第 42 节
作者:披荆斩棘      更新:2022-11-23 12:11      字数:7846
  He writhed in the struggle of desperation; foaming blasphemies。
  The uncouth bundle rolled here and there。  But inexorably the
  other; from the advantage of his position; drew the thongs
  tighter。
  And then; all at once; from vituperation the bronco…buster fell
  to pleading; not for life; but for death。
  〃For God's sake; shoot me!〃 he cried from within the smothering
  folds of the rawhide。  〃If you ever had a heart in you; shoot me!
  Don't leave me here to be crushed in this vise。  You wouldn't do
  that to a yellow dog。  An Injin wouldn't do that; Buck。  It's a
  joke; isn't it?  Don't go away and leave me; Buck。  I've done you
  dirt。  Cut my heart out; if you want to; I won't say a word; but
  don't leave me here for the sun〃
  His voice was drowned in a piercing scream; as Estrella came to
  herself and understood。  Always the rawhide had possessed for her
  an occult fascination and repulsion。  She had never been able to
  touch it without a shudder; and yet she had always been drawn to
  experiment with it。  The terror of her doom had now added to it
  for her all the vague and premonitory terrors which heretofore
  she had not understood。
  The richness of the dawn had flowed to the west。  Day was at
  hand。  Breezes had begun to play across the desert; the wind
  devils to raise their straight columns。  A first long shaft of
  sunlight shot through a pass in the Chiricahuas; trembled in the
  dust…moted air; and laid its warmth on the rawhide。  Senor
  Johnson roused himself from his gloom to speak his first words of
  the episode。
  〃There; damn you!〃 said he。 〃I guess you'll be close enough
  together now!〃
  He turned away to look for his horse。
  CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  THE DESERT
  Button was a trusty of Senor Johnson's private animals。  He was
  never known to leave his master in the lurch; and so was
  habitually allowed certain privileges。  Now; instead of remaining
  exactly on the spot where he was 〃tied to the ground;〃 he had
  wandered out of the dry arroyo bed to the upper level of the
  plains; where he knew certain bunch grasses might be found。  Buck
  Johnson climbed the steep wooded bank in search of him。
  The pony stood not ten feet distant。  At his master's abrupt
  appearance he merely raised his head; a wisp of grass in the
  corner of his mouth; without attempting to move away。  Buck
  Johnson walked confidently to him; fumbling in his side pocket
  for the piece of sugar with which he habitually soothed Button's
  sophisticated palate。  His hand encountered Estrella's letter。
  He drew it out and opened it。
  〃Dear Buck;〃 it read; 〃I am going away。  I tried to be good; but
  I can't。  It's too lonesome for me。 I'm afraid of the horses and
  the cattle and the men and the desert。  I hate it all。  I tried
  to make you see how I felt about it; but you couldn't seem to
  see。  I know you'll never forgive me; but I'd go crazy here。  I'm
  almost crazy now。  I suppose you think I'm a bad woman; but I am
  not。  You won't believe that。  Its' true though。  The desert
  would make anyone bad。  I don't see how you stand it。  You've
  been good to me; and I've really tried; but it's no use。  The
  country is awful。  I never ought to have come。  I'm sorry you are
  going to think me a bad woman; for I like you and admire you; but
  nothing; NOTHING could make me stay here any longer。〃   She
  signed herself simply Estrella Sands; her maiden name。
  Buck Johnson stood staring at the paper for a much longer time
  than was necessary merely to absorb the meaning of the words。
  His senses; sharpened by the stress of the last sixteen hours;
  were trying mightily to cut to the mystery of a change going on
  within himself。  The phrases of the letter were bald enough; yet
  they conveyed something vital to his inner being。  He could not
  understand what it was。
  Then abruptly he raised his eyes。
  Before him lay the desert; but a desert suddenly and miraculously
  changed; a desert he had never seen before。  Mile after mile it
  swept away before him; hot; dry; suffocating; lifeless。  The
  sparse vegetation was grey with the alkali dust。  The heat hung
  choking in the air like a curtain。  Lizards sprawled in the sun;
  repulsive。  A rattlesnake dragged its loathsome length from under
  a mesquite。  The dried carcass of a steer; whose parchment skin
  drew tight across its bones; rattled in the breeze。  Here and
  there rock ridges showed with the obscenity of so many skeletons;
  exposing to the hard; cruel sky the earth's nakedness。  Thirst;
  delirium; death; hovered palpable in the wind; dreadful;
  unconquerable; ghastly。
  The desert showed her teeth and lay in wait like a fierce beast。
  The little soul of man shrank in terror before it。
  Buck Johnson stared; recalling the phrases of the letter;
  recalling the words of his foreman; Jed Parker。  〃It's too
  lonesome for me;〃  〃I'm afraid;〃  〃I hate it all;〃  〃I'd go crazy
  here;〃  〃The desert would make anyone bad;〃  〃The country is
  awful。〃  And the musing voice of the old cattleman;  〃I wonder if
  she'll like the country!〃  They reiterated themselves over and
  over; and always as refrain his own confident reply; 〃Like the
  country?  Sure!  Why SHOULDN'T she?〃
  And then he recalled the summer just passing; and the woman
  who had made no fuss。  Chance remarks of hers came back to him;
  remarks whose meaning he had not at the time grasped; but which
  now he saw were desperate appeals to his understanding。  He had
  known his desert。  He had never known hers。
  With an exclamation Buck Johnson turned abruptly back to the
  arroyo。  Button followed him; mildly curious; certain that his
  master's reappearance meant a summons for himself。
  Down the miniature cliff the man slid; confidently; without
  hesitation; sure of himself。  His shoulders held squarely; his
  step elastic; his eye bright; he walked to the fearful; shapeless
  bundle now lying motionless on the flat surface of the alkali。
  Brent Palmer had fallen into a grim silence; but Estrella still
  moaned。  The cattleman drew his knife and ripped loose the bonds。
  Immediately the flaps of the wet rawhide fell apart; exposing to
  the new daylight the two bound together。  Buck Johnson leaned
  over to touch the woman's shoulder。
  〃Estrella;〃 said he gently。
  Her eyes came open with a snap; and stared into his; wild with
  the surprise of his return。
  〃Estrella;〃 he repeated; 〃how old are you?〃
  She gulped down a sob; unable to comprehend the purport of his
  question。
  〃How old are you; Estrella?〃 he repeated again。
  〃Twenty…one;〃 she gasped finally。
  〃Ah!〃 said he。
  He stood for a moment in deep thought; then began methodically;
  without haste; to cut loose the thongs that bound the two
  together。
  When the man and the woman were quite freed; he stood for a
  moment; the knife in his hand; looking down on them。  Then he
  swung himself into the saddle and rode away; straight down the
  narrow arroyo; out beyond its lower widening; into the vast
  plains the hither side of the Chiricahuas。  The alkali dust was
  snatched by the wind from beneath his horse's feet。  Smaller and
  smaller he dwindled; rising and falling; rising and falling in
  the monotonous cow…pony's lope。  The heat shimmer veiled him for
  a moment; but he reappeared。  A mirage concealed him; but he
  emerged on the other side of it。  Then suddenly he was gone。  The
  desert had swallowed him up。
  End