第 14 节
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  opinion; having proved its value frequently; for it was not that of
  a woman merely; but impersonally human。  Though she was unknown to
  fame; this was a great gift in Faith; since to have an unsexed
  judgment is as precious as to be an unsexed being is deplorable。
  'It is very fair indeed;' said the sister; scarcely moving her lips
  in her great attention。  'Now again; and again; and again。  How
  could you do it in the time!'
  Kit knew that she admired his performance:  passive assent was her
  usual praise; and she seldom insisted vigorously upon any view of
  his compositions unless for purposes of emendation。
  'I was thinking that; as I cannot very well write to her; I may as
  well send her this;' said Christopher; with lightened spirits; voice
  to correspond; and eyes likewise; 'there can be no objection to it;
  for such things are done continually。  Consider while I am gone;
  Faith。  I shall be out this evening for an hour or two。'
  When Christopher left the house shortly after; instead of going into
  the town on some errand; as was customary whenever he went from home
  after dark; he ascended a back street; passed over the hills behind;
  and walked at a brisk pace inland along the road to Rookington Park;
  where; as he had learnt; Ethelberta and Lady Petherwin were staying
  for a time; the day or two which they spent at Wyndway having formed
  a short break in the middle of this visit。  The moon was shining to…
  night; and Christopher sped onwards over the pallid high…road as
  readily as he could have done at noonday。  In three…quarters of an
  hour he reached the park gates; and entering now upon a tract which
  he had never before explored; he went along more cautiously and with
  some uncertainty as to the precise direction that the road would
  take。  A frosted expanse of even grass; on which the shadow of his
  head appeared with an opal halo round it; soon allowed the house to
  be discovered beyond; the other portions of the park abounding with
  timber older and finer than that of any other spot in the
  neighbourhood。  Christopher withdrew into the shade; and wheeled
  round to the front of the building that contained his old love。
  Here he gazed and idled; as many a man has done before him
  wondering which room the fair poetess occupied; waiting till lights
  began to appear in the upper windowswhich they did as uncertainly
  as glow…worms blinking up at eventideand warming with currents of
  revived feeling in perhaps the sweetest of all conditions。  New love
  is brightest; and long love is greatest; but revived love is the
  tenderest thing known upon earth。
  Occupied thus; Christopher was greatly surprised to see; on casually
  glancing to one side; another man standing close to the shadowy
  trunk of another tree; in a similar attitude to his own; gazing;
  with arms folded; as blankly at the windows of the house as
  Christopher himself had been gazing。  Not willing to be discovered;
  Christopher stuck closer to his tree。  While he waited thus; the
  stranger began murmuring words; in a slow soft voice。  Christopher
  listened till he heard the following:
  'Pale was the day and rayless; love;
  That had an eve so dim。'
  Two well…known lines from one of Ethelberta's poems。
  Jealousy is a familiar kind of heat which disfigures; licks
  playfully; clouds; blackens; and boils a man as a fire does a pot;
  and on recognizing these pilferings from what he had grown to regard
  as his own treasury; Christopher's fingers began to nestle with
  great vigour in the palms of his hands。  Three or four minutes
  passed; when the unknown rival gave a last glance at the windows;
  and walked away。  Christopher did not like the look of that walk at
  allthere was grace enough in it to suggest that his antagonist had
  no mean chance of finding favour in a woman's eyes。  A sigh; too;
  seemed to proceed from the stranger's breast; but as their distance
  apart was too great for any such sound to be heard by any
  possibility; Christopher set down that to imagination; or to the
  brushing of the wind over the trees。
  The lighted windows went out one by one; and all the house was in
  darkness。  Julian then walked off himself; with a vigour that was
  spasmodic only; and with much less brightness of mind than he had
  experienced on his journey hither。  The stranger had gone another
  way; and Christopher saw no more of him。  When he reached
  Sandbourne; Faith was still sitting up。
  'But I told you I was going to take a long walk;' he said。
  'No; Christopher:  really you did not。  How tired and sad you do
  lookthough I always know beforehand when you are in that state:
  one of your feet has a drag about it as you pass along the pavement
  outside the window。'
  'Yes; I forgot that I did not tell you。'
  He could not begin to describe his pilgrimage:  it was too silly a
  thing even for her to hear of。
  'It does not matter at all about my staying up;' said Faith
  assuringly; 'that is; if exercise benefits you。  Walking up and down
  the lane; I suppose?'
  'No; not walking up and down the lane。'
  'The turnpike…road to Rookington is pleasant。'
  'Faith; that is really where I have been。  How came you to know?'
  'I only guessed。  Verses and an accidental meeting produce a special
  journey。'
  'Ethelberta is a fine woman; physically and mentally; both。  I
  wonder people do not talk about her twice as much as they do。'
  'Then surely you are getting attached to her again。  You think you
  discover in her more than anybody else does; and love begins with a
  sense of superior discernment。'
  'No; no。  That is only nonsense;' he said hurriedly。  'However; love
  her or love her not; I can keep a corner of my heart for you; Faith。
  There is another brute after her too; it seems。'
  'Of course there is:  I expect there are many。  Her position in
  society is above ours; so that it is an unwise course to go
  troubling yourself more about her。'
  'No。  If a needy man must be so foolish as to fall in love; it is
  best to do so where he cannot double his foolishness by marrying the
  woman。'
  'I don't like to hear you talk so slightingly of what poor father
  did。'
  Christopher fixed his attention on the supper。  That night; late as
  it was; when Faith was in bed and sleeping; he sat before a sheet of
  music…paper; neatly copying his composition upon it。  The manuscript
  was intended as an offering to Ethelberta at the first convenient
  opportunity。
  'Well; after all my trouble to find out about Ethelberta; here comes
  the clue unasked for;' said the musician to his sister a few days
  later。
  She turned and saw that he was reading the Wessex Reflector。
  'What is it?' asked Faith。
  'The secret of the true authorship of the book is out at last; and
  it is Ethelberta of course。  I am so glad to have it proved hers。'
  'But can we believe?'
  'O yes。  Just hear what 〃Our London Correspondent〃 says。  It is one
  of the nicest bits of gossip that he has furnished us with for a
  long time。'
  'Yes:  now read it; do。'
  '〃The author of 'Metres by E。'〃' Christopher began; '〃a book of
  which so much has been said and conjectured; and one; in fact; that
  has been the chief talk for several weeks past of the literary
  circles to which I belong; is a young lady who was a widow before
  she reached the age of eighteen; and is now not far beyond her
  fourth lustrum。  I was additionally informed by a friend whom I met
  yesterday on his way to the House of Lords; that her name is Mrs。
  PetherwinChristian name Ethelberta; and that she resides with her
  mother…in…law at their house in Exonbury Crescent。  She is;
  moreover; the daughter of the late Bishop of Silchester (if report
  may be believed); whose active benevolence; as your readers know;
  left his family in comparatively straitened circumstances at his
  death。  The marriage was a secret one; and much against the wish of
  her husband's friends; who are wealthy people on all sides。  The
  death of the bridegroom two or three weeks after the wedding led to
  a reconciliation; and the young poetess was taken to the home which
  she still occupies; devoted to the composition of such brilliant
  effusions as those the world has lately been favoured with from her
  pen。〃'
  'If you want to send her your music; you can do so now;' said Faith。
  'I might have sent it before; but I wanted to deliver it personally。
  However; it is all the same now; I suppose; whether I send it or
  not。  I always knew that our destinies would lie apart; though she
  was once temporarily under a cloud。  Her momentary inspiration to
  write that 〃Cancelled Words〃 was the worst possible omen for me。  It
  showed that; thinking me no longer useful as a practical chance; she
  would make me ornamental as a poetical regret。  But I'll send the
  manuscript of the song。'
  'In the way of business; as a composer only; and you must say to
  yourself; 〃Ethelberta; as thou art but woman; I dare; but as widow I
  fear thee。〃'
  Notwithstanding Christopher's affected carelessness; that evening
  saw a great deal of nicety bestowed upon the operation of wrapping
  up and sending off the song。  He dropped it into the box and heard
  it fall; and with the curious power which he possessed of setting
  his wisdom to watch any particular folly in