第 30 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2022-08-26 22:12      字数:9322
  no boundary but the horizon。  Two lines of rails; a waggon
  shed; and a few telegraph posts; alone diversified the
  outlook。  As for sounds; the silence was unbroken save by the
  chant of the telegraph wires and the crying of the plovers on
  the waste。  With the approach of midday the wind had more and
  more fallen; it was now sweltering hot and the air trembled
  in the sunshine。
  Dick paused for an instant on the threshold of the platform。
  Then; in two steps; he was by her side and speaking almost
  with a sob。
  'Esther;' he said; 'have pity on me。  What have I done?  Can
  you not forgive me?  Esther; you loved me once … can you not
  love me still?'
  'How can I tell you?  How am I to know?' she answered。  'You
  are all a lie to me … all a lie from first to last。  You were
  laughing at my folly; playing with me like a child; at the
  very time when you declared you loved me。  Which was true?
  was any of it true? or was it all; all a mockery?  I am weary
  trying to find out。  And you say I loved you; I loved my
  father's friend。  I never loved; I never heard of; you; until
  that man came home and I began to find myself deceived。  Give
  me back my father; be what you were before; and you may talk
  of love indeed!'
  'Then you cannot forgive me … cannot?' he asked。
  'I have nothing to forgive;' she answered。  'You do not
  understand。'
  'Is that your last word; Esther?' said he; very white; and
  biting his lip to keep it still。
  'Yes; that is my last word;' replied she。
  'Then we are here on false pretences; and we stay here no
  longer;' he said。  'Had you still loved me; right or wrong; I
  should have taken you away; because then I could have made
  you happy。  But as it is … I must speak plainly … what you
  propose is degrading to you; and an insult to me; and a rank
  unkindness to your father。  Your father may be this or that;
  but you should use him like a fellow…creature。'
  'What do you mean?' she flashed。  'I leave him my house and
  all my money; it is more than he deserves。  I wonder you dare
  speak to me about that man。  And besides; it is all he cares
  for; let him take it; and let me never hear from him again。'
  'I thought you romantic about fathers;' he said。
  'Is that a taunt?' she demanded。
  'No;' he replied; 'it is an argument。  No one can make you
  like him; but don't disgrace him in his own eyes。  He is old;
  Esther; old and broken down。  Even I am sorry for him; and he
  has been the loss of all I cared for。  Write to your aunt;
  when I see her answer you can leave quietly and naturally;
  and I will take you to your aunt's door。  But in the meantime
  you must go home。  You have no money; and so you are
  helpless; and must do as I tell you; and believe me; Esther;
  I do all for your good; and your good only; so God help me。'
  She had put her hand into her pocket and withdrawn it empty。
  'I counted upon you;' she wailed。
  'You counted rightly then;' he retorted。  'I will not; to
  please you for a moment; make both of us unhappy for our
  lives; and since I cannot marry you; we have only been too
  long away; and must go home at once。'
  'Dick;' she cried suddenly; 'perhaps I might … perhaps in
  time … perhaps … '
  'There is no perhaps about the matter;' interrupted Dick。  'I
  must go and bring the phaeton。'  And with that he strode from
  the station; all in a glow of passion and virtue。  Esther;
  whose eyes had come alive and her cheeks flushed during these
  last words; relapsed in a second into a state of
  petrifaction。  She remained without motion during his
  absence; and when he returned suffered herself to be put back
  into the phaeton; and driven off on the return journey like
  an idiot or a tired child。  Compared with what she was now;
  her condition of the morning seemed positively natural。  She
  sat white and cold and silent; and there was no speculation
  in her eyes。  Poor Dick flailed and flailed at the pony; and
  once tried to whistle; but his courage was going down; huge
  clouds of despair gathered together in his soul; and from
  time to time their darkness was divided by a piercing flash
  of longing and regret。  He had lost his love … he had lost
  his love for good。
  The pony was tired; and the hills very long and steep; and
  the air sultrier than ever; for now the breeze began to fail
  entirely。  It seemed as if this miserable drive would never
  be done; as if poor Dick would never be able to go away and
  be comfortably wretched by himself; for all his desire was to
  escape from her presence and the reproach of her averted
  looks。  He had lost his love; he thought … he had lost his
  love for good。
  They were already not far from the cottage; when his heart
  again faltered and he appealed to her once more; speaking low
  and eagerly in broken phrases。
  'I cannot live without your love;' he concluded。
  'I do not understand what you mean;' she replied; and I
  believe with perfect truth。
  'Then;' said he; wounded to the quick; 'your aunt might come
  and fetch you herself。  Of course you can command me as you
  please。  But I think it would be better so。'
  'Oh yes;' she said wearily; 'better so。'
  This was the only exchange of words between them till about
  four o'clock; the phaeton; mounting the lane; 'opened out'
  the cottage between the leafy banks。  Thin smoke went
  straight up from the chimney; the flowers in the garden; the
  hawthorn in the lane; hung down their heads in the heat; the
  stillness was broken only by the sound of hoofs。  For right
  before the gate a livery servant rode slowly up and down;
  leading a saddle horse。  And in this last Dick shuddered to
  identify his father's chestnut。
  Alas! poor Richard; what should this portend?
  The servant; as in duty bound; dismounted and took the
  phaeton into his keeping; yet Dick thought he touched his hat
  to him with something of a grin。  Esther; passive as ever;
  was helped out and crossed the garden with a slow and
  mechanical gait; and Dick; following close behind her; heard
  from within the cottage his father's voice upraised in an
  anathema; and the shriller tones of the Admiral responding in
  the key of war。
  CHAPTER VIII … BATTLE ROYAL
  SQUIRE NASEBY; on sitting down to lunch; had inquired for
  Dick; whom he had not seen since the day before at dinner;
  and the servant answering awkwardly that Master Richard had
  come back but had gone out again with the pony phaeton; his
  suspicions became aroused; and he cross…questioned the man
  until the whole was out。  It appeared from this report that
  Dick had been going about for nearly a month with a girl in
  the Vale … a Miss Van Tromp; that she lived near Lord
  Trevanion's upper wood; that recently Miss Van Tromp's papa
  had returned home from foreign parts after a prolonged
  absence; that this papa was an old gentleman; very chatty and
  free with his money in the public…house … whereupon Mr。
  Naseby's face became encrimsoned; that the papa; furthermore;
  was said to be an admiral … whereupon Mr。 Naseby spat out a
  whistle brief and fierce as an oath; that Master Dick seemed
  very friendly with the papa … 'God help him!' said Mr。
  Naseby; that last night Master Dick had not come in; and to…
  day he had driven away in the phaeton with the young lady …
  'Young woman;' corrected Mr。 Naseby。
  'Yes; sir;' said the man; who had been unwilling enough to
  gossip from the first; and was now cowed by the effect of his
  communications on the master。  'Young woman; sir!'
  'Had they luggage?' demanded the Squire。
  'Yes; sir。'
  Mr。 Naseby was silent for a moment; struggling to keep down
  his emotion; and he mastered it so far as to mount into the
  sarcastic vein; when he was in the nearest danger of melting
  into the sorrowful。
  'And was this … this Van Dunk with them?' he asked; dwelling
  scornfully upon the name。
  The servant believed not; and being eager to shift the
  responsibility of speech to other shoulders; suggested that
  perhaps the master had better inquire further from George the
  stableman in person。
  'Tell him to saddle the chestnut and come with me。  He can
  take the gray gelding; for we may ride fast。  And then you
  can take away this trash;' added Mr。 Naseby; pointing to the
  luncheon; and he arose; lordly in his anger; and marched
  forth upon the terrace to await his horse。
  There Dick's old nurse shrunk up to him; for the news went
  like wildfire over Naseby House; and timidly expressed a hope
  that there was nothing much amiss with the young master。
  'I'll pull him through;' the Squire said grimly; as though he
  meant to pull him through a threshing…mill; 'I'll save him
  from this gang; God help him with the next!  He has a taste
  for low company; and no natural affections to steady him。
  His father was no society for him; he must go fuddling with a
  Dutchman; Nance; and now he's caught。  Let us pray he'll take
  the lesson;' he a