第 9 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2022-08-26 22:12      字数:9322
  was a disgusting business; but not more than disgusting; and
  it was with no great apprehension that John proceeded to make
  the circuit of the table: his last comparatively tranquil
  moment for that day。  No sooner had he turned the corner; no
  sooner had his eyes alighted on the body; than he gave a
  smothered; breathless cry; and fled out of the room and out
  of the house。
  It was not Alan who lay there; but a man well up in years; of
  stern countenance and iron…grey locks; and it was no
  drunkard; for the body lay in a black pool of blood; and the
  open eyes stared upon the ceiling。
  To and fro walked John before the door。  The extreme
  sharpness of the air acted on his nerves like an astringent;
  and braced them swiftly。  Presently; he not relaxing in his
  disordered walk; the images began to come clearer and stay
  longer in his fancy; and next the power of thought came back
  to him; and the horror and danger of his situation rooted him
  to the ground。
  He grasped his forehead; and staring on one spot of gravel;
  pieced together what he knew and what he suspected。  Alan had
  murdered some one: possibly 'that man' against whom the
  butler chained the door in Regent Terrace; possibly another;
  some one at least: a human soul; whom it was death to slay
  and whose blood lay spilled upon the floor。  This was the
  reason of the whisky drinking in the passage; of his
  unwillingness to welcome John; of his strange behaviour and
  bewildered words; this was why he had started at and harped
  upon the name of murder; this was why he had stood and
  hearkened; or sat and covered his eyes; in the black night。
  And now he was gone; now he had basely fled; and to all his
  perplexities and dangers John stood heir。
  'Let me think … let me think;' he said; aloud; impatiently;
  even pleadingly; as if to some merciless interrupter。  In the
  turmoil of his wits; a thousand hints and hopes and threats
  and terrors dinning continuously in his ears; he was like one
  plunged in the hubbub of a crowd。  How was he to remember …
  he; who had not a thought to spare … that he was himself the
  author; as well as the theatre; of so much confusion?  But in
  hours of trial the junto of man's nature is dissolved; and
  anarchy succeeds。
  It was plain he must stay no longer where he was; for here
  was a new Judicial Error in the very making。  It was not so
  plain where he must go; for the old Judicial Error; vague as
  a cloud; appeared to fill the habitable world; whatever it
  might be; it watched for him; full…grown; in Edinburgh; it
  must have had its birth in San Francisco; it stood guard; no
  doubt; like a dragon; at the bank where he should cash his
  credit; and though there were doubtless many other places;
  who should say in which of them it was not ambushed?  No; he
  could not tell where he was to go; he must not lose time on
  these insolubilities。  Let him go back to the beginning。  It
  was plain he must stay no longer where he was。  It was plain;
  too; that he must not flee as he was; for he could not carry
  his portmanteau; and to flee and leave it was to plunge
  deeper in the mire。  He must go; leave the house unguarded;
  find a cab; and return … return after an absence?  Had he
  courage for that?
  And just then he spied a stain about a hand's…breadth on his
  trouser…leg; and reached his finger down to touch it。  The
  finger was stained red: it was blood; he stared upon it with
  disgust; and awe; and terror; and in the sharpness of the new
  sensation; fell instantly to act。
  He cleansed his finger in the snow; returned into the house;
  drew near with hushed footsteps to the dining…room door; and
  shut and locked it。  Then he breathed a little freer; for
  here at least was an oaken barrier between himself and what
  he feared。  Next; he hastened to his room; tore off the
  spotted trousers which seemed in his eyes a link to bind him
  to the gallows; flung them in a corner; donned another pair;
  breathlessly crammed his night things into his portmanteau;
  locked it; swung it with an effort from the ground; and with
  a rush of relief; came forth again under the open heavens。
  The portmanteau; being of occidental build; was no feather…
  weight; it had distressed the powerful Alan; and as for John;
  he was crushed under its bulk; and the sweat broke upon him
  thickly。  Twice he must set it down to rest before he reached
  the gate; and when he had come so far; he must do as Alan
  did; and take his seat upon one corner。  Here then; he sat a
  while and panted; but now his thoughts were sensibly
  lightened; now; with the trunk standing just inside the door;
  some part of his dissociation from the house of crime had
  been effected; and the cabman need not pass the garden wall。
  It was wonderful how that relieved him; for the house; in his
  eyes; was a place to strike the most cursory beholder with
  suspicion; as though the very windows had cried murder。
  But there was to be no remission of the strokes of fate。  As
  he thus sat; taking breath in the shadow of the wall and
  hopped about by sparrows; it chanced that his eye roved to
  the fastening of the door; and what he saw plucked him to his
  feet。  The thing locked with a spring; once the door was
  closed; the bolt shut of itself; and without a key; there was
  no means of entering from without。
  He saw himself obliged to one of two distasteful and perilous
  alternatives; either to shut the door altogether and set his
  portmanteau out upon the wayside; a wonder to all beholders;
  or to leave the door ajar; so that any thievish tramp or
  holiday schoolboy might stray in and stumble on the grisly
  secret。  To the last; as the least desperate; his mind
  inclined; but he must first insure himself that he was
  unobserved。  He peered out; and down the long road; it lay
  dead empty。  He went to the corner of the by…road that comes
  by way of Dean; there also not a passenger was stirring。
  Plainly it was; now or never; the high tide of his affairs;
  and he drew the door as close as he durst; slipped a pebble
  in the chink; and made off downhill to find a cab。
  Half…way down a gate opened; and a troop of Christmas
  children sallied forth in the most cheerful humour; followed
  more soberly by a smiling mother。
  'And this is Christmas…day!' thought John; and could have
  laughed aloud in tragic bitterness of heart。
  CHAPTER VII … A TRAGI…COMEDY IN A CAB
  In front of Donaldson's Hospital; John counted it good
  fortune to perceive a cab a great way of; and by much
  shouting and waving of his arm; to catch the notice of the
  driver。  He counted it good fortune; for the time was long to
  him till he should have done for ever with the Lodge; and the
  further he must go to find a cab; the greater the chance that
  the inevitable discovery had taken place; and that he should
  return to find the garden full of angry neighbours。  Yet when
  the vehicle drew up he was sensibly chagrined to recognise
  the port…wine cabman of the night before。  'Here;' he could
  not but reflect; 'here is another link in the Judicial
  Error。'
  The driver; on the other hand; was pleased to drop again upon
  so liberal a fare; and as he was a man … the reader must
  already have perceived … of easy; not to say familiar;
  manners; he dropped at once into a vein of friendly talk;
  commenting on the weather; on the sacred season; which struck
  him chiefly in the light of a day of liberal gratuities; on
  the chance which had reunited him to a pleasing customer; and
  on the fact that John had been (as he was pleased to call it)
  visibly 'on the randan' the night before。
  'And ye look dreidful bad the…day; sir; I must say that;' he
  continued。  'There's nothing like a dram for ye … if ye'll
  take my advice of it; and bein' as it's Christmas; I'm no'
  saying;' he added; with a fatherly smile; 'but what I would
  join ye mysel'。'
  John had listened with a sick heart。
  'I'll give you a dram when we've got through;' said he;
  affecting a sprightliness which sat on him most unhandsomely;
  'and not a drop till then。  Business first; and pleasure
  afterward。'
  With this promise the jarvey was prevailed upon to clamber to
  his place and drive; with hideous deliberation; to the door
  of the Lodge。  There were no signs as yet of any public
  emotion; only; two men stood not far off in talk; and their
  presence; seen from afar; set John's pulses buzzing。  He
  might have spared himself his fright; for the pair were lost
  in some dispute of a theological complexion; and with
  lengthened upper lip and enumerating fingers; pursued the
  matter of their difference; and paid no heed to John。
  But the cabman proved a thorn in the flesh。
  Nothing would keep him on his perch; he must clamber down;
  comment upon the pebble in the door (which he regarded as an
  ingenious but unsafe device); help John with the portmanteau;
  and enliven matters with a flow of speech; and especially of
  questions