第 76 节
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  form of the ceremony。'
  'Berta; I am sometimes uneasy about you even now and I want to ask
  you one thing; if I may。  Are you doing this for my sake?  Would you
  have married Mr。 Julian if it had not been for me?'
  'It is difficult to say exactly。  It is possible that if I had had
  no relations at all; I might have married him。  And I might not。'
  'I don't intend to marry。'
  'In that case you will live with me at Enckworth。  However; we will
  leave such details till the ground…work is confirmed。  When we get
  indoors will you see if the boxes have been properly corded; and are
  quite ready to be sent for?  Then come in and sit by the fire; and
  I'll sing some songs to you。'
  'Sad ones; you mean。'
  'No; they shall not be sad。'
  'Perhaps they may be the last you will ever sing to me。'
  'They may be。  Such a thing has occurred。'
  'But we will not think so。  We'll suppose you are to sing many to me
  yet。'
  'Yes。  There's good sense in that; Picotee。  In a world where the
  blind only are cheerful we should all do well to put out our eyes。
  There; I did not mean to get into this state:  forgive me; Picotee。
  It is because I have had a thoughtwhy I cannot tellthat as much
  as this man brings to me in rank and gifts he may take out of me in
  tears。'
  'Berta!'
  'But there's no reason in itnot any; for not in a single matter
  does what has been supply us with any certain ground for knowing
  what will be in the world。  I have seen marriages where happiness
  might have been said to be ensured; and they have been all sadness
  afterwards; and I have seen those in which the prospect was black as
  night; and they have led on to a time of sweetness and comfort。  And
  I have seen marriages neither joyful nor sorry; that have become
  either as accident forced them to become; the persons having no
  voice in it at all。  Well; then; why should I be afraid to make a
  plunge when chance is as trustworthy as calculation?'
  'If you don't like him well enough; don't have him; Berta。  There's
  time enough to put it off even now。'
  'O no。  I would not upset a well…considered course on the haste of
  an impulse。  Our will should withstand our misgivings。  Now let us
  see if all has been packed; and then we'll sing。'
  That evening; while the wind was wheeling round and round the
  dwelling; and the calm eye of the lighthouse afar was the single
  speck perceptible of the outside world from the door of Ethelberta's
  temporary home; the music of songs mingled with the stroke of the
  wind across the iron railings; and was swept on in the general tide
  of the gale; and the noise of the rolling sea; till not the echo of
  a tone remained。
  An hour before this singing; an old gentleman might have been seen
  to alight from a little one…horse brougham; and enter the door of
  Knollsea parsonage。  He was bent upon obtaining an entrance to the
  vicar's study without giving his name。
  But it happened that the vicar's wife was sitting in the front room;
  making a pillow…case for the children's bed out of an old surplice
  which had been excommunicated the previous Easter; she heard the
  newcomer's voice through the partition; started; and went quickly to
  her husband; who was where he ought to have been; in his study。  At
  her entry he looked up with an abstracted gaze; having been lost in
  meditation over a little schooner which he was attempting to rig for
  their youngest boy。  At a word from his wife on the suspected name
  of the visitor; he resumed his earlier occupation of inserting a few
  strong sentences; full of the observation of maturer life; between
  the lines of a sermon written during his first years of ordination;
  in order to make it available for the coming Sunday。  His wife then
  vanished with the little ship in her hand; and the visitor appeared。
  A talk went on in low tones。
  After a ten minutes' stay he departed as secretly as he had come。
  His errand was the cause of much whispered discussion between the
  vicar and his wife during the evening; but nothing was said
  concerning it to the outside world。
  44。 SANDBOURNE … A LONELY HEATH … THE 'RED LION' … THE HIGHWAY
  It was half…past eleven before the Spruce; with Mountclere and Sol
  Chickerel on board; had steamed back again to Sandbourne。  The
  direction and increase of the wind had made it necessary to keep the
  vessel still further to sea on their return than in going; that they
  might clear without risk the windy; sousing; thwacking; basting;
  scourging Jack Ketch of a corner called Old…Harry Point; which lay
  about halfway along their track; and stood; with its detached posts
  and stumps of white rock; like a skeleton's lower jaw; grinning at
  British navigation。  Here strong currents and cross currents were
  beginning to interweave their scrolls and meshes; the water rising
  behind them in tumultuous heaps; and slamming against the fronts and
  angles of cliff; whence it flew into the air like clouds of flour。
  Who could now believe that this roaring abode of chaos smiled in the
  sun as gently as an infant during the summer days not long gone by;
  every pinnacle; crag; and cave returning a doubled image across the
  glassy sea?
  They were now again at Sandbourne; a point in their journey reached
  more than four hours ago。  It became necessary to consider anew how
  to accomplish the difficult remainder。  The wind was not blowing
  much beyond what seamen call half a gale; but there had been enough
  unpleasantness afloat to make landsmen glad to get ashore; and this
  dissipated in a slight measure their vexation at having failed in
  their purpose。  Still; Mountclere loudly cursed their confidence in
  that treacherously short route; and Sol abused the unknown
  Sandbourne man who had brought the news of the steamer's arrival to
  them at the junction。  The only course left open to them now; short
  of giving up the undertaking; was to go by the road along the shore;
  which; curving round the various little creeks and inland seas
  between their present position and Knollsea; was of no less length
  than thirty miles。  There was no train back to the junction till the
  next morning; and Sol's proposition that they should drive thither
  in hope of meeting the mail…train; was overruled by Mountclere。
  'We will have nothing more to do with chance;' he said。  'We may
  miss the train; and then we shall have gone out of the way for
  nothing。  More than that; the down mail does not stop till it gets
  several miles beyond the nearest station for Knollsea; so it is
  hopeless。'
  'If there had only been a telegraph to the confounded place!'
  'Telegraphwe might as well telegraph to the devil as to an old
  booby and a damned scheming young widow。  I very much question if we
  shall do anything in the matter; even if we get there。  But I
  suppose we had better go on now?'
  'You can do as you like。  I shall go on; if I have to walk every
  step o't。'
  'That's not necessary。  I think the best posting…house at this end
  of the town is Tempett'swe must knock them up at once。  Which will
  you doattempt supper here; or break the back of our journey first;
  and get on to Anglebury?  We may rest an hour or two there; unless
  you feel really in want of a meal。'
  'No。  I'll leave eating to merrier men; who have no sister in the
  hands of a cursed old Vandal。'
  'Very well;' said Mountclere。  'We'll go on at once。'
  An additional half…hour elapsed before they were fairly started; the
  lateness and abruptness of their arrival causing delay in getting a
  conveyance ready:  the tempestuous night had apparently driven the
  whole town; gentle and simple; early to their beds。  And when at
  length the travellers were on their way the aspect of the weather
  grew yet more forbidding。  The rain came down unmercifully; the
  booming wind caught it; bore it across the plain; whizzed it against
  the carriage like a sower sowing his seed。  It was precisely such
  weather; and almost at the same season; as when Picotee traversed
  the same moor; stricken with her great disappointment at not meeting
  Christopher Julian。
  Further on for several miles the drive lay through an open heath;
  dotted occasionally with fir plantations; the trees of which told
  the tale of their species without help from outline or colour; they
  spoke in those melancholy moans and sobs which give to their sound a
  solemn sadness surpassing even that of the sea。  From each carriage…
  lamp the long rays stretched like feelers into the air; and somewhat
  cheered the way; until the insidious damp that pervaded all things
  above; around; and underneath; overpowered one of them; and rendered
  every attempt to rekindle it ineffectual。  Even had the two men's
  dislike to each other's society been less; the general din of the
  night would have prevented much talking; as it was; they sat in a
  rigid reticence that was almost a third personality。  The roads were
  laid hereabouts with a light sandy gravel; which; though not
  clogging; was soft and friable。  It speedily became saturated; and
  the wheels ground heavily and deeply into its substance。
  At length; after crossing from ten to twelve miles of these eternal
  heaths under the eternally drumming storm; they could discern
  eyelets of light winking to them in the distance from under a
  neb