第 28 节
作者:老是不进球      更新:2024-04-07 11:52      字数:9301
  night as this。〃
  Jim  Duds   looked   meditative。  〃Wot   makes   yer  care  for  that   babby  so
  much?〃 he asked。 〃 'T ain't yourn。〃
  Liz     sighed。     〃No;〃      she   said;    sadly。   〃That's     true。   But   it  seems
  something to hold on to; like。 See what my life has been!〃 She stopped;
  and    a   wave    of   colour    flushed    her   pallid   features。   〃From   a    little  girl;
  nothing but the streetsthe long; cruel streets! and I just a bit of dirt on the
  pavementno   more;   flung   here;   flung   there;   and   at   last   swept   into   the
  gutter。 All darkall useless!〃 She laughed a little。 〃Fancy; Jim! I've never
  seen the country!〃
  〃Nor   I;〃   said   Jim;   biting   a   piece   of   straw   reflectively。   〃It   must   be
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  powerful   fine;   with   naught   but   green   trees   an'   posies   a…   blowin'   an'   a
  growin'   everywheres。  There   ain't   many   kitching   areas   there;   though;   I'm
  told。〃
  Liz went on; scarcely heeding him: 〃The baby seems to me like what
  the country must beall harmless and sweet and quiet; when I hold it so;
  my heart gets peaceful somehowI don't know why。〃
  Again Jim looked speculative。 He waved his bitten straw expressively。
  〃Ye've had 'sperience; Liz。 Hain't ye met no man like wot ye could care
  fur?〃
  Liz trembled; and her eyes grew wild。。
  〃Men!〃 she   cried;  with bitterest scorn〃no   men   have   come   my   way;
  only brutes!〃
  Jim  stared;  but   was   silent; he   had no   fit   answer   ready。  Presently  Liz
  spoke again; more softly:
  〃Jim; do you know I went into a great church to…day?〃
  〃Worse luck!〃 said Jim; sententiously。 〃Church ain't no use nohow as
  far as I can see。〃
  〃There was a figure there; Jim;〃 went on Liz; earnestly; 〃of a Woman
  holding up a Baby; and people knelt down before it。 What do you s'pose it
  was?〃
  〃Can't   say!〃   replied   the   puzzled   Jim。   〃Are   ye   sure   't   was   a   church?
  Most like 't was a mooseum。〃
  〃No;   no!〃   said   Liz。   〃   'T   was   a   church   for   certain;   there   were   folks
  praying in it。〃
  〃Ah; well;〃 growled Jim; gruffly; 〃much good it may do 'em! I'm not of
  the   prayin'   sort。   A   woman   an'   a   babby;   did   ye   say?   Don't   ye   get   such
  cranky notions into yer head; Liz! Women an' babbies are common enough
  too   common;   by   a   long   chalk;   an'   as   for   prayin'   to   'em〃   Jim's   utter
  contempt   and   incredulity   were   too   great   for   further   expression;   and   he
  turned away; wishing her a curt 〃Good…night!〃
  〃Good…night!〃 said Liz; softly; and long after he had left her she still
  sat silent; thinking; thinking; with the baby asleep in her arms; listening to
  the rain as it dripped; dripped heavily; like clods falling on a coffin lid。 She
  was not a good womanfar from it。 Her very motive in hiring the infant at
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  so much a day was entirely inexcusable; it was simply to gain money upon
  false   pretencesby   exciting   more   pity   than   would   otherwise   have   been
  bestowed on her had she begged for herself alone; without a child in her
  arms。 At first she had carried the baby about to serve as a mere trick of her
  trade; but the warm feel of its little helpless body against her bosom day
  after day had softened her heart toward its innocence and pitiful weakness;
  and   at   last   she   had   grown   to   love   it   with   a   strange;   intense   passionso
  much   that   she   would   willingly   have   sacrificed   her   life   for   its   sake。   She
  knew   that   its   own   parents   cared   nothing   for   it;   except   for   the   money   it
  brought them through her hands; and often wild plans would form in her
  poor tired brainplans of running away with it altogether from the roaring;
  devouring   city;   to   some   sweet;   humble   country   village;   there   to   obtain
  work and devote herself to making this little child happy。 Poor Liz! Poor;
  bewildered; heart…broken Liz! Ignorant London heathen as she was; there
  was one fragrant flower blossoming in the desert of her soiled and wasted
  existencethe flower of a pure and guileless love for one of those 〃little
  ones;〃 of whom it hath been said by an all…pitying Divinity unknown   to
  her; 〃Suffer them to come unto Me; and forbid them not: for of such is the
  kingdom of heaven。〃
  The     dreary   winter    days    crept   on   apace;   and;   as   they   drew    near
  Christmas; dwellers in the streets leading off the Strand grew accustomed
  of nights to hear the plaintive voice of a woman; singing in a peculiarly
  thrilling and pathetic manner some of the old songs and ballads familiar
  and dear to the heart of every Englishman〃The Banks of Allan Water;〃
  〃The     Bailiff's   Daughter;〃      〃Sally    in  our   Alley;〃    〃The    Last    Rose    of
  Summer。〃 All   these   well…loved   ditties   she   sang   one   after   the   other;   and;
  though her notes were neither fresh nor powerful; they were true and often
  tender; more particularly in the hackneyed; but still captivating; melody of
  〃Home;       Sweet     Home。〃      Windows       were    opened;     and    pennies    freely
  showered       on   the   street   vocalist;    who    was    accompanied        in  all   her
  wanderings by  a   fragile infant;  which   she seemed to   carry  with   especial
  care and tenderness。 Sometimes; too; in the bleak afternoons; she would be
  seen   wending   her   way   through   mud   and   mire;   setting   her   weary   face
  against the bitter east wind; and patiently singing on; and motherly women;
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  coming   from  the   gay  shops   and stores;  where   they  had   been   purchasing
  Christmas   toys   for   their   own   children;   would   often   stop   to   look   at   the
  baby's pinched; white features with pity; and would say; while giving their
  spare   pennies;   〃Poor   little   thing!   Is   it   not   very   ill?〃   And   Liz;   her   heart
  freezing   with sudden   terror;  would   exclaim;  hurriedly;  〃Oh;  no;  no!   It is
  always      pale;   it  is  just  a   little  bit  weak;    that's   all!〃  And     the   kindly
  questioners; touched by the large despair of her dark eyes; would pass on
  and say no more。 And Christmas camethe birthday of the Child Christa
  feast    the   sacred    meaning       of  which     was    unknown       to   Liz;   she   only
  recognized it as a sort of large and somewhat dull bank… holiday; when all
  London   devoted   itself   to   church…going   and   the   eating   of   roast   beef   and
  plum…pudding。   The   whole   thing   was   incomprehensible   to   her   mind;   but
  even her sad countenance was brighter than usual on Christmas eve; and
  she felt almost gay; for had she not; by means of a little extra starvation on
  her own part; been able to buy a wondrous gold…and…crimson worsted bird
  suspended   from   an   elastic   string;   a   bird   which   bobbed   up   and   down   to
  command in   the most lively and   artistic   manner? And   had not   her hired
  baby   actually   laughed   at   the   clumsy   toy   laughed   an   elfish   and   weird
  laugh; the first it had ever indulged in? And Liz had laughed too; for pure
  gladness      in  the   child's   mirth;   and    the  worsted     bird   became     a   sort  of
  uncouth charm to make them both merry。
  But after Christmas had come and gone; and the melancholy days; the
  last   beating   of   the   failing   pulse   of   the   Old   Year;   throbbed   slowly   and
  heavily away; the baby took upon its wan visage a strange expression the
  solemn expression of worn…out and suffering age。 Its blue eyes grew more
  solemnly speculative and dreamy; and after a while it seemed to lose all
  taste    for  the   petty   things    of  this  world     and   the   low   desires    of  mere
  humanity。 It lay very quiet in Liz's arms; it never cried; and was no longer
  fretful; and it seemed to listen with a sort of mild approval to the tones of
  her voice as they rang out in the dreary streets; through which; by day and
  night; she patiently wandered。 By…and…by the worsted bird; too; fell out of
  favour;   it   jumped   and   glittered   in   vain;   the   baby   surveyed   it   with   an
  unmoved air of superior wisdom; just as if it had suddenly found out what
  real birds were like; and was not to be deceived into accepting so poor an
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