第 54 节
作者:温暖寒冬      更新:2024-04-09 19:50      字数:9165
  honour keenly。 “I could swear to your back a long way off。 It’s just
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  the same back; only broader; as when you used to carry me on it。
  Do you remember?”
  “Aye;   sir;   I  remember。   It  ’ud  be a   poor   look…out   if   folks   didn’t
  remember what they did and said when they were lads。 We should
  think no more about old friends than we do about new uns; then。”
  “You’re going to Broxton; I suppose?” said Arthur; putting his
  horse on at a slow pace while Adam walked by his side。 “Are you
  going to the rectory?”
  “No; sir; I’m going to see about Bradwell’s barn。 They’re afraid
  of the roof pushing the walls out; and I’m going to see what can be
  done with it before we send the stuff and the workmen。”
  “Why;     Burge    trusts   almost   everything     to  you   now;    Adam;
  doesn’t he? I should think he will make you his partner soon。 He
  will; if he’s wise。”
  “Nay; sir; I don’t see as he’d be much the better off for that。 A
  foreman; if he’s got a conscience and delights in his work; will do
  his business as well as if he was a partner。 I wouldn’t give a penny
  for a man as ’ud drive a nail in slack because he didn’t  get  extra
  pay for it。”
  “I know that; Adam; I know you work for him as well as if you
  were working for yourself。 But you would have more power than
  you    have   now;   and   could    turn  the   business    to  better  account
  perhaps。 The old man must give up his business sometime; and he
  has no son;   I  suppose   he’ll   want  a   son…in…law  who  can   take   to  it。
  But he has rather grasping fingers of his own; I fancy。 I daresay he
  wants a man who can put some money into the business。 If I were
  not as poor as a rat; I would gladly invest some money in that way;
  for the sake of having you settled on the estate。 I’m sure I should
  profit by it in the end。 And perhaps I shall be better off in a year or
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  two。 I shall have a larger allowance now I’m of age; and when I’ve
  paid off a debt or two; I shall be able to look about me。”
  “You’re very good to say so; sir; and I’m not unthankful。 But”—
  Adam continued; in a decided tone—“I shouldn’t like to make any
  offers to Mr。 Burge; or t’ have any made for me。 I see no clear road
  to a partnership。 If he should ever want to dispose of the business;
  that ’ud be a different matter。 I should be glad of some money at a
  fair interest then; for I feel sure I could pay it off in time。”
  “Very well; Adam;” said Arthur; remembering what Mr。 Irwine
  had said about a probable hitch in the love…making between Adam
  and Mary Burge; “we’ll say no more about it at present。 When is
  your father to be buried?”
  “On Sunday; sir; Mr。 Irwine’s coming earlier on purpose。 I shall
  be   glad   when   it’s   over;   for   I   think   my   mother   ’ull   perhaps   get
  easier then。 It cuts one sadly to see the grief of old people; they’ve
  no way o’ working it off; and the new spring brings no new shoots
  out on the withered tree。”
  “Ah; you’ve had a good deal of trouble and vexation in your life;
  Adam。      I  don’t  think    you’ve   ever   been    hare…brained      and   light…
  hearted;   like   other   youngsters。   You’ve   always   had   some   care   on
  your mind。”
  “Why; yes; sir; but that’s nothing to make a fuss about。 If we’re
  men     and    have   men’s    feelings;   I  reckon     we   must    have   men’s
  troubles。 We can’t be like the birds; as fly from their nest as soon
  as they’ve got their wings; and never know their kin when they see
  ’em; and get a fresh lot every year。 I’ve had enough to be thankful
  for:   I’ve   allays   had   health   and   strength   and   brains   to   give   me   a
  delight in my work; and I count it a great thing as I’ve had Bartle
  Massey’s   night…school   to   go   to。   He’s   helped   me   to   knowledge   I
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  could never ha’ got by myself。”
  “What a rare fellow you are; Adam!” said Arthur; after a pause;
  in which he had looked musingly at the big fellow walking by his
  side。   “I   could   hit   out   better   than   most   men   at  Oxford;   and   yet   I
  believe   you   would   knock   me   into   next   week   if   I   were   to   have   a
  battle with you。”
  “God     forbid    I  should    ever   do   that;  sir;”  said   Adam;     looking
  round at Arthur and smiling。 “I used to fight for fun; but I’ve never
  done that since I was the cause o’ poor Gil Tranter being laid up
  for   a   fortnight。    I’ll  never   fight   any   man     again;   only    when     he
  behaves   like   a   scoundrel。   If   you   get   hold   of   a   chap   that’s   got   no
  shame nor conscience to stop him; you must try what you can do
  by bunging his eyes up。”
  Arthur      did   not   laugh;    for   he   was    preoccupied       with    some
  thought that made him say presently; “I should think now; Adam;
  you  never   have   any   struggles   within   yourself。   I   fancy   you   would
  master  a  wish  that  you  had   made   up   your  mind   it  was   not  quite
  right   to   indulge;   as   easily   as   you   would   knock   down   a   drunken
  fellow     who    was   quarrelsome       with    you。   I  mean;    you    are  never
  shilly…shally; first making up your mind that you won’t do a thing;
  and then doing it after all?”
  “Well;”   said   Adam;   slowly;   after   a   moment’s   hesitation;   “no。   I
  don’t   remember   ever   being   see…saw   in   that   way;   when   I’d   made
  my mind up; as you say; that a thing was wrong。 It takes the taste
  out  o’   my  mouth  for  things;   when   I   know   I   should   have   a   heavy
  conscience after ’em。 I’ve seen pretty clear; ever since I could cast
  up a sum; as you can never do what’s wrong without breeding sin
  and   trouble   more   than   you        can   ever   see。  It’s  like   a  bit   o’  bad
  workmanship—you never see th’ end o’ the mischief it’ll do。 And
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  it’s   a   poor   look…out   to   come   into   the   world   to   make   your   fellow…
  creatures      worse     off  instead     o’  better。   But    there’s    a  difference
  between   the   things   folks   call   wrong。   I’m   not   for   making  a   sin   of
  every little fool’s trick; or bit o’ nonsense anybody may be let into;
  like   some   o’   them   dissenters。   And   a   man   may   have   two   minds
  whether it isn’t worthwhile to get a bruise or two for the sake of a
  bit o’ fun。 But it isn’t my way to be see…saw about anything: I think
  my  fault  lies   th’   other  way。   When   I’ve   said a   thing;   if  it’s   only   to
  myself; it’s hard for me to go back。”
  “Yes; that’s just what I expected of you;”   said Arthur。   “You’ve
  got   an   iron   will;   as   well   as   an   iron   arm。   But   however   strong   a
  man’s   resolution   may   be;   it   costs   him   something   to   carry   it   out;
  now and then。 We may determine not to gather any cherries and
  keep our hands sturdily in our pockets; but we can’t prevent our
  mouths from watering。”
  “That’s true; sir; but there’s nothing like settling with ourselves
  as there’s a deal we must do without i’ this life。 It’s no use looking
  on   life   as   if   it   was   Treddles’on   Fair;   where   folks   only   go   to   see
  shows   and   get   fairings。   If   we   do;   we   shall   find   it   different。   But
  where’s the use o’ me talking to you; sir? You know better than I
  do。”
  “I’m not so sure of that; Adam。 You’ve had four or five years of
  experience   more   than   I’ve   had;   and   I   think   your   life   has   been   a
  better school to you than college has been to me。”
  “Why;   sir;   you   seem   to   think   o’   college   something   like   what
  Bartle     Massey   does。      He   says    college    mostly   makes      people     like
  bladders—just good for nothing but t’ hold   the   stuff  as  is poured
  into ’em。 But he’s got a tongue   like   a  sharp blade;   Bartle   has—it
  never touches anything but it cuts。 Here’s