第 28 节
作者:痛罚      更新:2024-04-07 11:54      字数:9322
  in which the light was burning。  The switchman
  stationed there heard the cry I was able to utter;
  and came to my assistance。  He carried me up to
  his signal…room and laid me on the floor by the stove;
  he had nothing to give me except warmth and shel…
  ter; but these were now all I asked。  I sank into a
  comatose condition shot through with pain。  Tow…
  ard two o'clock in the morning he waked me and
  told me my train was coming; asking if I felt able
  to take it。  I decided to make the effort。  He dared
  not leave his post to help me; but he signaled to the
  train; and I began my progress back to the station。
  I never clearly remembered how I got there; but
  I arrived and was helped into a car by a brakeman。
  About four o'clock in the morning I had to change
  again; but this time I was left at the station of a town;
  and was there met by a man whose wife had offered
  me hospitality。  He drove me to their home; and
  I was cared for。  What I had; it developed; was a
  severe case of ptomaine poisoning; and I soon re…
  covered; but even after all these years I do not
  like to recall that night。
  To be ‘‘snowed in'' was a frequent experience。
  Once; in Minnesota; I was one of a dozen travelers
  who were driven in an omnibus from a country hotel
  to the nearest railroad station; about two miles away。
  It was snowing hard; and the driver left us on the
  station platform and departed。  Time passed; but
  the train we were waiting for did not come。  A true
  Western blizzard; growing wilder every moment; had
  set in; and we finally realized that the train was not
  coming; and that; moreover; it was now impossible
  to get back to the hotel。  The only thing we could
  do was to spend the night in the railroad station。
  I was the only woman in the group; and my fellow…
  passengers were cattlemen who whiled away the
  hours by smoking; telling stories; and exchanging
  pocket flasks。  The station had a telegraph operator
  who occupied a tiny box by himself; and he finally
  invited me to share the privacy of his microscopic
  quarters。  I entered them very gratefully; and he
  laid a board on the floor; covered it with an over…
  coat made of buffalo…skins; and cheerfully invited
  me to go to bed。  I went; and slept peacefully until
  morning。  Then we all returned to the hotel; the
  men going ahead and shoveling a path。
  Again; one Sunday; I was snowbound in a train
  near Faribault; and this time also I was the only
  woman among a number of cattlemen。  They were
  an odoriferous lot; who smoked diligently and played
  cards without ceasing; but in deference to my pres…
  ence they swore only mildly and under their breath。
  At last they wearied of their game; and one of them
  rose and came to me。
  ‘‘I heard you lecture the other night;'' he said;
  awkwardly; ‘‘and I've bin tellin' the fellers about it。
  We'd like to have a lecture now。''
  Their card…playing had seemed to me a sinful
  thing (I was stricter in my views then than I am
  to…day); and I was glad to create a diversion。  I
  agreed to give them a lecture; and they went through
  the train; which consisted of two day coaches; and
  brought in the remaining passengers。  A few of
  them could sing; and we began with a Moody and
  Sankey hymn or two and the appealing ditty;
  ‘‘Where is my wandering boy to…night?'' in which
  they all joined with special zest。  Then I delivered
  the lecture; and they listened attentively。  When I
  had finished they seemed to think that some slight
  return was in order; so they proceeded to make a
  bed for me。  They took the bottoms out of two seats;
  arranged them crosswise; and one man folded his
  overcoat into a pillow。  Inspired by this; two others
  immediately donated their fur overcoats for upper
  and lower coverings。  When the bed was ready they
  waved me toward it with a most hospitable air; and
  I crept in between the overcoats and slumbered
  sweetly until I was aroused the next morning by the
  welcome music of a snow…plow which had been
  sent from St。 Paul to our rescue。
  To drive fifty or sixty miles in a day to meet a
  lecture engagement was a frequent experience。  I
  have been driven across the prairies in June when
  they were like a mammoth flower…bed; and in Jan…
  uary when they seemed one huge snow…covered
  gravemy grave; I thought; at times。  Once during a
  thirty…mile drive; when the thermometer was twenty
  degrees below zero; I suddenly realized that my face
  was freezing。  I opened my satchel; took out the
  tissue…paper that protected my best gown; and put
  the paper over my face as a veil; tucking it inside
  of my bonnet。  When I reached my destination the
  tissue was a perfect mask; frozen stiff; and I
  had to be lifted from the sleigh。  I was due on the
  lecture platform in half an hour; so I drank a huge
  bowl of boiling ginger tea and appeared on time。
  That night I went to bed expecting an attack of
  pneumonia as a result of the exposure; but I awoke
  next morning in superb condition。  I possess what
  is called ‘‘an iron constitution;'' and in those days
  I needed it。
  That same winter; in Kansas; I was chased by
  wolves; and though I had been more or less inti…
  mately associated with wolves in my pioneer life
  in the Michigan woods; I found the occasion extreme…
  ly unpleasant。  During the long winters of my girl…
  hood wolves had frequently slunk around our log
  cabin; and at times in the lumber…camps we had
  even heard them prowling on the roofs。  But those
  were very different creatures from the two huge;
  starving; tireless animals that hour after hour loped
  behind the cutter in which I sat with another woman;
  who; throughout the whole experience; never lost
  her head nor her control of our frantic horses。  They
  were mad with terror; for; try as they would; they
  could not outrun the grim things that trailed us;
  seemingly not trying to gain on us; but keeping al…
  ways at the same distance; with a patience that was
  horrible。  From time to time I turned to look at
  them; and the picture they made as they came on
  and on is one I shall never forget。  They were so near
  that I could see their eyes and slavering jaws; and
  they were as noiseless as things in a dream。  At
  last; little by little; they began to gain on us; and
  they were almost within striking distance of the
  whip; which was our only weapon; when we reached
  the welcome outskirts of a town and they fell back。
  Some of the memories of those days have to do
  with personal encounters; brief but poignant。  Once
  when I was giving a series of Chautauqua lectures;
  I spoke at the Chautauqua in Pontiac; Illinois。
  The State Reformatory for Boys was situated in
  that town; and; after the lecture the superintendent
  of the Reformatory invited me to visit it and say
  a few words to the inmates。  I went and spoke for
  half an hour; carrying away a memory of the place
  and of the boys which haunted me for months。  A
  year later; while I was waiting for a train in the
  station at Shelbyville; a lad about sixteen years old
  passed me and hesitated; looking as if he knew me。
  I saw that he wanted to speak and dared not; so
  I nodded to him。
  ‘‘You think you know me; don't you?'' I asked;
  when he came to my side。
  ‘‘Yes'm; I do know you;'' he told me; eagerly。
  ‘‘You are Miss Shaw; and you talked to us boys at
  Pontiac last year。  I'm out on parole now; but I
  'ain't forgot。  Us boys enjoyed you the best of any
  show we ever had!''
  I was touched by this artless compliment; and
  anxious to know how I had won it; so I asked;
  ‘‘What did I say that the boys liked?''
  The lad hesitated。  Then he said; slowly; ‘‘Well;
  you didn't talk as if you thought we were all
  bad。''
  ‘‘My boy;'' I told him; ‘‘I don't think you are all
  bad。  I know better!''
  As if I had touched a spring in him; the lad
  dropped into the seat by my side; then; leaning
  toward me; he said; impulsively; but almost in a
  whisper:
  ‘‘Say; Miss Shaw; SOME OF US BOYS SAYS OUR PRAYERS!''
  Rarely have I had a tribute that moved me more
  than that shy confidence; and often since then; in
  hours of discouragement or failure; I have reminded
  myself that at least there must have been something
  in me once to make a lad of that age so open up
  his heart。  We had a long and intimate talk; from
  which grew the abiding interest I feel in boys to…
  day。
  Naturally I was sometimes inconvenienced by
  slight misunderstandings between local committees
  and myself as to the subjects of my lectures; and the
  most extreme instance of this occurred in a town
  where I arrived to find myself widely advertised
  as ‘‘Mrs。 Anna Shaw; who whistled before Queen
  Victoria''!  Transfixed; I gaped before the bill…
  boards; and by reading their additional lettering
  discovered the gratifying fact that at least I was
  not expected to whistle now。  Instead; it appeared;
  I was to lecture on ‘‘The Missing Link。''
  As usual; I had arriv