第 38 节
作者:独来读网      更新:2022-11-28 19:18      字数:9322
  Ethelberta ostensibly continued her business of tutoring the young
  workmen just as before; though every emotion in her had been put on
  the alert by this discovery。  She had known that Neigh admired her;
  yet his presumption in uttering such a remark as he was reported to
  have uttered; confidentially or otherwise; nearly took away her
  breath。  Perhaps it was not altogether disagreeable to have her
  breath so taken away。
  'I mean to marry that lady。'  She whispered the words to herself
  twenty times in the course of the afternoon。  Sol and Dan were left
  considerably longer to their private perceptions of the false and
  true in art than they had been earlier in the day。
  When she reached home Ethelberta was still far removed in her
  reflections; and it was noticed afterwards that about this time in
  her career her openness of manner entirely deserted her。  She mostly
  was silent as to her thoughts; and she wore an air of unusual
  stillness。  It was the silence and stillness of a starry sky; where
  all is force and motion。  This deep undecipherable habit sometimes
  suggested; though it did not reveal; Ethelberta's busy brain to her
  sisters; and they said to one another; 'I cannot think what's coming
  to Berta:  she is not so nice as she used to be。'
  The evening under notice was passed desultorily enough after the
  discovery of Neigh's self…assured statement。  Among other things
  that she did after dark; while still musingly examining the
  probabilities of the report turning out true; was to wander to the
  large attic where the children slept; a frequent habit of hers at
  night; to learn if they were snug and comfortable。  They were
  talking now from bed to bed; the person under discussion being
  herself。  Herself seemed everywhere to…day。
  'I know that she is a fairy;' Myrtle was insisting; 'because she
  must be; to have such pretty things in her house; and wear silk
  dresses such as mother and we and Picotee haven't got; and have
  money to give us whenever we want it。'
  'Emmeline says perhaps she knows the fairy's godmother; and is not a
  fairy herself; because Berta is too tall for a real fairy。'
  'She must be one; for when there was a notch burnt in the hem of my
  pretty blue frock she said it should be gone in the morning if I
  would go to bed and not cry; and in the morning it was gone; and all
  nice and straight as new。'
  Ethelberta was recalling to mind how she had sat up and repaired the
  damage alluded to by cutting off half an inch of the skirt all round
  and hemming it anew; when the breathing of the children became
  regular; and they fell asleep。  Here were bright little minds ready
  for a training; which without money and influence she could never
  give them。  The wisdom which knowledge brings; and the power which
  wisdom may bring; she had always assumed would be theirs in her
  dreams for their social elevation。  By what means were these things
  to be ensured to them if her skill in bread…winning should fail her?
  Would not a well…contrived marriage be of service?  She covered and
  tucked in one more closely; lifted another upon the pillow and
  straightened the soft limbs to an easy position; then sat down by
  the window and looked out at the flashing stars。  Thoughts of
  Neigh's audacious statement returned again upon Ethelberta。  He had
  said that he meant to marry her。  Of what standing was the man who
  had uttered such an intention respecting one to whom a politic
  marriage had become almost a necessity of existence?
  She had often heard Neigh speak indefinitely of some estate'my
  little place' he had called itwhich he had purchased no very long
  time ago。  All she knew was that its name was Farnfield; that it lay
  thirty or forty miles out of London in a south…westerly direction; a
  railway station in the district bearing the same name; so that there
  was probably a village or small town adjoining。  Whether the dignity
  of this landed property was that of domain; farmstead; allotment; or
  garden…plot; Ethelberta had not the slightest conception。  She was
  almost certain that Neigh never lived there; but that might signify
  nothing。  The exact size and value of the estate would; she mused;
  be curious; interesting; and almost necessary information to her who
  must become mistress of it were she to allow him to carry out his
  singularly cool and crude; if tender; intention。  Moreover; its
  importance would afford a very good random sample of his worldly
  substance throughout; from which alone; after all; could the true
  spirit and worth and seriousness of his words be apprehended。
  Impecuniosity may revel in unqualified vows and brim over with
  confessions as blithely as a bird of May; but such careless
  pleasures are not for the solvent; whose very dreams are negotiable;
  and are expressed with due care accordingly。
  That Neigh had used the words she had far more than prima…facie
  appearances for believing。  Neigh's own conduct towards her; though
  peculiar rather than devoted; found in these words alone a
  reasonable key。  But; supposing the estate to be such a verbal
  hallucination as; for instance; hers had been at Arrowthorne; when
  her poor; unprogressive; hopelessly impracticable Christopher came
  there to visit her; and was so wonderfully undeceived about her
  social standing:  what a fiasco; and what a cuckoo…cry would his
  utterances about marriage seem then。  Christopher had often told her
  of his expectations from 'Arrowthorne Lodge;' and of the blunders
  that had resulted in consequence。  Had not Ethelberta's affection
  for Christopher partaken less of lover's passion than of old…
  established tutelary tenderness she might have been reminded by this
  reflection of the transcendent fidelity he had shown under that
  trialas severe a trial; considering the abnormal; almost morbid;
  development of the passion for position in present…day society; as
  can be prepared for men who move in the ordinary; unheroic channels
  of life。
  By the following evening the consideration of this possibility; that
  Neigh's position might furnish scope for such a disillusive
  discovery by herself as hers had afforded to Christopher; decoyed
  Ethelberta into a curious little scheme。  She was piqued into a
  practical undertaking by the man who could say to his friend with
  such sangfroid; 'I mean to marry that lady。'
  Merely telling Picotee to prepare for an evening excursion; of which
  she was to talk to no one; Ethelberta made ready likewise; and they
  left the house in a cab about half…an…hour before sunset; and drove
  to the Waterloo Station。
  With the decline and departure of the sun a fog gathered itself out
  of the low meadow…land that bordered the railway as they went along
  towards the west; stretching over it like a placid lake; till at the
  end of the journey; the mist became generally pervasive; though not
  dense。  Avoiding observation as much as they conveniently could; the
  two sisters walked from the long wooden shed which formed the
  station here; into the rheumy air and along the road to the open
  country。  Picotee occasionally questioned Ethelberta on the object
  of the strange journey:  she did not question closely; being
  satisfied that in such sure hands as Ethelberta's she was safe。
  Deeming it unwise to make any inquiry just yet beyond the simple one
  of the way to Farnfield; Ethelberta led her companion along a newly…
  fenced road across a heath。  In due time they came to an ornamental
  gate with a curved sweep of wall on each side; signifying the
  entrance to some enclosed property or other。  Ethelberta; being
  quite free from any digested plan for encouraging Neigh in his
  resolve to wive; was startled to find a hope in her that this very
  respectable beginning before their eyes was the entrance to the
  Farnfield property:  that she hoped it was nevertheless
  unquestionable。  Just beyond lay a turnpike…house; where was dimly
  visible a woman in the act of putting up a shutter to the front
  window。
  Compelled by this time to come to special questions; Ethelberta
  instructed Picotee to ask of this person if the place they had just
  passed was the entrance to Farnfield Park。  The woman replied that
  it was。  Directly she had gone indoors Ethelberta turned back again
  towards the park gate。
  'What have we come for; Berta?' said Picotee; as she turned also。
  'I'll tell you some day;' replied her sister。
  It was now much past eight o'clock; and; from the nature of the
  evening; dusk。  The last stopping up…train was about ten; so that
  half…an…hour could well be afforded for looking round。  Ethelberta
  went to the gate; which was found to be fastened by a chain and
  padlock。
  'Ah; the London season;' she murmured。
  There was a wicket at the side; and they entered。  An avenue of
  young fir trees three or four feet in height extended from the gate
  into the mist; and down this they walked。  The drive was not in very
  good order; and the two women were frequently obliged to walk on the
  grass to avoid the rough stones in the carriage…way。  The double
  line of young firs now abruptly terminated; and the road swept
  lower; bending to the right; immediately in front being a large
  lake; calm and silent as a second sky。  They could hear from
  somewhere on the margin the purl of a w