第 12 节
作者:绝对零度      更新:2022-11-28 19:15      字数:9322
  you understand?〃
  Loretta buried her face in the cushioned chair back; and broke into a
  passionate storm of sobs。
  All that Bashford could make out at first; as he listened; was:              〃But I
  don't want to leave Daisy!        I don't want to leave Daisy!〃
  He paced grimly back and forth; then stopped curiously to listen。
  〃How was I to know?Boohoo;〃 Loretta was crying。                 〃He didn't tell
  me。   Nobody   else   ever   kissed   me。    I   never   dreamed   a   kiss   could   be   so
  terrible 。 。 。 until; boo…hoo 。 。 。 until he wrote to me。         I only got the letter
  this morning。〃
  His face brightened。 It seemed as though light was dawning on him。
  〃Is that what you're crying about?〃
  〃Nno。〃
  His heart sank。
  〃Then what are you crying about?〃 he asked in a hopeless voice。
  〃Because you said I had to marry Billy。             And I don't want to marry
  Billy。 I don't want to leave Daisy。          I don't know what I want。          I wish I
  were dead。〃
  He nerved himself for another effort。
  〃Now     look   here;   Loretta;  be   sensible。   What     is  this  about   kisses。
  You haven't told me everything?〃
  〃II don't want to tell you everything。〃
  She looked at him beseechingly in the silence that fell。
  〃Must I?〃 she quavered finally。
  〃You must;〃 he said imperatively。          〃You must tell me everything。〃
  〃Well; then 。 。 。 must I?〃
  〃You must。〃
  〃He 。 。 。 I 。 。 。 we 。 。 。〃 she began flounderingly。         Then blurted out; 〃I
  let him; and he kissed me。〃
  〃Go on;〃 Bashford commanded desperately。
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  〃That's all;〃 she answered。
  〃All?〃    There was a vast incredulity in his voice。
  〃All?〃     In her voice was an interrogation no less vast。
  〃I meanernothing worse?〃           He was overwhelmingly aware of his
  own awkwardness。
  〃Worse?〃      She    was    frankly   puzzled。    〃As    though    there   could   be!
  Billy said… …〃
  〃When did he say it?〃 Bashford demanded abruptly。
  〃In his letter I got this morning。         Billy said that my 。 。 。 our 。 。 。 our
  kisses were terrible if we didn't get married。〃
  Bashford's head was swimming。
  〃What else did Billy say?〃 he asked。
  〃He   said   that   when   a   woman   allowed   a   man   to   kiss her;   she   always
  married himthat it was terrible if she didn't。          It was the custom; he said;
  and   I   say   it   is   a   bad;   wicked   custom;   and   I   don't   like   it。 I   know   I'm
  terrible;〃 she added defiantly; 〃but I can't help it。〃
  Bashford absent…mindedly brought out a cigarette。
  〃Do you mind if I smoke?〃 he asked; as he struck a match。                   Then he
  came to himself。
  〃I beg your pardon;〃 he cried; flinging away match and cigarette。                   〃I
  don't want to smoke。        I didn't mean that at all。      What I mean is〃
  He bent over Loretta; caught her hands in his; then sat on the arm of
  the chair and softly put one arm around her。
  〃Loretta; I am a fool。        I   mean it。   And I mean something more。              I
  want you to be my wife。〃
  He waited anxiously in the pause that followed。
  〃You might answer me;〃 he urged。
  〃I will 。 。 。 if〃
  〃Yes; go on。      If what?〃
  〃If I don't have to marry Billy。〃
  〃You can't marry both of us;〃 he almost shouted。
  〃And it isn't the custom 。 。 。 what。 。 。 what Billy said?〃
  〃No; it isn't the custom。      Now; Loretta; will you marry me?〃
  〃Don't be angry with me;〃 she pouted demurely。
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  He gathered her into his arms and kissed her。
  〃I wish it were the custom;〃 she said in a faint voice; from the midst of
  the embrace; 〃because then I'd have to marry you; Ned dear 。 。 。 wouldn't
  I?〃
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  JUST MEAT
  He   strolled   to   the   corner   and   glanced   up   and   down   the   intersecting
  street; but saw nothing save the oases of light shed by the street lamps at
  the   successive   crossings。      Then   he   strolled   back   the   way  he   had   come。
  He    was    a  shadow     of   a  man;    sliding   noiselessly    and   without    undue
  movement through the semi…darkness。               Also he was very alert; like a wild
  animal in the jungle; keenly perceptive and receptive。                The movement of
  another in the darkness about him would need to have been more shadowy
  than he to have escaped him。
  In addition to the running advertisement of the state of affairs carried
  to   him    by   his  senses;   he   had   a  subtler   perception;     a  FEEL;     of  the
  atmosphere   around   him。        He   knew   that   the   house   in   front   of   which   he
  paused   for   a   moment;   contained   children。        Yet   by   no   willed   effort   of
  perception did he have this knowledge。              For that matter; he was not even
  aware   that   he   knew;   so   occult   was   the   impression。   Yet;   did   a   moment
  arise in which action; in relation to that house; were imperative; he would
  have   acted   on   the   assumption   that   it   contained   children。     He   was   not
  aware of all that he knew about the neighbourhood。
  In the same way; he knew not how; he knew that no danger threatened
  in the footfalls that came up the cross street。            Before he saw the walker;
  he knew him for a belated pedestrian hurrying home。                   The walker came
  into view at the crossing and disappeared on up the street。                The man that
  watched;   noted   a   light   that   flared   up   in   the   window   of   a   house   on   the
  corner; and as it died down he knew it for an expiring match。                    This was
  conscious      identification    of  familiar   phenomena;      and   through     his  mind
  flitted the thought; 〃Wanted to know what time。〃                 In another house one
  room was lighted。         The light burned dimly and steadily; and he had the
  feel that it was a sick…room。
  He was especially interested in a house across the street in the middle
  of the block。      To this house he paid most attention。           No matter what way
  he    looked;   nor   what    way   he   walked;    his  looks   and   his   steps  always
  returned   to   it。  Except   for   an   open   window   above   the   porch;   there   was
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  nothing   unusual   about   the   house。      Nothing   came   in   nor   out。     Nothing
  happened。       There were no lighted windows; nor had lights appeared and
  disappeared in   any  of   the  windows。         Yet   it   was   the  central point   of his
  consideration。       He rallied to it each time after a divination of the state of
  the neighbourhood。
  Despite his feel of things; he was not confident。               He was supremely
  conscious of the precariousness of his situation。              Though unperturbed by
  the   footfalls of   the   chance   pedestrian;  he   was   as   keyed   up   and   sensitive
  and   ready   to   be   startled   as   any   timorous   deer。   He   was   aware   of   the
  possibility     of   other    intelligences     prowling     about    in   the   darkness
  intelligences similar to his own in movement; perception; and divination。
  Far   down   the   street   he   caught   a   glimpse   of   something   that   moved。
  And   he   knew   it   was   no   late   home…goer;   but   menace   and   danger。       He
  whistled twice to the house across the street; then faded away shadow…like
  to the   corner   and   around the   corner。      Here   he   paused   and   looked   about
  him   carefully。   Reassured;   he   peered   back   around   the   corner   and   studied
  the object that moved and that was coming nearer。                He had divined aright。
  It was a policeman。
  The man went down the cross street to the next corner; from the shelter
  of which he watched the corner he had just left。                 He saw the policeman
  pass   by;   going   straight   on   up   the   street。 He   paralleled   the   policeman's
  course;     and   from   the   next   corner   again   watched     him   go   by;   then   he
  returned the way he had come。             He whistled once to the house across the
  street; and after a time whistled once agai