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  of my aged heart; is lost。 Oh would to heaven I had died but yesterday。〃
  A   violent   gush   of  grief   in  some   measure     relieved   him;   and;   after
  several vain attempts; he at length assumed sufficient composure to read
  the note。
  〃And how shall I return to my children?〃 said he: 〃how approach that
  mansion;   so   late   the habitation   of   peace? Alas!   my   dear   Lucy;   how   will
  you   support   these   heart…rending   tidings?   or   how   shall   I   be   enabled   to
  console you; who need so much consolation myself?〃
  The   old   man   returned   to   the   chaise;   but   the   light   step   and   chearful
  countenance were no more; sorrow filled his heart; and guided his motions;
  he   seated   himself   in   the   chaise;   his   venerable   head  reclined   upon   his
  bosom;   his   hands   were   folded;   his   eye   fixed   on   vacancy;   and   the   large
  drops of sorrow rolled silently down his cheeks。 There was a mixture of
  anguish and resignation depicted in his countenance; as if he would say;
  henceforth      who    shall   dare   to  boast   his   happiness;    or   even   in  idea
  contemplate his treasure; lest; in the very moment his heart is exulting in
  its   own   felicity;   the   object   which   constitutes   that   felicity   should   be   torn
  from him。
  CHAPTER XIV。
  MATERNAL SORROW。
  SLOW and   heavy  passed   the time   while the   carriage   was   conveying
  Mr。 Eldridge home; and yet when he came in sight of the house; he wished
  a longer reprieve from the dreadful task of informing Mr。 and Mrs。 Temple
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  of their daughter's elopement。
  It is easy to judge the anxiety of these affectionate parents; when they
  found the return of their father delayed so much beyond the expected time。
  They were now met in the dining parlour; and several of the young people
  who   had   been   invited   were   already   arrived。   Each   different   part   of   the
  company was employed in the same manner; looking out at the windows
  which faced the road。 At length the long…expected chaise appeared。 Mrs。
  Temple      ran    out   to  receive    and    welcome      her   darling:    her   young
  companions flocked round the door; each one eager to give her joy on the
  return of her birth…day。 The door of the chaise was opened: Charlotte was
  not there。 〃Where is my child?〃 cried Mrs。 Temple; in breathless agitation。
  Mr。 Eldridge could not answer: he took hold of his daughter's hand and
  led her into the house; and sinking on the first chair he came to; burst into
  tears; and sobbed aloud。
  〃She    is  dead;〃   cried   Mrs。    Temple。    〃Oh    my   dear   Charlotte!〃     and
  clasping her hands in an agony of distress; fell into strong hysterics。
  Mr。   Temple;   who   had   stood   speechless   with   surprize   and   fear;   now
  ventured to enquire if indeed his Charlotte was no more。 Mr。 Eldridge led
  him into another apartment; and putting the fatal note into his hand; cried
  〃Bear it like a Christian;〃 and turned from him; endeavouring to suppress
  his own too visible emotions。
  It would be vain to attempt describing what Mr。 Temple felt whilst he
  hastily ran over the dreadful lines: when he had finished; the paper dropt
  from his unnerved hand。 〃Gracious heaven!〃 said he; 〃could Charlotte act
  thus?〃   Neither   tear  nor  sigh   escaped   him;   and   he sat   the  image   of   mute
  sorrow; till roused from his stupor by the repeated shrieks of Mrs。 Temple。
  He rose hastily; and rushing into the apartment where she was; folded his
  arms   about   her;   and   saying〃Let   us   be   patient;   my   dear   Lucy;〃   nature
  relieved his almost bursting heart by a friendly gush of tears。
  Should any one; presuming on his own philosophic temper; look with
  an eye of contempt on the man who could indulge a woman's weakness;
  let him remember that man was a father; and he will then pity the misery
  which wrung those drops from a noble; generous heart。
  Mrs。    Temple     beginning     to   be  a   little  more   composed;      but   still
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  imagining her child was dead; her husband; gently taking her hand; cried
  〃You are mistaken; my love。 Charlotte is not dead。 〃
  〃Then she is very ill; else why did she not come? But I will go to her:
  the chaise is still at the door: let me go instantly to the dear girl。 If I was ill;
  she would fly to attend me; to alleviate my sufferings; and chear me with
  her love。〃
  〃Be calm; my dearest Lucy; and I will tell you all;〃 said Mr。 Temple。
  〃You must not go; indeed you must not; it will be of no use。〃
  〃Temple;〃 said she; assuming a look of firmness and composure; 〃tell
  me   the   truth   I   beseech   you。   I   cannot   bear   this   dreadful   suspense。   What
  misfortune   has   befallen   my   child?   Let   me   know   the   worst;   and   I   will
  endeavour to bear it as I ought。 〃
  〃Lucy;〃 replied Mr。 Temple; 〃imagine your daughter alive; and in no
  danger of death: what misfortune would you then dread?〃
  〃There is one misfortune which is worse than death。 But I know my
  child too well to suspect〃
  〃Be not too confident; Lucy。〃
  〃Oh heavens!〃 said she; 〃what horrid images do you start: is it possible
  she should forget〃
  〃She has forgot us all; my love; she has preferred the love of a stranger
  to the affectionate protection of her friends。
  〃Not eloped?〃 cried she eagerly。
  Mr。 Temple was silent。
  〃You cannot contradict it;〃 said she。 〃I see my fate in those tearful eyes。
  Oh   Charlotte!   Charlotte!   how   ill   have   you   requited   our   tenderness!   But;
  Father of Mercies;〃 continued she; sinking on her knees; and raising her
  streaming eyes and clasped hands to heaven; 〃this once vouchsafe to hear
  a   fond;   a   distracted   mother's   prayer。   Oh   let   thy   bounteous   Providence
  watch     over   and   protect   the   dear   thoughtless    girl;  save   her   from   the
  miseries which I fear will be her portion; and oh! of thine infinite mercy;
  make her not a mother; lest she should one day feel what I now suffer。〃
  The last words faultered on her tongue; and she fell fainting into the
  arms of her husband; who had involuntarily dropped on his knees beside
  her。
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  A  mother's   anguish;   when   disappointed   in   her   tenderest   hopes;   none
  but a mother can conceive。 Yet; my dear young readers; I would have you
  read this scene with attention; and reflect that you may yourselves one day
  be mothers。 Oh my friends; as you value your eternal happiness;  wound
  not;   by   thoughtless   ingratitude;   the   peace   of   the   mother   who   bore   you:
  remember the tenderness; the care; the unremitting anxiety with which she
  has   attended   to   all   your   wants   and   wishes   from   earliest   infancy   to   the
  present day; behold the mild ray of affectionate applause that beams from
  her eye on the performance of your duty: listen to her reproofs with silent
  attention; they proceed from a heart anxious for your future felicity: you
  must love her; nature; all…powerful nature; has planted the seeds of filial
  affection in your bosoms。
  Then   once   more   read   over   the   sorrows   of   poor   Mrs。   Temple;   and
  remember; the mother whom you so dearly love and venerate will feel the
  same; when you; forgetful of the respect due to your maker and yourself;
  forsake the paths of virtue for those of vice and folly。
  CHAPTER XV。
  EMBARKATION。
  IT    was    with    the   utmost     difficulty    that   the   united    efforts   of
  Mademoiselle        and   Montraville     could   support    Charlotte's    spirits  during
  their short ride from Chichester to Portsmouth; where a boat waited to take
  them   immediately   on   board   the   ship   in   which   they   were   to   embark   for
  America。
  As soon as she became tolerably composed; she entreated pen and ink
  to write to her parents。 This she did in the most affecting; artless manner;
  entreating their pardon and blessing; and describing the dreadful situation
  of   her   mind;   the   conflict   she   suffered   in   endeavouring   to   conquer   this
  unfortunate      attachment;     and   concluded     with   saying;   her   only   hope   of
  future   comfort   consisted   in   the   (perhaps   delusive)   idea