第 56 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2022-08-26 22:14      字数:9322
  time; for half a ream of paper; for fear of being without it when they came。  I could not buy more at a time for want of capital。  I was always short of that。  I did so like them to come when I had anything for them; they were so much different to anybody else; so gentle and kind; and so very quiet。  They never talked much。  Charlotte sometimes would sit and inquire about our circumstances so kindly and feelingly! 。 。 。 Though I am a poor working man (which I have never felt to be any degradation); I could talk with her with the greatest freedom。  I always felt quite at home with her。  Though I never had any school education; I never felt the want of it in her company。〃
  The publishers to whom she finally made a successful application for the production of 〃Currer; Ellis; and Acton Bell's poems;〃 were Messrs。 Aylott and Jones; Paternoster Row。  Mr。 Aylott has kindly placed the letters which she wrote to them on the subject at my disposal。  The first is dated January 28th; 1846; and in it she inquires if they will publish one volume octavo of poems; if not at their own risk; on the author's account。  It is signed 〃C。 Bronte。〃  They must have replied pretty speedily; for on January 31st she writes again:…
  〃GENTLEMEN;
  〃Since you agree to undertake the publication of the work respecting which I applied to you; I should wish now to know; as soon as possible; the cost of paper and printing。  I will then send the necessary remittance; together with the manuscript。  I should like it to be printed in one octavo volume; of the same quality of paper and size of type as Moxon's last edition of Wordsworth。  The poems will occupy; I should think; from 200 to 250 pages。  They are not the production of a clergyman; nor are they exclusively of a religious character; but I presume these circumstances will be immaterial。  It will; perhaps; be necessary that you should see the manuscript; in order to calculate accurately the expense of publication; in that case I will send it immediately。  I should like; however; previously; to have some idea of the probable cost; and if; from what I have said; you can make a rough calculation on the subject; I should be greatly obliged to you。〃
  In her next letter; February 6th; she says:…
  〃You will perceive that the poems are the work of three persons; relativestheir separate pieces are distinguished by their respective signatures。〃
  She writes again on February 15th; and on the 16th she says:…
  〃The MS。 will certainly form a thinner volume than I had anticipated。  I cannot name another model which I should like it precisely to resemble; yet; I think; a duodecimo form; and a somewhat reduced; though still CLEAR type; would be preferable。  I only stipulate for CLEAR type; not too small; and good paper。〃
  On February 21st she selects the 〃long primer type〃 for the poems; and will remit 31L。 10S。 in a few days。
  Minute as the details conveyed in these notes are; they are not trivial; because they afford such strong indications of character。 If the volume was to be published at their own risk; it was necessary that the sister conducting the negotiation should make herself acquainted with the different kinds of type; and the various sizes of books。  Accordingly she bought a small volume; from which to learn all she could on the subject of preparation for the press。  No half…knowledgeno trusting to other people for decisions which she could make for herself; and yet a generous and full confidence; not misplaced; in the thorough probity of Messrs。 Aylott and Jones。  The caution in ascertaining the risk before embarking in the enterprise; and the prompt payment of the money required; even before it could be said to have assumed the shape of a debt; were both parts of a self…reliant and independent character。  Self…contained also was she。  During the whole time that the volume of poems was in the course of preparation and publication; no word was written telling anyone; out of the household circle; what was in progress。
  I have had some of the letters placed in my hands; which she addressed to her old school…mistress; Miss W…。  They begin a little before this time。  Acting on the conviction; which I have all along entertained; that where Charlotte Bronte's own words could be used; no others ought to take their place; I shall make extracts from this series; according to their dates。
  〃Jan。 30th; 1846。
  〃MY DEAR MISS W…;
  〃I have not yet paid my visit to …; it is; indeed; more than a year since I was there; but I frequently hear from E。; and she did not fail to tell me that you were gone into Worcestershire; she was unable; however; to give me your exact address。  Had I known it; I should have written to you long since。  I thought you would wonder how we were getting on; when you heard of the railway panic; and you may be sure that I am very glad to be able to answer your kind inquiries by the assurance that our small capital is as yet undiminished。  The York and Midland is; as you say; a very good line; yet; I confess to you; I should wish; for my own part; to be wise in time。  I cannot think that even the very best lines will continue for many years at their present premiums; and I have been most anxious for us to sell our shares ere it be too late; and to secure the proceeds in some safer; if; for the present; less profitable investment。  I cannot; however; persuade my sisters to regard the affair precisely from my point of view; and I feel as if I would rather run the risk of loss than hurt Emily's feelings by acting in direct opposition to her opinion。 She managed in a most handsome and able manner for me; when I was in Brussels; and prevented by distance from looking after my own interests; therefore; I will let her manage still; and take the consequences。  Disinterested and energetic she certainly is; and if she be not quite so tractable or open to conviction as I could wish; I must remember perfection is not the lot of humanity; and as long as we can regard those we love; and to whom we are closely allied; with profound and never…shaken esteem; it is a small thing that they should vex us occasionally by what appear to us unreasonable and headstrong notions。
  〃You; my dear Miss W…; know; full as well as I do; the value of sisters' affection to each other; there is nothing like it in this world; I believe; when they are nearly equal in age; and similar in education; tastes; and sentiments。  You ask about Branwell; he never thinks of seeking employment; and I begin to fear that he has rendered himself incapable of filling any respectable station in life; besides; if money were at his disposal; he would use it only to his own injury; the faculty of self…government is; I fear; almost destroyed in him。  You ask me if I do not think that men are strange beings?  I do; indeed。  I have often thought so; and I think; too; that the mode of bringing them up is strange:  they are not sufficiently guarded from temptation。  Girls are protected as if they were something very frail or silly indeed; while boys are turned loose on the world; as if they; of all beings in existence; were the wisest and least liable to be led astray。  I am glad you like Broomsgrove; though; I dare say; there are few places you would NOT like; with Mrs。 M。 for a companion。  I always feel a peculiar satisfaction when I hear of your enjoying yourself; because it proves that there really is such a thing as retributive justice even in this world。  You worked hard; you denied yourself all pleasure; almost all relaxation; in your youth; and in the prime of life; now you are free; and that while you have still; I hope; many years of vigour and health in which you can enjoy freedom。  Besides; I have another and very egotistical motive for being pleased; it seems that even 'a lone woman' can be happy; as well as cherished wives and proud mothers。 I am glad of that。  I speculate much on the existence of unmarried and never…to…be…married women now…a…days; and I have already got to the point of considering that there is no more respectable character on this earth than an unmarried woman; who makes her own way through life quietly; perseveringly; without support of husband or brother; and who; having attained the age of forty…five or upwards; retains in her possession a well…regulated mind; a disposition to enjoy simple pleasures; and fortitude to support inevitably pains; sympathy with the sufferings of others; and willingness to relieve want as far as her means extend。〃
  During the time that the negotiation with Messrs。 Aylott and Co。 was going on; Charlotte went to visit her old school…friend; with whom she was in such habits of confidential intimacy; but neither then nor afterwards; did she ever speak to her of the publication of the poems; nevertheless; this young lady suspected that the sisters wrote for Magazines; and in this idea she was confirmed when; on one of her visits to Haworth; she saw Anne with a number of 〃Chambers's Journal;〃 and a gentle smile of pleasure stealing over her placid face as she read。
  〃What is the matter?〃 asked the friend。  〃Why do you smile?〃
  〃Only because I see they have inserted one of my poems;〃 was the quiet reply; and not a word more was said on the subject。
  To this friend Charlotte addressed th