第 3 节
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  was as yet too early in the evening to be afraid; but it was too
  late to be altogether courageous; and with balanced sensations
  Ethelberta kept her eye sharply upon him as he rose by degrees into
  view。  The peculiar arrangement of his hat and pugree soon struck
  her as being that she had casually noticed on a peg in one of the
  rooms of the 'Red Lion;' and when he came close she saw that his
  arms diminished to a peculiar smallness at their junction with his
  shoulders; like those of a doll; which was explained by their being
  girt round at that point with the straps of a knapsack that he
  carried behind him。  Encouraged by the probability that he; like
  herself; was staying or had been staying at the 'Red Lion;' she
  said; 'Can you tell me if this is the way back to Anglebury?'
  'It is one way; but the nearest is in this direction;' said the
  touristthe same who had been criticized by the two old men。
  At hearing him speak all the delicate activities in the young lady's
  person stood still:  she stopped like a clock。  When she could again
  fence with the perception which had caused all this; she breathed。
  'Mr。 Julian!' she exclaimed。  The words were uttered in a way which
  would have told anybody in a moment that here lay something
  connected with the light of other days。
  'Ah; Mrs。 Petherwin!Yes; I am Mr。 Julianthough that can matter
  very little; I should think; after all these years; and what has
  passed。'
  No remark was returned to this rugged reply; and he continued
  unconcernedly; 'Shall I put you in the pathit is just here?'
  'If you please。'
  'Come with me; then。'
  She walked in silence at his heels; not a word passing between them
  all the way:  the only noises which came from the two were the
  brushing of her dress and his gaiters against the heather; or the
  smart rap of a stray flint against his boot。
  They had now reached a little knoll; and he turned abruptly:  'That
  is Angleburyjust where you see those lights。  The path down there
  is the one you must follow; it leads round the hill yonder and
  directly into the town。'
  'Thank you;' she murmured; and found that he had never removed his
  eyes from her since speaking; keeping them fixed with mathematical
  exactness upon one point in her face。  She moved a little to go on
  her way; he moved a little lessto go on his。
  'Good…night;' said Mr。 Julian。
  The moment; upon the very face of it; was critical; and yet it was
  one of those which have to wait for a future before they acquire a
  definite character as good or bad。
  Thus much would have been obvious to any outsider; it may have been
  doubly so to Ethelberta; for she gave back more than she had got;
  replying; 'Good…byeif you are going to say no more。'
  Then in struck Mr。 Julian:  'What can I say?  You are nothing to me。
  。 。 。  I could forgive a woman doing anything for spite; except
  marrying for spite。'
  'The connection of that with our present meeting does not appear;
  unless it refers to what you have done。  It does not refer to me。'
  'I am not married:  you are。'
  She did not contradict him; as she might have done。  'Christopher;'
  she said at last; 'this is how it is:  you knew too much of me to
  respect me; and too little to pity me。  A half knowledge of
  another's life mostly does injustice to the life half known。'
  'Then since circumstances forbid my knowing you more; I must do my
  best to know you less; and elevate my opinion of your nature by
  forgetting what it consists in;' he said in a voice from which all
  feeling was polished away。
  'If I did not know that bitterness had more to do with those words
  than judgment; Ishould bebitter too!  You never knew half about
  me; you only knew me as a governess; you little think what my
  beginnings were。'
  'I have guessed。  I have many times told myself that your early life
  was superior to your position when I first met you。  I think I may
  say without presumption that I recognize a lady by birth when I see
  her; even under reverses of an extreme kind。  And certainly there is
  this to be said; that the fact of having been bred in a wealthy home
  does slightly redeem an attempt to attain to such a one again。'
  Ethelberta smiled a smile of many meanings。
  'However; we are wasting words;' he resumed cheerfully。  'It is
  better for us to part as we met; and continue to be the strangers
  that we have become to each other。  I owe you an apology for having
  been betrayed into more feeling than I had a right to show; and let
  us part friends。  Good night; Mrs。 Petherwin; and success to you。
  We may meet again; some day; I hope。'
  'Good night;' she said; extending her hand。  He touched it; turned
  about; and in a short time nothing remained of him but quick regular
  brushings against the heather in the deep broad shadow of the moor。
  Ethelberta slowly moved on in the direction that he had pointed out。
  This meeting had surprised her in several ways。  First; there was
  the conjuncture itself; but more than that was the fact that he had
  not parted from her with any of the tragic resentment that she had
  from time to time imagined for that scene if it ever occurred。  Yet
  there was really nothing wonderful in this:  it is part of the
  generous nature of a bachelor to be not indisposed to forgive a
  portionless sweetheart who; by marrying elsewhere; has deprived him
  of the bliss of being obliged to marry her himself。  Ethelberta
  would have been disappointed quite had there not been a comforting
  development of exasperation in the middle part of his talk; but
  after all it formed a poor substitute for the loving hatred she had
  expected。
  When she reached the hotel the lamp over the door showed a face a
  little flushed; but the agitation which at first had possessed her
  was gone to a mere nothing。  In the hall she met a slender woman
  wearing a silk dress of that peculiar black which in sunlight
  proclaims itself to have once seen better days as a brown; and days
  even better than those as a lavender; green; or blue。
  'Menlove;' said the lady; 'did you notice if any gentleman observed
  and followed me when I left the hotel to go for a walk this
  evening?'
  The lady's…maid; thus suddenly pulled up in a night forage after
  lovers; put a hand to her forehead to show that there was no mistake
  about her having begun to meditate on receiving orders to that
  effect; and said at last; 'You once told me; ma'am; if you
  recollect; that when you were dressed; I was not to go staring out
  of the window after you as if you were a doll I had just
  manufactured and sent round for sale。'
  'Yes; so I did。'
  'So I didn't see if anybody followed you this evening。'
  'Then did you hear any gentleman arrive here by the late train last
  night?'
  'O no; ma'amhow could I?' said Mrs。 Menlovean exclamation which
  was more apposite than her mistress suspected; considering that the
  speaker; after retiring from duty; had slipped down her dark skirt
  to reveal a light; puffed; and festooned one; put on a hat and
  feather; together with several pennyweights of metal in the form of
  rings; brooches; and earringsall in a time whilst one could count
  a hundredand enjoyed half…an…hour of prime courtship by an
  honourable young waiter of the town; who had proved constant as the
  magnet to the pole for the space of the day and a half that she had
  known him。
  Going at once upstairs; Ethelberta ran down the passage; and after
  some hesitation softly opened the door of the sitting…room in the
  best suite of apartments that the inn could boast of。
  In this room sat an elderly lady writing by the light of two candles
  with green shades。  Well knowing; as it seemed; who the intruder
  was; she continued her occupation; and her visitor advanced and
  stood beside the table。  The old lady wore her spectacles low down
  her cheek; her glance being depressed to about the slope of her
  straight white nose in order to look through them。  Her mouth was
  pursed up to almost a youthful shape as she formed the letters with
  her pen; and a slight move of the lip accompanied every downstroke。
  There were two large antique rings on her forefinger; against which
  the quill rubbed in moving backwards and forwards; thereby causing a
  secondary noise rivalling the primary one of the nib upon the paper。
  'Mamma;' said the younger lady; 'here I am at last。'
  A writer's mind in the midst of a sentence being like a ship at sea;
  knowing no rest or comfort till safely piloted into the harbour of a
  full stop; Lady Petherwin just replied with 'What;' in an occupied
  tone; not rising to interrogation。  After signing her name to the
  letter; she raised her eyes。
  'Why; how late you are; Ethelberta; and how heated you look!' she
  said。  'I have been quite alarmed about you。  What do you say has
  happened?'
  The great; chief; and altogether eclipsing thing that had happened
  was the accidental meeting with an old lover whom she had once
  quarrelled with; and Ethelberta's honesty would have delivered the
  tidings at once; had not; unfortunately; all the rest of her
  attributes been dead against that act; for the old lady's sake even
  more than for her own。
  'I saw a great cruel bird chasing a harmless duck!' she exclaimed
  innocently。  'And I ran after to see what the en