第 15 节
作者:暖暖      更新:2022-11-23 12:12      字数:9322
  have done it just as well an hour ago。
  He opened the window again。 The scent of the jessamine came in as
  before; but mingled with the cooler breath of the roses。 There was nothing
  intoxicating      or  unreal    in  it  now;    rather   it  seemed    a   gentle   aromatic
  stimulantof thought。 Long shadows of unseen poplars beyond barred the
  garden lanes and alleys with bands of black and yellow。 A slanting pencil
  of   sunshine   through   the   trees   was   for   a   moment   focussed   on   a   bed   of
  waxen callas before a hedge of ceanothus; and struck into dazzling relief
  the cold white chalices of the flowers and the vivid shining green of their
  background。 Presently  it slid   beyond to   a tiny  fountain; before invisible;
  and wrought a blinding miracle out of its flashing and leaping spray。 Yet
  even   as   he   gazed   the   fountain   seemed   to   vanish   slowly;   the   sunbeam
  slipped on; and beyond it moved the shimmer of white and yellow dresses。
  It was Yerba and Milly returning to the house。 Well; he would not interrupt
  his reflections by idly watching them; he would; probably; see a great deal
  of   Yerba   that   evening;   and   by   that   time   he   would   have   come   to   some
  conclusion in regard to her。
  But   he   had    not  taken    into  consideration     her   voice;   which;    always
  musical in   its Southern intonation   and quite  audible  in the quiet   garden;
  struck him now as being full of joyous sweetness。 Well; she was certainly
  very   happyor   very   thoughtless。   She   was   actually   romping   with   Milly;
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  and was now evidently being chased down the rose…alley by that volatile
  young   woman。   Then   these   swift   Camillas   apparently   neared   the   house;
  there   was   the   rapid   rustle   of   skirts;   the   skurrying   of   little   feet   on   the
  veranda;      a  stumble;    a   mouse…like      shriek   from   Milly;    and    HER     voice;
  exhausted; dying; happy; broken with half…hushed laughter; rose to him on
  the breath of the jessamine and rose。
  Surely she WAS   a child; and;  if a   child; how he had misjudged her!
  What   if   all   that   he   had   believed   was   mature   deliberation   was   only   the
  innocent imaginings of a romantic girl; all that he had taken seriously only
  a school…girl's foolish dream! Instead of combating it; instead of reasoning
  with   her;   instead   of   trying   to   interest   her   in   other   things;   he   had   even
  helped on her illusions。 He had treated her as if the taint of her mother's
  worldliness and knowledge of   evil   was   in her  pure  young   flesh。  He  had
  recognized   her   as   the   daughter   of   an   adventuress;   and   not   as   his   ward;
  appealing to his chivalry through her very ignoranceit might be her very
  childish     vanity。   He    had   brought     to  a  question     of  tender    and    pathetic
  interest    only    his  selfish   opinion     of  the   world    and    the  weaknesses       of
  mankind。   The   blood   came   to   his   cheekswith   all   his   experienced   self…
  control; he had not lost the youthful trick of blushingand he turned away
  from the window as if it had breathed a reproach。
  But     ought    he   have    even     contented     himself     with    destroying      her
  illusionsought   he   not   have   gone   farther   and   told   her   the   whole   truth?
  Ought he not first have won her confidencehe remembered bitterly; now;
  how     she   had    intimated    that   she   had   no   one   to   confide    inand;    after
  revealing her mother's history; have still pledged himself to keep the secret
  from all others; and assisted her in her plan? It would not have altered the
  state   of   affairs;   except   so   far   as   she   was   concerned;   they   could   have
  combined        together;    his   ready    wit   would      have    helped    him;    and    his
  sympathy would have sustained her; but
  How and in what way could he have told her? Leaving out the delicate
  and   difficult   periphrase   by   which   her   mother's   shame   would   have   to   be
  explained to an innocent school…girlwhat right could he have assumed to
  tell it? As the guardian who had never counseled or protected her? As an
  acquaintance   of   hardly   an   hour   ago?   Who   would   have   such   a   right?   A
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  loveron whose lips it would only seem a tacit appeal to her gratitude or
  her   fears;   and   whom   no   sensitive   girl   could   accept   thereafter?    No。   A
  husband? Yes! He remembered; with a sudden start; what Pendleton had
  said to him。 Good Heavens! Had Pendleton that idea in his mind? And yet…
  …it seemed the only solution。
  A knock at his door was followed by the appearance of Mr。 Woods。 Mr。
  Hathaway's portmanteau had come; and Mrs。 Woods had sent a message;
  saying that in view of the limited time that Mr。 Hathaway would have with
  his ward; Mrs。 Woods would forego her right to keep him at her side at
  dinner; and yield her place to Yerba。 Paul thanked him with a grave inward
  smile。 What if he made his dramatic disclosure to her confidentially over
  the soup and fish? Yet; in his constantly recurring conviction of the girl's
  independence;   he   made   no   doubt   she   would   have   met   his   brutality   with
  unflinching pride and self…possession。 He began to dress slowly; at times
  almost   forgetting   himself   in   a   new   kind   of   pleasant   apathy;   which   he
  attributed to the odor of the flowers; and the softer hush of twilight that
  had come on with the dying away of the trade winds; and the restful spice
  of the bay…trees near his window。 He presently found himself not so much
  thinking of Yerba as of SEEING her。 A picture of her in the summer…house
  caressing her cheek with the roses seemed to stand out from the shadows
  of   the   blank   wall   opposite   him。  When   he   passed   into   the   dressing…room
  beyond; it was not his own face he saw in the glass; but hers。 It was with a
  start; as if he had heard HER voice; that he found upon his dressing…table a
  small vase containing a flower for his coat; with the penciled words on a
  card in a school…girl's hand; 〃From Yerba; with thanks for staying。〃 It must
  have been placed there by a servant while he was musing at the window。
  Half   a   dozen   people   were   already   in   the   drawing…room   when   Paul
  descended。      It  appeared     that   Mr。   Woods      had   invited   certain    of  his
  neighborsamong   them   a   Judge   Baker   and   his   wife;   and   Don   Caesar
  Briones; of the adjacent Rancho of Los Pajaros; and his sister; the Dona
  Anna。 Milly and Yerba had not yet appeared。 Don Caesar; a young man of
  a toreador build; roundly bland in face and murky in eye; seemed to notice
  their absence; and kept his glances towards the door; while Paul engaged
  in conversation with Dona Annaif that word could convey an impression
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  of a conventionality which that good…humored young lady converted into
  an animated flirtation at the second sentence with a single glance and two
  shakes   of   her   fan。   And   then   Milly   fluttered   ina   vision   of   school…girl
  freshness      and    white     tulle;   and    a   moment       laterwith    a   pause     of
  expectationa tall; graceful figure; that at first Paul scarcely recognized。
  It is a popular conceit of our sex that we are superior to any effect of
  feminine adornment; and that a pretty girl is equally pretty in the simplest
  frock。 Yet there was not a man in the room who did not believe that Yerba
  in   her   present   attire   was   not   only   far   prettier   than   before;   but   that   she
  indicated   a   new   and   more   delicate   form   of   beauty。   It   was   not   the   mere
  revelation   of   contour   and   color   of   an   ordinary   decollete   dress;   it   was   a
  perfect     presentment       of   pure    symmetry       and   carriage。     In   this   black
  grenadine dress; trimmed with jet; not only was the delicate satin sheen of
  her skin made clearer by contrast; but she looked every inch her full height;
  with   an   ideal   exaltation   of   breeding   and   culture。   She   wore   no   jewelry
  except a small necklace of pearlsso small it might have been a child's
  that fitted her slender throat so tightly that it could scarcely be told from
  the   flesh   that   it   clasped。   Paul   did   not   know   that   it   was   the   gift   of   the
  mother   to   the   chil