第 20 节
作者:津鸿一瞥      更新:2023-08-28 11:47      字数:9321
  in the neck。〃
  〃She died under an operation for the removal of that tumor;〃 said
  the priest; in low tones; 〃and the operator was your Uncle
  George。〃
  In those few words all the truth burst upon me。
  〃Console yourself with the thought that the long martyrdom of his
  life is over;〃 the priest went on。 〃He rests; he is at peace。 He
  and his little darling understand each other; and are happy now。
  That thought bore him up to the last on his death…bed。 He always
  spoke of your sister as his 'little darling。' He firmly believed
  that she was waiting to forgive and console him in the other
  worldand who shall say he was deceived in that belief?〃
  Not I! Not anyone who has ever loved and suffered; surely!
  〃It was out of the depths of his self…sacrificing love for the
  child that he drew the fatal courage to undertake the operation;〃
  continued the priest。 〃Your father naturally shrank from
  attempting it。 His medical brethren whom he consulted all doubted
  the propriety of taking any measures for the removal of the
  tumor; in the particular condition and situation of it when they
  were called in。 Your uncle alone differed with them。 He was too
  modest a man to say so; but your mother found it out。 The
  deformity of her beautiful child horrified her。 She was desperate
  enough to catch at the faintest hope of remedying it that anyone
  might hold out to her; and she persuaded your uncle to put his
  opinion to the proof。 Her horror at the deformity of the child;
  and her despair at the prospect of its lasting for life; seem to
  have utterly blinded her to all natural sense of the danger of
  the operation。 It is hard to know how to say it to you; her son;
  but it must be told; nevertheless; that one day; when your father
  was out; she untruly informed your uncle that his brother had
  consented to the performance of the operation; and that he had
  gone purposely out of the house because he had not nerve enough
  to stay and witness it。 After that; your uncle no longer
  hesitated。 He had no fear of results; provided he could be
  certain of his own courage。 All he dreaded was the effect on him
  of his love for the child when he first found himself face to
  face with the dreadful necessity of touching her skin with the
  knife。〃
  I tried hard to control myself; but I could not repress a shudder
  at those words。
  〃It is useless to shock you by going into particulars;〃 said the
  priest; considerately。 〃Let it be enough if I say that your
  uncle's fortitude failed to support him when he wanted it most。
  His love for the child shook the firm hand which had never
  trembled before。 In a word; the operation failed。 Your father
  returned; and found his child dying。 The frenzy of his despair
  when the truth was told him carried him to excesses which it
  shocks me to mentionexcesses which began in his degrading his
  brother by a blow; which ended in his binding himself by an oath
  to make that brother suffer public punishment for his fatal
  rashness in a court of law。 Your uncle was too heartbroken by
  what had happened to feel those outrages as some men might have
  felt them。 He looked for one moment at his sister…in…law (I do
  not like to say your mother; considering what I have now to tell
  you); to see if she would acknowledge that she had encouraged him
  to attempt the operation; and that she had deceived him in saying
  that he had his brother's permission to try it。 She was silent;
  and when she spoke; it was to join her husband in denouncing him
  as the murderer of their child。 Whether fear of your father's
  anger; or revengeful indignation against your uncle most actuated
  her; I cannot presume to inquire in your presence。 I can only
  state facts。〃
  The priest paused and looked at me anxiously。 I could not speak
  to him at that momentI could only encourage him to proceed by
  pressing his hand。
  He resumed in these terms:
  〃Meanwhile; your uncle turned to your father; and spoke the last
  words he was ever to address to his eldest brother in this world。
  He said; 'I have deserved the worst your anger can inflict on me;
  but I will spare you the scandal of bringing me to justice in
  open court。 The law; if it found me guilty; could at the worst
  but banish me from my country and my friends。 I will go of my own
  accord。 God is my witness that I honestly believed I could save
  the child from deformity and suffering。 I have risked all and
  lost all。 My heart and spirit are broken。 I am fit for nothing
  but to go and hide myself; and my shame and misery; from all eyes
  that have ever looked on me。 I shall never come back; never
  expect your pity or forgiveness。 If you think less harshly of me
  when I am gone; keep secret what has happened; let no other lips
  say of me what yours and your wife's have said。 I shall think
  that forbearance atonement enoughatonement greater than I have
  deserved。 Forget me in this world。 May we meet in another; where
  the secrets of all hearts are opened; and where the child who is
  gone before may make peace between us!' He said those words and
  went out。 Your father never saw him or heard from him again。〃
  I knew the reason now why my father had never confided the truth
  to anyone; his own family included。 My mother had evidently
  confessed all to her sister under the seal of secrecy; and there
  the dreadful disclosure had been arrested。
  〃Your uncle told me;〃 the priest continued; 〃that before he left
  England he took leave of you by stealth; in a place you were
  staying at by the sea…side。 Tie had not the heart to quit his
  country and his friends forever without kissing you for the last
  time。 He followed you in the dark; and caught you up in his arms;
  and left you again before you had a chance of discovering him。
  The next day he quitted England。〃
  〃For this place?〃 I asked。
  〃Yes。 He had spent a week here once with a student friend at the
  time when he was a pupil in the Hotel Dieu; and to this place he
  returned to hide; to suffer; and to die。 We all saw that he was a
  man crushed and broken by some great sorrow; and we respected him
  and his affliction。 He lived alone; and only came out of doors
  toward evening; when he used to sit on the brow of the hill
  yonder; with his head on his hand; looking toward England。 That
  place seemed a favorite with him; and he is buried close by it。
  He revealed the story of his past life to no living soul here but
  me; and to me he only spoke when his last hour was approaching。
  What he had suffered during his long exile no man can presume to
  say。 I; who saw more of him than anyone; never heard a word of
  complaint fall from his lips。 He had the courage of the martyrs
  while he lived; and the resignation of the saints when he died。
  Just at the last his mind wandered。 He said he saw his little
  darling waiting by the bedside to lead him away; and he died with
  a smile on his facethe first I had ever seen there。〃
  The priest ceased; and we went out together in the mournful
  twilight; and stood for a little while on the brow of the hill
  where Uncle George used to sit; with his face turned toward
  England。 How my heart ached for him as I thought of what he must
  have suffered in the silence and solitude of his long exile! Was
  it well for me that I had discovered the Family Secret at last? I
  have sometimes thought not。 I have sometimes wished that the
  darkness had never been cleared away which once hid from me the
  fate of Uncle George。
  THE THIRD DAY。
  FINE again。 Our guest rode out; with her ragged little groom; as
  usual。 There was no news yet in the paperthat is to say; no
  news of George or his ship。
  On this day Morgan completed his second story; and in two or
  three days more I expected to finish the last of my own
  contributions。 Owen was still behindhand and still despondent。
  The lot drawing to…night was Five。 This proved to be the number
  of the first of Morgan's stories; which he had completed before
  we began the readings。 His second story; finished this day; being
  still uncorrected by me; could not yet be added to the common
  stock。
  On being informed that it had come to his turn to occupy the
  attention of the company; Morga n startled us by immediately
  objecting to the trouble of reading his own composition; and by
  coolly handing it over to me; on the ground that my numerous
  corrections had made it; to all intents and purposes; my story。
  Owen and I both remonstrated; and Jessie; mischievously
  persisting in her favorite jest at Morgan's expense; entreated
  that he would read; if it was only for her sake。 Finding that we
  were all determined; and all against him; he declared that;
  rather than hear our voices any longer; he would submit to the
  minor inconvenience of listening to his own。 Accordingly; he took
  his manuscript back again; and; with an air of surly resignation;
  spread it open before him。
  〃I don't think you will like this story; miss;〃 he began;
  addressing Jessie; 〃but I shall read it; nevertheless; with the
  greatest pleasure。 It begins in a stableit gropes its way
  through a dreamit keeps company with a hostlerand it stops
  without an end。 What do you think of that?〃
  After favoring his audience with this promising preface; Morgan
  indulged himself in a chuckle of supreme satisfaction; and then
  began to