第 10 节
作者:大热      更新:2022-11-23 12:13      字数:9322
  Now they must be rent asunder; and her heart must learn endurance; For
  he leaves their home; and enters on a world of work and strife。
  But   her   gentle   spirit   long   had   learnt;   unquestioning;   submitting;   To
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  revere his youthful longings; and to marvel at the fate That gave such   a
  humble   office;   all   unworthy   and   unfitting;   To   the   genius   of   the   village;
  who was born for something great。
  When   the   learned   Traveller   came   there   who   had   gained   renown   at
  college;     Whose     abstruse    research    had   won    him    even   European      fame;
  Questioned        Philip;   praised    his   genius;    marvelled      at   his   self…taught
  knowledge; Could she murmur if he called him up to London and to fame?
  Could she waver when he bade her take the burden of decision; Since
  his   troth to   her   was   plighted;  and   his   life   was   now  her   own? Could  she
  doom him to inaction? could she; when a newborn vision Rose in glory for
  his future; check it for her sake alone?
  So her little trembling fingers; that had toiled with such fond pleasure;
  Paused; and laid aside; and folded the unfinished wedding gown; Faltering
  earnestly assurance; that she too could; in her measure; Prize for him the
  present honour; and the future's sure renown。
  Now   they   pace   the   shady   lime…walk;   now   the   last   words   must   be
  spoken; Words of trust; for neither dreaded more than waiting and delay;
  Was not love still called eternalcould a plighted vow be broken? … See
  the crimson light of sunset fades in purple mist away。
  〃Yes;   my   Mildred;〃   Philip   told   her;   〃one   calm   thought   of   joy   and
  blessing; Like a guardian spirit by me; through the world's tumultuous stir;
  Still   will   spread   its   wings   above   me;   and   now   urging;   now   repressing;
  With   my   Mildred's   voice   will   murmur   thoughts   of   home;   and   love;   and
  her。
  〃It will   charm  my  peaceful leisure; sanctify  my   daily toiling; With   a
  right none else possesses; touching my heart's inmost string; And to keep
  its   pure   wings    spotless   I  shall   fly  the  world's    touch;   soiling   Even    in
  thought this Angel Guardian of my Mildred's Wedding Ring。
  〃Take it; dear; this little circlet is the first link; strong and holy; Of a
  life…long chain; and holds me from all other love apart; Till the day when
  you may wear it as my wifemy ownmine wholly … Let me know it rests
  for ever near the beating of your heart。〃
  Dawn      of  day   saw    Philip   speeding     on  his   road   to  the  Great    City;
  Thinking how the stars gazed downward just with Mildred's patient eyes;
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  Dreams of work; and fame; and honour struggling with a tender pity; Till
  the loving Past receding saw the conquering Future rise。
  Daybreak       still  found   Mildred     watching;     with    the  wonder     of   first
  sorrow; How the outward world unaltered shone the same this very day;
  How unpitying and relentless busy life met this new morrow; Earth; and
  sky; and man unheeding that her joy had passed away。
  Then the   round of   weary  duties;   cold   and   formal;   came   to   meet   her;
  With the life within departed that had given them each a soul; And her sick
  heart even slighted gentle words that came to greet her; For Grief spread
  its shadowy pinions; like a blight; upon the whole。
  Jar one chord; the harp is silent; move one stone; the arch is shattered;
  One   small   clarion…cry   of   sorrow   bids   an   armed   host   awake;   One   dark
  cloud   can   hide   the   sunlight;   loose   one   string;   the   pearls   are   scattered;
  Think one thought; a soul may perish; say one word; a heart may break!
  Life went on; the two lives running side by side; the outward seeming;
  And the truer and diviner hidden in the heart and brain; Dreams grow holy;
  put   in   action;   work grows   fair   through   starry  dreaming;   But   where  each
  flows on unmingling; both are fruitless and in vain。
  Such was Mildred's life; her dreaming lay in some far…distant region;
  All the fairer; all the brighter; that its glories were but guessed; And the
  daily   round   of   duties   seemed   an   unreal;   airy   legion   …   Nothing   true   save
  Philip's letters and the ring upon her breast。
  Letters telling how he struggled; for some plan or vision aiming; And
  at   last   how   he   just   grasped   it   as   a   fresh   one   spread   its   wings;   How   the
  honour or the learning; once the climax; now were claiming; Only  more
  and more; becoming merely steps to higher things。
  Telling her of foreign   countries:         little store  had she of learning;  So
  her earnest; simple spirit answered as he touched the string; Day by day; to
  these   bright   fancies   all   her   silent   thoughts   were   turning;   Seeing   every
  radiant picture framed within her golden Ring。
  Oh;     poor   heartlove;     if  thou    willest;   but;   thine   own     soul   still
  possessing; Live thy life:         not a reflection or a shadow of his own: Lean
  as fondly; as completely; as thou willestbut confessing That thy strength
  is God's; and therefore can; if need be; stand alone。
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  Little   means   were   there   around   her   to   make   farther;   wider   ranges;
  Where   her   loving      gentle   spirit   could   try   any   stronger   flight;   And   she
  turned   aside;   half   fearing   that   fresh   thoughts   were   fickle  changes   … That
  she MUST stay as he left her on that farewell summer night。
  Love should still be guide and leader; like a herald should have risen;
  Lighting up the long dark vistas; conquering all opposing fates; But new
  claims;   new   thoughts;   new   duties   found   her   heart   a   silent   prison;   And
  found Love; with folded pinions; like a jailer by the gates。
  Yet why blame her? it had needed greater strength than she was given
  To   have   gone   against   the   current   that   so   calmly   flowed   along;   Nothing
  fresh   came   near   the   village   save   the   rain   and   dew   of   heaven;   And   her
  nature was too passive; and her love perhaps too strong。
  The great   world   of  thought;  that rushes down  the  years;  and   onward
  sweeping       Bears   upon    its  mighty   billows     in  its  progress    each   and   all;
  Flowed so far away; its murmur did not rouse them from their sleeping;
  Life and Time and Truth were speaking; but they did not hear their call。
  Years   flowed   on;   and   every   morning   heard   her   prayer   grow   lower;
  deeper; As she called all blessings on him; and bade every ill depart; And
  each   night   when   the   cold   moonlight   shone   upon   that   quiet   sleeper;   It
  would show her ring that glittered with each throbbing of her heart。
  Years passed on。        Fame came for Philip in a full; o'erflowing measure;
  He was spoken of and honoured through the breadth of many lands; And
  he wrote it all to Mildred; as if praise were only pleasure; As if fame were
  only honour; when he laid them in her hands。
  Mildred heard   it without   wonder;  as a sure  result expected;  For how
  could it fail; since merit and renown go side by side: And the neighbours
  who first fancied genius ought to be suspected; Might at last give up their
  caution; and could own him now with pride。
  Years   flowed   on。      These   empty   honours   led   to      others   they   called
  better; He   had   saved some   slender   fortune;  and   might   claim  his   bride   at
  last: Mildred; grown so used to waiting; felt half startled by the letter That
  now made her future certain; and would consecrate her past。
  And     he   came:     grown      sterner;   olderchanged       indeed:     a    grave
  reliance Had replaced his eager manner; and the quick short speech of old:
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  He had gone forth with a spirit half of hope and half defiance; He returned
  with proud assurance half disdainful and half cold。
  Yet    his  old   self   seemed     returning     while   he   stood    sometimes;      and
  listened   To   her   calm   soft   voice;   relating   all   the   thoughts   of   these   long
  years;    And     if  Mildred's    heart   was    heavy;    and   at  time