第 44 节
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  vexed her; but it had reminded her of one truth which she was in
  danger of forgetting。  The town gentleman was not half so far
  removed from Sol and Dan; and the hard…handed order in general; in
  his passions as in his philosophy。  He still continued to be the
  male of his species; and when the heart was hot with a dream Pall
  Mall had much the same aspect as Wessex。
  Well; she had not accepted him yet; indeed; for the moment they were
  in a pet with one another。  Yet that might soon be cleared off; and
  then recurred the perpetual question; would the advantage that might
  accrue to her people by her marriage be worth the sacrifice?  One
  palliative feature must be remembered when we survey the matrimonial
  ponderings of the poetess and romancer。  What she contemplated was
  not meanly to ensnare a husband just to provide incomes for her and
  her family; but to find some man she might respect; who would
  maintain her in such a stage of comfort as should; by setting her
  mind free from temporal anxiety; enable her to further organize her
  talent; and provide incomes for them herself。  Plenty of saleable
  originality was left in her as yet; but it was getting crushed under
  the rubbish of her necessities。
  She was not sure that Neigh would stand the test of her revelations。
  It would be possible to lead him to marry her without revealing
  anythingthe events of the last few days had shown her thatyet
  Ethelberta's honesty shrank from the safe course of holding her
  tongue。  It might be pleasant to many a modern gentleman to find
  himself allied with a lady; none of whose ancestors had ever
  pandered to a court; lost an army; taken a bribe; oppressed a
  community; or broken a bank; but the added disclosure that; in
  avoiding these stains; her kindred had worked and continued to work
  with their hands for bread; might lead such an one to consider that
  the novelty was dearly purchased。
  Ethelberta was; upon the whole; dissatisfied with her progress thus
  far。  She had planned many things and fulfilled few。  Had her father
  been by this time provided for and made independent of the world; as
  she had thought he might be; not only would her course with regard
  to Neigh be quite clear; but the impending awkwardness of dining
  with her father behind her chair could not have occurred。  True;
  that was a small matter beside her regret for his own sake that he
  was still in harness; and a mere change of occupation would be but a
  tribute to a fastidiousness which he did not himself share。  She had
  frequently tried to think of a vocation for him that would have a
  more dignified sound; and be less dangerously close to her own path:
  the post of care…taker at some provincial library; country
  stationer; registrar of births and deaths; and many others had been
  discussed and dismissed in face of the unmanageable fact that her
  father was serenely happy and comfortable as a butler; looking with
  dread at any hint of change short of perfect retirement。  Since;
  then; she could not offer him this retirement; what right had she to
  interfere with his mode of life at all?  In no other social groove
  on earth would he thrive as he throve in his present one; to which
  he had been accustomed from boyhood; and where the remuneration was
  actually greater than in professions ten times as stately in name。
  For the rest; too; Ethelberta had indulged in hopes; the high
  education of the younger ones being the chief of these darling
  wishes。  Picotee wanted looking to badly enough。  Sol and Dan
  required no material help; they had quickly obtained good places of
  work under a Pimlico builder; for though the brothers scarcely
  showed as yet the light…fingered deftness of London artizans; the
  want was in a measure compensated by their painstaking; and
  employers are far from despising country hands who bring with them
  strength; industry; and a desire to please。  But their sister had
  other lines laid down for them than those of level progress; to
  start them some day as masters instead of men was a long…cherished
  wish of Ethelberta's。
  Thus she had quite enough machinery in her hands to keep decently
  going; even were she to marry a man who would take a kindly view of
  her peculiar situation; and afford her opportunities of
  strengthening her powers for her kindred's good。  But what would be
  the result if; eighteen months hencethe date at which her
  occupation of the house in Exonbury Crescent came to an endshe
  were still a widow; with no accumulated capital; her platform
  talents grown homely and stunted through narrow living; and her
  tender vein of poesy completely dispersed by it?  To calmly
  relinquish the struggle at that point would have been the act of a
  stoic; but not of a woman; particularly when she considered the
  children; the hopes of her mother for them; and her own condition
  though this was leastunder the ironical cheers which would greet a
  slip back into the mire。
  It here becomes necessary to turn for a moment to Master Joey
  Chickerel; Ethelberta's troublesome page and brother。  The face of
  this juvenile was that of a Graeco…Roman satyr to the furthest
  degree of completeness。  Viewed in front; the outer line of his
  upper lip rose in a double arch nearly to his little round nostrils;
  giving an expression of a jollity so delicious to himself as to
  compel a perpetual drawing in of his breath。  During half…laughs his
  lips parted in the middle; and remained closed at the corners; which
  were small round pits like his nostrils; the same form being
  repeated as dimples a little further back upon his cheek。  The
  opening for each eye formed a sparkling crescent; both upper and
  under lid having the convexity upwards。
  But during some few days preceding the dinner…party at the
  Doncastles' all this changed。  The luxuriant curves departed; a
  compressed lineality was to be observed everywhere; the pupils of
  his eyes seemed flattened; and the carriage of his head was limp and
  sideways。  This was a feature so remarkable and new in him that
  Picotee noticed it; and was lifted from the melancholy current of
  her own affairs in contemplating his。
  'Well; what's the matter?' said Picotee。
  'Onothing;' said Joey。
  'Nothing?  How can you say so?'
  'The world's a holler mockerythat's what I say。'
  'Yes; so it is; to some; but not to you;' said Picotee; sighing。
  'Don't talk argument; Picotee。  I only hope you'll never feel what I
  feel now。  If it wasn't for my juties here I know what I'd do; I'd
  'list; that's what I'd do。  But having my position to fill here as
  the only responsible man…servant in the house; I can't leave。'
  'Has anybody been beating you?'
  'Beating!  Do I look like a person who gets beatings?  No; it is a
  madness;' said Joey; putting his hand upon his chest。  'The case is;
  I am in love。'
  'O Joey; a boy no bigger than you are!' said Picotee reprovingly。
  Her personal interest in the passion; however; provoked her to
  inquire; in the next breath; 'Who is it?  Do tell; Joey。'
  'No bigger than I!  What hev bigness to do with it?  That's just
  like your old…fashioned notions。  Bigness is no more wanted in
  courting nowadays than in soldiering or smoking or any other duty of
  man。  Husbands is rare; and a promising courter who means business
  will fetch his price in these times; big or small; I assure ye。  I
  might have been engaged a dozen times over as far as the bigness
  goes。  You should see what a miserable little fellow my rival is
  afore you talk like that。  Now you know I've got a rival; perhaps
  you'll own there must be something in it。'
  'Yes; that seems like the real thing。  But who is the young woman?'
  'Well; I don't mind telling you; Picotee。  It is Mrs。 Doncastle's
  new maid。  I called to see father last night; and had supper there;
  and you should have seen how lovely she wereeating sparrowgrass
  sideways; as if she were born to it。  But; of course; there's a
  rivalthere always isI might have known that; and I will crush
  him!'
  'But Mrs。 Doncastle's new maidif that was she I caught a glimpse
  of the other dayis ever so much older than youa dozen years。'
  'What's that to a man in love?  PoohI wish you would leave me;
  Picotee; I wants to be alone。'
  A short time after this Picotee was in the company of Ethelberta;
  and she took occasion to mention Joey's attachment。  Ethelberta grew
  exceedingly angry directly she heard of it。
  'What a fearful nuisance that boy is becoming;' she said。  'Does
  father know anything of this?'
  'I think not;' said Picotee。  'O no; he cannot; he would not allow
  any such thing to go on; she is so much older than Joey。'
  'I should think he wouldn't allow it!  The fact is I must be more
  strict about this growing friendliness between you all and the
  Doncastle servants。  There shall be absolutely no intimacy or
  visiting of any sort。  When father wants to see any of you he must
  come here; unless there is a most serious reason for your calling
  upon him。  Some disclosure or reference to me otherwise than as your
  mistress; will certainly be made else; and then I am ruined。  I will
  speak to father myself about Joey's absurd nonsense this evening。  I
  am going to see him on another matter。'  And Ethelberta sighed。  'I
  am to dine there on Thursd