第 22 节
作者:痛罚      更新:2024-04-07 11:54      字数:9322
  considered the interview ended; we left him with
  heavy hearts。  While we were walking slowly away;
  Miss Oliver confided to me that she did not intend
  to leave the Church。  Instead; she told me; she
  would stay in and fight the matter of her ordination
  to a finish。  I; however; felt differently。  I had done
  considerable fighting during the past two years; and
  my heart and soul were weary。  I said:  ‘‘I shall get
  out; I am no better and no stronger than a man;
  and it is all a man can do to fight the world; the
  flesh; and the devil; without fighting his Church as
  well。  I do not intend to fight my Church。  But I
  am called to preach the gospel; and if I cannot
  preach it in my own Church; I will certainly preach
  it in some other Church!''
  As if in response to this outburst; a young min…
  ister named Mark Trafton soon called to see me。
  He had been present at our Conference; he had seen
  my Church refuse to ordain me; and he had come to
  suggest that I apply for ordination in his Church
  the Methodist Protestant。  To leave my Church;
  even though urged to do so by its appointed spokes…
  man; seemed a radical step。  Before taking this I
  appealed from the decision of the Conference to the
  General Conference of the Methodist Episcopal
  Church; which held its session that year in Cin…
  cinnati; Ohio。  Miss Oliver also appealed; and again
  we were both refused ordination; the General Con…
  ference voting to sustain Bishop Andrews in his
  decision。  Not content with this achievement; the
  Conference even took a backward step。  It deprived
  us of the right to be licensed as local preachers。
  After this blow I recalled with gratitude the Reverend
  Mark Trafton's excellent advice; and I immediately
  applied for ordination in the Methodist Protestant
  Church。  My name was presented at the Conference
  held in Tarrytown in October; 1880; and the fight
  was on。
  During these Conferences it is customary for each
  candidate to retire while the discussion of his in…
  dividual fitness for ordination is in progress。  When
  my name came up I was asked; as my predecessors
  had been; to leave the room for a few moments。  I
  went into an anteroom and waiteda half…hour; an
  hour; all afternoon; all evening; and still the battle
  raged。  I varied the monotony of sitting in the ante…
  room by strolls around Tarrytown; and I think I
  learned to know its every stone and turn。  The next
  day passed in the same way。  At last; late on Saturday
  night; it was suddenly announced by my opponents
  that I was not even a member of the Church in
  which I had applied for ordination。  The statement
  created consternation among my friends。  None of
  us had thought of that!  The bomb; timed to ex…
  plode at the very end of the session; threatened to
  destroy all my hopes。  Of course; my opponents
  had reasoned; it would be too late for me to do
  anything; and my name would be dropped。
  But it was not too late。  Dr。 Lyman Davis; the
  pastor of the Methodist Protestant Church in Tarry…
  town; was very friendly toward me and my ordina…
  tion; and he proved his friendship in a singularly
  prompt and efficient fashion。  Late as it was; he
  immediately called together the trustees of his
  church; and they responded。  To them I made my
  application for church membership; which they ac…
  cepted within five minutes。  I was now a member
  of the Church; but it was too late to obtain any
  further action from the Conference。  The next day;
  Sunday; all the men who had applied for ordination
  were ordained; and I was left out。
  On Monday morning; however; when the Con…
  ference met in its final business session; my case was
  reopened; and I was eventually called before the
  members to answer questions。  Some of these were
  extremely interesting; and several of the episodes
  that occurred were very amusing。  One old gentle…
  man I can see as I write。  He was greatly excited;
  and he led the opposition by racing up and down
  the aisles; quoting from the Scriptures to prove his
  case against women ministers。  As he ran about he
  had a trick of putting his arms under the back of
  his coat; making his coat…tails stand out like wings
  and incidentally revealing two long white tape…
  strings belonging to a flannel undergarment。  Even
  in the painful stress of those hours I observed with
  interest how beautifully those tape…strings were
  ironed!
  I was there to answer any questions that were
  asked of me; and the questions came like hail…
  stones in a sudden summer storm。
  ‘‘Paul said; ‘Wives; obey your husbands;' '' shouted
  my old man of the coat…tails。  ‘‘Suppose your hus…
  band should refuse to allow you to preach?  What
  then?''
  ‘‘In the first place;'' I answered; ‘‘Paul did not
  say so; according to the Scriptures。  But even if he
  did; it would not concern me; for I am a spinster。''
  The old man looked me over。  ‘‘You might marry
  some day;'' he predicted; cautiously。
  ‘‘Possibly;'' I admitted。  ‘‘Wiser women than I
  am have married。  But it is equally possible that I
  might marry a man who would command me to
  preach; and in that case I want to be all ready to
  obey him。''
  At this another man; a bachelor; also began to
  draw from the Scriptures。  ‘‘An elder;'' he quoted;
  ‘‘shall be the husband of one wife。''  And he de…
  manded; triumphantly; ‘‘How is it possible for you
  to be the husband of a wife?''
  In response to that I quoted a bit myself。  ‘‘Paul
  said; ‘Anathema unto him who addeth to or taketh
  from the Scriptures;' '' I reminded this gentleman;
  and added that a twisted interpretation of the
  Scriptures was as bad as adding to or taking from
  them; and that no one doubted that Paul was
  warning the elders against polygamy。  Then I went
  a bit further; for by this time the absurd character
  of the questions was getting on my nerves。
  ‘‘Even if my good brother's interpretation is cor…
  rect;'' I said; ‘‘he has overlooked two important
  points。  Though he is an elder; he is also a bachelor;
  so I am as much of a husband as he is!''
  A good deal of that sort of thing went on。  The
  most satisfactory episode of the session; to me; was
  the downfall of three pert young men who in turn
  tried to make it appear that as the duty of the Con…
  ference was to provide churches for all its pastors;
  I might become a burden to the Church if it proved
  impossible to provide a pastorate for me。  At that;
  one of my friends in the council rose to his feet。
  ‘‘I have had official occasion to examine into the
  matter of Miss Shaw's parish and salary;'' he said;
  ‘‘and I know what salaries the last three speakers
  are drawing。  It may interest the Conference to
  know that Miss Shaw's present salary equals the
  combined salaries of the three young men who are
  so afraid she will be a burden to the Church。  If;
  before being ordained; she can earn three times as
  much as they now earn after being ordained; it seems
  fairly clear that they will never have to support her。
  We can only hope that she will never have to sup…
  port them。''
  The three young ministers subsided into their
  seats with painful abruptness; and from that time
  my opponents were more careful in their remarks。
  Still; many unpleasant things were said; and too
  much warmth was shown by both sides。  We
  gained ground through the day; however; and at
  the end of the session the Conference; by a large
  majority; voted to ordain me。
  The ordination service was fixed for the following
  evening; and even the gentlemen who had most
  vigorously opposed me were not averse to making
  the occasion a profitable one。  The contention had
  already enormously advertised the Conference; and
  the members now helped the good work along by
  sending forth widespread announcements of the
  result。  They also decided that; as the attendance
  at the service would be very large; they would take
  up a collection for the support of superannuated
  ministers。  The three young men who had feared I
  would become a burden were especially active in
  the matter of this collection; and; as they had no
  sense of humor; it did not seem incongruous to them
  to use my ordination as a means of raising money
  for men who had already become burdens to the
  Church。
  When the great night came (on October 12; 1880);
  the expected crowd came also。  And to the credit
  of my opponents I must add that; having lost their
  fight; they took their defeat in good part and grace…
  fully assisted in the services。  Sitting in one of the
  front pews was Mrs。 Stiles; the wife of Dr。 Stiles;
  who was superintendent of the Conference。  She
  was a dear little old lady of seventy; with a big;
  maternal heart; and when she saw me rise to walk
  up the aisle alone; she immediately rose; too; came
  to my side; offered me her arm; and led me to the
  altar。
  The ordination service was very impressive and
  beautiful。  Its peace and dignity; following the
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