第 15 节
作者:打倒一切      更新:2024-04-07 21:07      字数:9320
  She went home very happy。  The morning had answered
  all her hopes; and the evening of the following day
  was now the object of expectation; the future good。
  What gown and what head…dress she should wear on the
  occasion became her chief concern。  She cannot be justified
  in it。  Dress is at all times a frivolous distinction;
  and excessive solicitude about it often destroys its own aim。
  Catherine knew all this very well; her great aunt had read
  her a lecture on the subject only the Christmas before;
  and yet she lay awake ten minutes on Wednesday night
  debating between her spotted and her tamboured muslin;
  and nothing but the shortness of the time prevented her
  buying a new one for the evening。  This would have been
  an error in judgment; great though not uncommon; from which
  one of the other sex rather than her own; a brother rather
  than a great aunt; might have warned her; for man only can
  be aware of the insensibility of man towards a new gown。
  It would be mortifying to the feelings of many ladies;
  could they be made to understand how little the heart of
  man is affected by what is costly or new in their attire;
  how little it is biased by the texture of their muslin;
  and how unsusceptible of peculiar tenderness towards
  the spotted; the sprigged; the mull; or the jackonet。
  Woman is fine for her own satisfaction alone。  No man will
  admire her the more; no woman will like her the better
  for it。  Neatness and fashion are enough for the former;
  and a something of shabbiness or impropriety will be most
  endearing to the latter。  But not one of these grave
  reflections troubled the tranquillity of Catherine。
  She entered the rooms on Thursday evening with feelings
  very different from what had attended her thither the
  Monday before。  She had then been exulting in her engagement
  to Thorpe; and was now chiefly anxious to avoid his sight;
  lest he should engage her again; for though she could not;
  dared not expect that Mr。 Tilney should ask her a third
  time to dance; her wishes; hopes; and plans all centred
  in nothing less。  Every young lady may feel for my
  heroine in this critical moment; for every young lady
  has at some time or other known the same agitation。
  All have been; or at least all have believed themselves to be;
  in danger from the pursuit of someone whom they wished
  to avoid; and all have been anxious for the attentions
  of someone whom they wished to please。  As soon as they
  were joined by the Thorpes; Catherine's agony began;
  she fidgeted about if John Thorpe came towards her;
  hid herself as much as possible from his view;
  and when he spoke to her pretended not to hear him。
  The cotillions were over; the country…dancing beginning;
  and she saw nothing of the Tilneys。
  〃Do not be frightened; my dear Catherine;〃
  whispered Isabella; 〃but I am really going to dance with your
  brother again。  I declare positively it is quite shocking。
  I tell him he ought to be ashamed of himself; but you
  and John must keep us in countenance。  Make haste;
  my dear creature; and come to us。  John is just walked off;
  but he will be back in a moment。〃
  Catherine had neither time nor inclination to answer。
  The others walked away; John Thorpe was still in view;
  and she gave herself up for lost。  That she might
  not appear; however; to observe or expect him; she kept
  her eyes intently fixed on her fan; and a self…condemnation
  for her folly; in supposing that among such a crowd they
  should even meet with the Tilneys in any reasonable time;
  had just passed through her mind; when she suddenly
  found herself addressed and again solicited to dance;
  by Mr。 Tilney himself。  With what sparkling eyes and ready
  motion she granted his request; and with how pleasing
  a flutter of heart she went with him to the set;
  may be easily imagined。  To escape; and; as she believed;
  so narrowly escape John Thorpe; and to be asked;
  so immediately on his joining her; asked by Mr。 Tilney;
  as if he had sought her on purpose!it did not appear
  to her that life could supply any greater felicity。
  Scarcely had they worked themselves into the quiet
  possession of a place; however; when her attention
  was claimed by John Thorpe; who stood behind her。
  〃Heyday; Miss Morland!〃 said he。  〃What is the meaning
  of this? I thought you and I were to dance together。〃
  〃I wonder you should think so; for you never asked me。〃
  〃That is a good one; by Jove! I asked you as soon
  as I came into the room; and I was just going to ask
  you again; but when I turned round; you were gone! This
  is a cursed shabby trick! I only came for the sake of
  dancing with you; and I firmly believe you were engaged
  to me ever since Monday。  Yes; I remember; I asked you
  while you were waiting in the lobby for your cloak。
  And here have I been telling all my acquaintance that I
  was going to dance with the prettiest girl in the room;
  and when they see you standing up with somebody else;
  they will quiz me famously。〃
  〃Oh; no; they will never think of me; after such
  a description as that。〃
  〃By heavens; if they do not; I will kick them out
  of the room for blockheads。  What chap have you there?〃
  Catherine satisfied his curiosity。  〃Tilney;〃 he repeated。
  〃HumI do not know him。  A good figure of a man; well put
  together。  Does he want a horse? Here is a friend of mine;
  Sam Fletcher; has got one to sell that would suit anybody。
  A famous clever animal for the roadonly forty guineas。
  I had fifty minds to buy it myself; for it is one of my
  maxims always to buy a good horse when I meet with one;
  but it would not answer my purpose; it would not do for
  the field。  I would give any money for a real good hunter。
  I have three now; the best that ever were backed。
  I would not take eight hundred guineas for them。
  Fletcher and I mean to get a house in Leicestershire;
  against the next season。  It is so d uncomfortable;
  living at an inn。〃
  This was the last sentence by which he could weary
  Catherine's attention; for he was just then borne off by the
  resistless pressure of a long string of passing ladies。
  Her partner now drew near; and said; 〃That gentleman would
  have put me out of patience; had he stayed with you half
  a minute longer。  He has no business to withdraw the attention
  of my partner from me。  We have entered into a contract
  of mutual agreeableness for the space of an evening;
  and all our agreeableness belongs solely to each other
  for that time。  Nobody can fasten themselves on the notice
  of one; without injuring the rights of the other。
  I consider a country…dance as an emblem of marriage。
  Fidelity and complaisance are the principal duties of both;
  and those men who do not choose to dance or marry themselves;
  have no business with the partners or wives of their neighbours。〃
  〃But they are such very different things!〃
  〃That you think they cannot be compared together。〃
  〃To be sure not。  People that marry can never part;
  but must go and keep house together。  People that dance
  only stand opposite each other in a long room for half
  an hour。〃
  〃And such is your definition of matrimony and dancing。
  Taken in that light certainly; their resemblance is
  not striking; but I think I could place them in such a view。
  You will allow; that in both; man has the advantage
  of choice; woman only the power of refusal; that in both;
  it is an engagement between man and woman; formed for
  the advantage of each; and that when once entered into;
  they belong exclusively to each other till the moment
  of its dissolution; that it is their duty; each to
  endeavour to give the other no cause for wishing that he
  or she had bestowed themselves elsewhere; and their best
  interest to keep their own imaginations from wandering
  towards the perfections of their neighbours; or fancying
  that they should have been better off with anyone else。
  You will allow all this?〃
  〃Yes; to be sure; as you state it; all this sounds
  very well; but still they are so very different。
  I cannot look upon them at all in the same light;
  nor think the same duties belong to them。〃
  〃In one respect; there certainly is a difference。
  In marriage; the man is supposed to provide for the support