第 62 节
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  thought of the viscount; however; was a secret for her own breast
  alone。
  Nearly the whole of that night she sat weighingfirst; the question
  itself of marrying Lord Mountclere; and; at other times; whether;
  for safety; she might marry him without previously revealing family
  particulars hitherto held necessary to be revealeda piece of
  conduct she had once felt to be indefensible。  The ingenious
  Ethelberta; much more prone than the majority of women to theorize
  on conduct; felt the need of some soothing defence of the actions
  involved in any ambiguous course before finally committing herself
  to it。
  She took down a well…known treatise on Utilitarianism which she had
  perused once before; and to which she had given her adherence ere
  any instance had arisen wherein she might wish to take it as a
  guide。  Here she desultorily searched for argument; and found it;
  but the application of her author's philosophy to the marriage
  question was an operation of her own; as unjustifiable as it was
  likely in the circumstances。
  'The ultimate end;' she read; 'with reference to and for the sake of
  which all other things are desirable (whether we are considering our
  own good or that of other people) is an existence exempt as far as
  possible from pain; and as rich as possible in enjoyments; both in
  point of quantity and quality。 。 。 。  This being; according to the
  utilitarian opinion; the end of human action; is necessarily also
  the standard of morality。'
  It was an open question; so far; whether her own happiness should or
  should not be preferred to that of others。  But that her personal
  interests were not to be considered as paramount appeared further
  on:
  'The happiness which forms the standard of what is right in conduct
  is not the agent's own happiness but that of all concerned。  As
  between his own happiness and that of others; utilitarianism
  requires him to be as strictly impartial as a disinterested and
  benevolent spectator。'
  As to whose happiness was meant by that of 'other people;' 'all
  concerned;' and so on; her luminous moralist soon enlightened her:
  'The occasions on which any person (except one in a thousand) has it
  in his power to do this on an extended scalein other words; to be
  a public benefactorare but exceptional; and on these occasions
  alone is he called on to consider public utility; in every other
  case private utility; the interest or happiness of some few persons;
  is all he has to attend to。'
  And that these few persons should be those endeared to her by every
  domestic tie no argument was needed to prove。  That their happiness
  would be in proportion to her own well…doing; and power to remove
  their risks of indigence; required no proving either to her now。
  By a sorry but unconscious misapplication of sound and wide
  reasoning did the active mind of Ethelberta thus find itself a
  solace。  At about the midnight hour she felt more fortified on the
  expediency of marriage with Lord Mountclere than she had done at all
  since musing on it。  In respect of the second query; whether or not;
  in that event; to conceal from Lord Mountclere the circumstances of
  her position till it should be too late for him to object to them;
  she found her conscience inconveniently in the way of her theory;
  and the oracle before her afforded no hint。  ' Ahit is a point for
  a casuist!' she said。
  An old treatise on Casuistry lay on the top shelf。  She opened it
  more from curiosity than from guidance this time; it must be
  observedat a chapter bearing on her own problem; 'The disciplina
  arcani; or; the doctrine of reserve。'
  Here she read that there were plenty of apparent instances of this
  in Scripture; and that it was formed into a recognized system in the
  early Church。  With reference to direct acts of deception; it was
  argued that since there were confessedly cases where killing is no
  murder; might there not be cases where lying is no sin?  It could
  not be rightor; indeed; anything but most absurdto say in effect
  that no doubt circumstances would occur where every sound man would
  tell a lie; and would be a brute or a fool if he did not; and to say
  at the same time that it is quite indefensible in principle。  Duty
  was the key to conduct then; and if in such cases duties appeared to
  clash they would be found not to do so on examination。  The lesser
  duty would yield to the greater; and therefore ceased to be a duty。
  This author she found to be not so tolerable; he distracted her。
  She put him aside and gave over reading; having decided on this
  second point; that she would; at any hazard; represent the truth to
  Lord Mountclere before listening to another word from him。  'Well;
  at last I have done;' she said; 'and am ready for my role。'
  In looking back upon her past as she retired to rest; Ethelberta
  could almost doubt herself to be the identical woman with her who
  had entered on a romantic career a few short years ago。  For that
  doubt she had good reason。  She had begun as a poet of the Satanic
  school in a sweetened form; she was ending as a pseudo…utilitarian。
  Was there ever such a transmutation effected before by the action of
  a hard environment?  It was not without a qualm of regret that she
  discerned how the last infirmity of a noble mind had at length
  nearly departed from her。  She wondered if her early notes had had
  the genuine ring in them; or whether a poet who could be thrust by
  realities to a distance beyond recognition as such was a true poet
  at all。  Yet Ethelberta's gradient had been regular:  emotional
  poetry; light verse; romance as an object; romance as a means;
  thoughts of marriage as an aid to her pursuits; a vow to marry for
  the good of her family; in other words; from soft and playful
  Romanticism to distorted Benthamism。  Was the moral incline upward
  or down?
  37。 KNOLLSEA … AN ORNAMENTAL VILLA
  Her energies collected and fermented anew by the results of the
  vigil; Ethelberta left town for Knollsea; where she joined Picotee
  the same evening。  Picotee produced a letter; which had been
  addressed to her sister at their London residence; but was not
  received by her there; Mrs。 Chickerel having forwarded it to
  Knollsea the day before Ethelberta arrived in town。
  The crinkled writing; in character like the coast…line of Tierra del
  Fuego; was becoming familiar by this time。  While reading the note
  she informed Picotee; between a quick breath and a rustle of frills;
  that it was from Lord Mountclere; who wrote on the subject of
  calling to see her; suggesting a day in the following week。  'Now;
  Picotee;' she continued; 'we shall have to receive him; and make the
  most of him; for I have altered my plans since I was last in
  Knollsea。'
  'Altered them again?  What are you going to be nownot a poor
  person after all?'
  'Indeed not。  And so I turn and turn。  Can you imagine what Lord
  Mountclere is coming for?  But don't say what you think。  Before I
  reply to this letter we must go into new lodgings; to give them as
  our address。  The first business to…morrow morning will be to look
  for the gayest house we can find; and Captain Flower and this little
  cabin of his must be things we have never known。'
  The next day after breakfast they accordingly sallied forth。
  Knollsea had recently begun to attract notice in the world。  It had
  this year undergone visitation from a score of professional
  gentlemen and their wives; a minor canon; three marine painters;
  seven young ladies with books in their hands; and nine…and…thirty
  babies。  Hence a few lodging…houses; of a dash and pretentiousness
  far beyond the mark of the old cottages which formed the original
  substance of the village; had been erected to meet the wants of such
  as these。  To a building of this class Ethelberta now bent her
  steps; and the crush of the season having departed in the persons of
  three…quarters of the above…named visitors; who went away by a
  coach; a van; and a couple of wagonettes one morning; she found no
  difficulty in arranging for a red and yellow streaked villa; which
  was so bright and glowing that the sun seemed to be shining upon it
  even on a cloudy day; and the ruddiest native looked pale when
  standing by its walls。  It was not without regret that she renounced
  the sailor's pretty cottage for this porticoed and balconied
  dwelling; but her lines were laid down clearly at last; and thither
  she removed forthwith。
  From this brand…new house did Ethelberta pen the letter fixing the
  time at which she would be pleased to see Lord Mountclere。
  When the hour drew nigh enormous force of will was required to keep
  her perturbation down。  She had not distinctly told Picotee of the
  object of the viscount's visit; but Picotee guessed nearly enough。
  Ethelberta was upon the whole better pleased that the initiative had
  again come from him than if the first step in the new campaign had
  been her sending the explanatory letter; as intended and promised。
  She had thought almost directly after the interview at Rouen that to
  enlighten him by writing a confession in cold blood; according to
  her first intention; would be little less awkward for her in the
  method of telling than in the facts to be told。
  So the last hair was arranged and the last fold ad