第 13 节
作者:津鸿一瞥      更新:2023-08-28 11:47      字数:9322
  of his own in any trifling matter between them。 Whatever the men
  might say; Mr。 Knifton was a model husband in the estimation of
  all the women who knew him。
  〃You will see us as we come back; Bessie。 Till then; you are our
  banker; and the pocketbook is yours;〃 cried Mrs。 Knifton; gayly;
  at the door。 Her husband lifted her into the saddle; mounted
  himself; and away they both galloped over the moor as wild and
  happy as a couple of children。
  Although my being trusted with money by Mrs。 Knifton was no
  novelty (in her maiden days she always employed me to pay her
  dress…maker's bills); I did not feel quite easy at having a
  pocketbook full of bank…notes left by her in my charge。 I had no
  positive apprehensions about the safety of the deposit placed in
  my hands; but it was one of the odd points in my character then
  (and I think it is still) to feel an unreasonably strong
  objection to charging myself with money responsibilities of any
  kind; even to suit the convenience of my dearest friends。 As soon
  as I was left alone; the very sight of the pocketbook behind the
  glass door of the book…case began to worry me; and instead of
  returning to my work; I puzzled my brains about finding a place
  to lock it up in; where it would not be exposed to the view of
  any chance passers…by who might stray into the Black Cottage。
  This was not an easy matter to compass in a poor house like ours;
  where we had nothing valuable to put under lock and key。 After
  running over various hiding…places in my mind; I thought of my
  tea…caddy; a present from Mrs。 Knifton; which I always kept out
  of harm's way in my own bedroom。 Most unluckilyas it afterward
  turned outinstead of taking the pocketbook to the tea…caddy; I
  went into my room first to take the tea…caddy to the pocketbook。
  I only acted in this roundabout way from sheer thoughtlessness;
  and severely enough I was punished for it; as you will
  acknowledge yourself when you have read a page or two more of my
  story。
  I was just getting the unlucky tea…caddy out of my cupboard; when
  I heard footsteps in the passage; and; running out immediately;
  saw two men walk into the kitchenthe room in which I had
  received Mr。 and Mrs。 Knifton。 I inquired what they wanted
  sharply enough; and one of them answered immediately that they
  wanted my father。 He turned toward me; of course; as he spoke;
  and I recognized him as a stone…mason; going among his comrades
  by the name of Shifty Dick。 He bore a very bad character for
  everything but wrestling; a sport for which the working men of
  our parts were famous all through the county。 Shifty Dick was
  champion; and he had got his name from some tricks of wrestling;
  for which he was celebrated。 He was a tall; heavy man; with a
  lowering; scarred face; and huge hairy handsthe last visitor in
  the whole world that I should have been glad to see under any
  circumstances。 His companion was a stranger; whom he addressed by
  the name of Jerrya quick; dapper; wicked…looking man; who took
  off his cap to me with mock politeness; and showed; in so doing;
  a very bald head; with some very ugly…looking knobs on it。 I
  distrusted him worse than I did Shifty Dick; and managed to get
  between his leering eyes and the book…case; as I told the two
  that my father was gone out; and that I did not expect him back
  till the next day。
  The words were hardly out of my mouth before I repented that my
  anxiety to get rid of my unwelcome visitors had made me
  incautious enough to acknowledge that my father would be away
  from home for the whole night。
  Shifty Dick and his companion looked at each other when I
  unwisely let out the truth; but made no remark except to ask me
  if I would give them a drop of cider。 I answered sharply that I
  had no cider in the house; having no fear of the consequences of
  refusing them drink; because I knew that plenty of men were at
  work within hail; in a neighboring quarry。 The two looked at each
  other again when I denied having any cider to give them; and
  Jerry (as I am obliged to call him; knowing no other name by
  which to distinguish the fellow) took off his cap to me once
  more; and; with a kind of blackguard gentility upon him; said
  they would have the pleasure of calling the next day; when my
  father was at home。 I said good…afternoon as ungraciously as
  possible; and; to my great relief; they both left the cottage
  immediately afterward。
  As soon as they were well away; I watched them from the door。
  They trudged off in the direction of Moor Farm; and; as it was
  beginning to get dusk; I soon lost sight of them。
  Half an hour afterward I looked out again。
  The wind had lulled with the sunset; but the mist was rising; and
  a heavy rain was beginning to fall。 Never did the lonely prospect
  of the moor look so dreary as it looked to my eyes that evening。
  Never did I regret any slight thing more sincerely than I then
  regretted the leaving of Mr。 Knifton's pocketbook in my charge。 I
  cannot say that I suffered under any actual alarm; for I felt
  next to certain that neither Shifty Dick nor Jerry had got a
  chance of setting eyes on so small a thing as the pocketbook
  while they were in the kitchen; but there was a kind of vague
  distrust troubling mea suspicion of the nighta dislike of
  being left by myself; which I never remember having experienced
  before。 This feeling so increased after I had closed the door and
  gone back to the kitchen; that; when I heard the voices of the
  quarrymen as they passed our cottage on their way home to the
  village in the valley below Moor Farm; I stepped out into the
  passage with a momentary notion of telling them how I was
  situated; and asking them for advice and protection。
  I had hardly formed this idea; however; before I dismissed it。
  None of the quarrymen were intimate friends of mine。 I had a
  nodding acquaintance with them; and believed them to be honest
  men; as times
  went。 But my own common sense told me that what little knowledge
  of their characters I had was by no means sufficient to warrant
  me in admitting them into my confidence in the matter of the
  pocketbook。 I had seen enough of poverty and poor men to know
  what a terrible temptation a large sum of money is to those whose
  whole lives are passed in scraping up sixpences by weary hard
  work。 It is one thing to write fine sentiments in books about
  incorruptible honesty; and another thing to put those sentiments
  in practice when one day's work is all that a man has to set up
  in the way of an obstacle between starvation and his own
  fireside。
  The only resource that remained was to carry the pocketbook with
  me to Moor Farm; and ask permission to pass the night there。 But
  I could not persuade myself that there was any real necessity for
  taking such a course as this; and; if the truth must be told; my
  pride revolted at the idea of presenting myself in the character
  of a coward before the people at the farm。 Timidity is thought
  rather a graceful attraction among ladies; but among poor women
  it is something to be laughed at。 A woman with less spirit of her
  own than I had; and always shall have; would have considered
  twice in my situation before she made up her mind to encounter
  the jokes of plowmen and the jeers of milkmaids。 As for me; I had
  hardly considered about going to the farm before I despised
  myself for entertaining any such notion。 〃No; no;〃 thought I; 〃I
  am not the woman to walk a mile and a half through rain; and
  mist; and darkness to tell a whole kitchenful of people that I am
  afraid。 Come what may; here I stop till father gets back。〃
  Having arrived at that valiant resolution; the first thing I did
  was to lock and bolt the back and front doors; and see to the
  security of every shutter in the house。
  That duty performed; I made a blazing fire; lighted my candle;
  and sat down to tea; as snug and comfortable as possible。 I could
  hardly believe now; with the light in the room; and the sense of
  security inspired by the closed doors and shutters; that I had
  ever felt even the slightest apprehension earlier in the day。 I
  sang as I washed up the tea…things; and even the cat seemed to
  catch the infection of my good spirits。 I never knew the pretty
  creature so playful as she was that evening。
  The tea…things put by; I took up my knitting; and worked away at
  it so long that I began at last to get drowsy。 The fire was so
  bright and comforting that I could not muster resolution enough
  to leave it and go to bed。 I sat staring lazily into the blaze;
  with my knitting on my lapsat till the splashing of the rain
  outside and the fitful; sullen sobbing of the wind grew fainter
  and fainter on my ear。 The last sounds I heard before I fairly
  dozed off to sleep were the cheerful crackling of the fire and
  the steady purring of the cat; as she basked luxuriously in the
  warm light on the hearth。 Those were the last sounds before I
  fell asleep。 The sound that woke me was one loud bang at the
  front door。
  I started up; with my heart (as the saying is) in my mouth; with
  a frightful momentary shuddering at the roots of my hairI
  started up breathless; cold and motionless; waiting in the
  silence I hardly knew for what; doubtful at first whether I had
  dreamed about the bang at the door; or whe