finding  it
  impossible to replace Adam; had at last made up his mind to offer
  him a share in the business; without further condition than that he
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  should continue to give his energies to it and renounce all thought
  of having a separate business of his own。 Son…in…law or no son…in…
  law; Adam had made himself too necessary to be parted with; and
  his headwork was so much more important to Burge than his skill
  in handicraft that his having the management of the woods made
  little difference in the value of his services; and as to the bargains
  about the squire’s timber; it would be easy to call in a third person。
  Adam saw here an opening into a broadening path of prosperous
  work such as he had thought of with ambitious longing ever since
  he was a lad: he might come to build a bridge; or a town hall; or a
  factory;   for   he   had   always   said   to   himself  that   Jonathan   Burge’s
  building business was like an acorn; which might be the mother of
  a   great  tree。   So  he   gave   his   hand   to   Burge   on   that   bargain;   and
  went     home     with   his  mind    full  of  happy     visions;   in  which    (my
  refined reader will perhaps be shocked when I say it) the image of
  Hetty   hovered;   and   smiled   over   plans   for   seasoning   timber   at   a
  trifling   expense;   calculations   as   to   the   cheapening   of   bricks   per
  thousand       by   water…carriage;       and   a   favourite    scheme      for   the
  strengthening        of  roofs   and   walls   with    a  peculiar    form    of  iron
  girder。   What   then?   Adam’s   enthusiasm   lay   in   these   things;   and
  our love is inwrought in our enthusiasm as electricity is inwrought
  in the air; exalting its power by a subtle presence。
  Adam would be able to take a separate house now; and provide
  for   his   mother    in   the  old   one;   his  prospects     would     justify  his
  marrying   very   soon;   and   if   Dinah   consented   to   have   Seth;   their
  mother      would     perhaps     be   more    contented      to  live  apart    from
  Adam。 But he told himself that he would not be hasty—he would
  not try Hetty’s feeling for him until it had had time to grow strong
  and   firm。   However;   tomorrow;   after   church;   he   would   go   to   the
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  Hall Farm and tell them the news。 Mr。 Poyser; he knew; would like
  it better than a five…pound note; and he should see if Hetty’s eyes
  brightened at it。 The months would be short with all he had to fill
  his mind; and this foolish eagerness which had come over him of
  late must not hurry him into any premature words。   Yet  when   he
  got home and told his mother the good news; and ate his supper;
  while she sat by almost crying for joy and wanting him to eat twice
  as   much   as   usual   because   of   this   good…luck;   he   could   not   help
  preparing her gently for the coming change by  talking  of  the   old
  house being too small for them all to go on living in it always。
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  Chapter XXXIV
  The Betrothal
  t   was   a   dry   Sunday;   and   really   a   pleasant   day   for   the   2d   of
  November。 There was no sunshine; but the clouds were high;
  Iand         the   wind    was   so   still  that  the  yellow    leaves   which
  fluttered   down   from   the   hedgerow   elms   must   have        fallen  from
  pure   decay。   Nevertheless;   Mrs。   Poyser   did   not   go   to   church;   for
  she had taken a cold too serious to be neglected; only two winters
  ago she had been laid up for weeks with a cold; and since his wife
  did not go to church; Mr。 Poyser considered that  on   the   whole   it
  would     be   as   well  for   him   to   stay  away     too  and    “keep    her
  company。”   He   could   perhaps   have   given   no   precise   form   to   the
  reasons that determined this conclusion;