第 49 节
作者:打倒一切      更新:2024-04-07 21:07      字数:9322
  were turned to the ground as she mentioned his name。
  His unlooked…for return was enough in itself to make
  Catherine's heart sink; and for a few moments she
  hardly supposed there were anything worse to be told。
  She said nothing; and Eleanor; endeavouring to collect
  herself and speak with firmness; but with eyes still
  cast down; soon went on。  〃You are too good; I am sure;
  to think the worse of me for the part I am obliged
  to perform。  I am indeed a most unwilling messenger。
  After what has so lately passed; so lately been
  settled between ushow joyfully; how thankfully on my
  side!as to your continuing here as I hoped for many;
  many weeks longer; how can I tell you that your kindness
  is not to be acceptedand that the happiness your
  company has hitherto given us is to be repaid by But
  I must not trust myself with words。  My dear Catherine;
  we are to part。  My father has recollected an engagement
  that takes our whole family away on Monday。  We are going
  to Lord Longtown's; near Hereford; for a fortnight。
  Explanation and apology are equally impossible。  I cannot
  attempt either。〃
  〃My dear Eleanor;〃 cried Catherine; suppressing her
  feelings as well as she could; 〃do not be so distressed。
  A second engagement must give way to a first。  I am very;
  very sorry we are to partso soon; and so suddenly too;
  but I am not offended; indeed I am not。  I can finish my
  visit here; you know; at any time; or I hope you will come
  to me。  Can you; when you return from this lord's; come
  to Fullerton?〃
  〃It will not be in my power; Catherine。〃
  〃Come when you can; then。〃
  Eleanor made no answer; and Catherine's thoughts
  recurring to something more directly interesting;
  she added; thinkng aloud; 〃Mondayso soon as Monday;
  and you all go。  Well; I am certain of I shall be able
  to take leave; however。  I need not go till just before
  you do; you know。  Do not be distressed; Eleanor; I can
  go on Monday very well。  My father and mother's having
  no notice of it is of very little consequence。
  The general will send a servant with me; I dare say;
  half the wayand then I shall soon be at Salisbury;
  and then I am only nine miles from home。〃
  〃Ah; Catherine! Were it settled so; it would be
  somewhat less intolerable; though in such common attentions
  you would have received but half what you ought。
  Buthow can I tell you?tomorrow morning is fixed for your
  leaving us; and not even the hour is left to your choice;
  the very carriage is ordered; and will be here at seven
  o'clock; and no servant will be offered you。〃
  Catherine sat down; breathless and speechless。
  〃I could hardly believe my senses; when I heard it;
  and no displeasure; no resentment that you can feel at
  this moment; however justly great; can be more than I
  myselfbut I must not talk of what I felt。  Oh! That I
  could suggest anything in extenuation! Good God! What
  will your father and mother say! After courting you from
  the protection of real friends to thisalmost double
  distance from your home; to have you driven out of the house;
  without the considerations even of decent civility! Dear;
  dear Catherine; in being the bearer of such a message;
  I seem guilty myself of all its insult; yet; I trust you
  will acquit me; for you must have been long enough in this
  house to see that I am but a nominal mistress of it;
  that my real power is nothing。〃
  〃Have I offended the general?〃 said Catherine
  in a faltering voice。
  〃Alas! For my feelings as a daughter; all that I know;
  all that I answer for; is that you can have given him
  no just cause of offence。  He certainly is greatly;
  very greatly discomposed; I have seldom seen him more so。
  His temper is not happy; and something has now occurred
  to ruffle it in an uncommon degree; some disappointment;
  some vexation; which just at this moment seems important;
  but which I can hardly suppose you to have any concern in;
  for how is it possible?〃
  It was with pain that Catherine could speak at all;
  and it was only for Eleanor's sake that she attempted it。
  〃I am sure;〃 said she; 〃I am very sorry if I have offended him。
  It was the last thing I would willingly have done。
  But do not be unhappy; Eleanor。  An engagement; you know;
  must be kept。  I am only sorry it was not recollected sooner;
  that I might have written home。  But it is of very
  little consequence。〃
  〃I hope; I earnestly hope; that to your real safety it
  will be of none; but to everything else it is of the greatest
  consequence: to comfort; appearance; propriety; to your family;
  to the world。  Were your friends; the Allens; still in Bath;
  you might go to them with comparative ease; a few hours
  would take you there; but a journey of seventy miles;
  to be taken post by you; at your age; alone; unattended!〃
  〃Oh; the journey is nothing。  Do not think about that。
  And if we are to part; a few hours sooner or later;
  you know; makes no difference。  I can be ready by seven。
  Let me be called in time。〃 Eleanor saw that she wished
  to be alone; and believing it better for each that they
  should avoid any further conversation; now left her with;
  〃I shall see you in the morning。〃
  Catherine's swelling heart needed relief。
  In Eleanor's presence friendship and pride had equally
  restrained her tears; but no sooner was she gone than
  they burst forth in torrents。  Turned from the house;
  and in such a way! Without any reason that could justify;
  any apology that could atone for the abruptness;
  the rudeness; nay; the insolence of it。  Henry at a
  distancenot able even to bid him farewell。  Every hope;
  every expectation from him suspended; at least; and who could
  say how long? Who could say when they might meet again?
  And all this by such a man as General Tilney; so polite;
  so well bred; and heretofore so particularly fond of her! It
  was as incomprehensible as it was mortifying and grievous。
  From what it could arise; and where it would end;
  were considerations of equal perplexity and alarm。
  The manner in which it was done so grossly uncivil;
  hurrying her away without any reference to her own convenience;
  or allowing her even the appearance of choice as to the time
  or mode of her travelling; of two days; the earliest fixed on;
  and of that almost the earliest hour; as if resolved
  to have her gone before he was stirring in the morning;
  that he might not be obliged even to see her。  What could
  all this mean but an intentional affront? By some means
  or other she must have had the misfortune to offend him。
  Eleanor had wished to spare her from so painful a notion;
  but Catherine could not believe it possible that any injury
  or any misfortune could provoke such ill will against
  a person not connected; or; at least; not supposed to be
  connected with it。
  Heavily passed the night。  Sleep; or repose that
  deserved the name of sleep; was out of the question。
  That room; in which her disturbed imagination had tormented
  her on her first arrival; was again the scene of agitated
  spirits and unquiet slumbers。  Yet how different now the
  source of her inquietude from what it had been thenhow
  mournfully superior in reality and substance! Her anxiety
  had foundation in fact; her fears in probability;
  and with a mind so occupied in the contemplation of
  actual and natural evil; the solitude of her situation;
  the darkness of her chamber; the antiquity of the building;
  were felt and considered without the smallest emotion;
  and though the wind was high; and often produced strange
  and sudden noises throughout the house; she heard it
  all as she lay awake; hour after hour; without curiosity
  or terror。
  Soon after six Eleanor entered her room; eager to show
  attention or give assistance where it was possible; but very
  little remained to be done。  Catherine had not loitered;
  she was almost dressed; and her packing almost finished。
  The possibility of some conciliatory message from
  the general occurred to her as his daughter appeared。
  What so natural; as that anger should pass away and
  repentance succeed it? And she only wanted to know how far;
  after what had passed; an apology might properly be received
  by her。  But the knowledge would have been useless here;
  it was n