第 2 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2022-08-26 22:12      字数:9322
  young lady was worthy of better things than plain John
  Nicholson; still known among schoolmates by the derisive name
  of 'Fatty'; and he felt; if he could chalk a cue; or stand at
  ease; with such a careless grace as Alan; he could approach
  the object of his sentiments with a less crushing sense of
  inferiority。
  Before they parted; Alan made a proposal that was startling
  in the extreme。  He would be at Colette's that night about
  twelve; he said。  Why should not John come there and get the
  money?  To go to Colette's was to see life; indeed; it was
  wrong; it was against the laws; it partook; in a very dingy
  manner; of adventure。  Were it known; it was the sort of
  exploit that disconsidered a young man for good with the more
  serious classes; but gave him a standing with the riotous。
  And yet Colette's was not a hell; it could not come; without
  vaulting hyperbole; under the rubric of a gilded saloon; and;
  if it was a sin to go there; the sin was merely local and
  municipal。  Colette (whose name I do not know how to spell;
  for I was never in epistolary communication with that
  hospitable outlaw) was simply an unlicensed publican; who
  gave suppers after eleven at night; the Edinburgh hour of
  closing。  If you belonged to a club; you could get a much
  better supper at the same hour; and lose not a jot in public
  esteem。  But if you lacked that qualification; and were an
  hungered; or inclined toward conviviality at unlawful hours;
  Colette's was your only port。  You were very ill…supplied。
  The company was not recruited from the Senate or the Church;
  though the Bar was very well represented on the only occasion
  on which I flew in the face of my country's laws; and; taking
  my reputation in my hand; penetrated into that grim supper…
  house。  And Colette's frequenters; thrillingly conscious of
  wrong…doing and 'that two…handed engine (the policeman) at
  the door;' were perhaps inclined to somewhat feverish excess。
  But the place was in no sense a very bad one; and it is
  somewhat strange to me; at this distance of time; how it had
  acquired its dangerous repute。
  In precisely the same spirit as a man may debate a project to
  ascend the Matterhorn or to cross Africa; John considered
  Alan's proposal; and; greatly daring; accepted it。  As he
  walked home; the thoughts of this excursion out of the safe
  places of life into the wild and arduous; stirred and
  struggled in his imagination with the image of Miss Mackenzie
  … incongruous and yet kindred thoughts; for did not each
  imply unusual tightening of the pegs of resolution? did not
  each woo him forth and warn him back again into himself?
  Between these two considerations; at least; he was more than
  usually moved; and when he got to Randolph Crescent; he quite
  forgot the four hundred pounds in the inner pocket of his
  greatcoat; hung up the coat; with its rich freight; upon his
  particular pin of the hatstand; and in the very action sealed
  his doom。
  CHAPTER II … IN WHICH JOHN REAPS THE WHIRLWIND
  ABOUT half…past ten it was John's brave good fortune to offer
  his arm to Miss Mackenzie; and escort her home。  The night
  was chill and starry; all the way eastward the trees of the
  different gardens rustled and looked black。  Up the stone
  gully of Leith Walk; when they came to cross it; the breeze
  made a rush and set the flames of the street…lamps quavering;
  and when at last they had mounted to the Royal Terrace; where
  Captain Mackenzie lived; a great salt freshness came in their
  faces from the sea。  These phases of the walk remained
  written on John's memory; each emphasised by the touch of
  that light hand on his arm; and behind all these aspects of
  the nocturnal city he saw; in his mind's…eye; a picture of
  the lighted drawing…room at home where he had sat talking
  with Flora; and his father; from the other end; had looked on
  with a kind and ironical smile。  John had read the
  significance of that smile; which might have escaped a
  stranger。  Mr。 Nicholson had remarked his son's entanglement
  with satisfaction; tinged by humour; and his smile; if it
  still was a thought contemptuous; had implied consent。
  At the captain's door the girl held out her hand; with a
  certain emphasis; and John took it and kept it a little
  longer; and said; 'Good…night; Flora; dear;' and was
  instantly thrown into much fear by his presumption。  But she
  only laughed; ran up the steps; and rang the bell; and while
  she was waiting for the door to open; kept close in the
  porch; and talked to him from that point as out of a
  fortification。  She had a knitted shawl over her head; her
  blue Highland eyes took the light from the neighbouring
  street…lamp and sparkled; and when the door opened and closed
  upon her; John felt cruelly alone。
  He proceeded slowly back along the terrace in a tender glow;
  and when he came to Greenside Church; he halted in a doubtful
  mind。  Over the crown of the Calton Hill; to his left; lay
  the way to Colette's; where Alan would soon be looking for
  his arrival; and where he would now have no more consented to
  go than he would have wilfully wallowed in a bog; the touch
  of the girl's hand on his sleeve; and the kindly light in his
  father's eyes; both loudly forbidding。  But right before him
  was the way home; which pointed only to bed; a place of
  little ease for one whose fancy was strung to the lyrical
  pitch; and whose not very ardent heart was just then
  tumultuously moved。  The hilltop; the cool air of the night;
  the company of the great monuments; the sight of the city
  under his feet; with its hills and valleys and crossing files
  of lamps; drew him by all he had of the poetic; and he turned
  that way; and by that quite innocent deflection; ripened the
  crop of his venial errors for the sickle of destiny。
  On a seat on the hill above Greenside he sat for perhaps half
  an hour; looking down upon the lamps of Edinburgh; and up at
  the lamps of heaven。  Wonderful were the resolves he formed;
  beautiful and kindly were the vistas of future life that sped
  before him。  He uttered to himself the name of Flora in so
  many touching and dramatic keys; that he became at length
  fairly melted with tenderness; and could have sung aloud。  At
  that juncture a certain creasing in his greatcoat caught his
  ear。  He put his hand into his pocket; pulled forth the
  envelope that held the money; and sat stupefied。  The Calton
  Hill; about this period; had an ill name of nights; and to be
  sitting there with four hundred pounds that did not belong to
  him was hardly wise。  He looked up。  There was a man in a
  very bad hat a little on one side of him; apparently looking
  at the scenery; from a little on the other a second night…
  walker was drawing very quietly near。  Up jumped John。  The
  envelope fell from his hands; he stooped to get it; and at
  the same moment both men ran in and closed with him。
  A little after; he got to his feet very sore and shaken; the
  poorer by a purse which contained exactly one penny postage…
  stamp; by a cambric handkerchief; and by the all…important
  envelope。
  Here was a young man on whom; at the highest point of lovely
  exaltation; there had fallen a blow too sharp to be supported
  alone; and not many hundred yards away his greatest friend
  was sitting at supper … ay; and even expecting him。  Was it
  not in the nature of man that he should run there?  He went
  in quest of sympathy … in quest of that droll article that we
  all suppose ourselves to want when in a strait; and have
  agreed to call advice; and he went; besides; with vague but
  rather splendid expectations of relief。  Alan was rich; or
  would be so when he came of age。  By a stroke of the pen he
  might remedy this misfortune; and avert that dreaded
  interview with Mr。 Nicholson; from which John now shrunk in
  imagination as the hand draws back from fire。
  Close under the Calton Hill there runs a certain narrow
  avenue; part street; part by…road。  The head of it faces the
  doors of the prison; its tail descends into the sunless slums
  of the Low Calton。  On one hand it is overhung by the crags
  of the hill; on the other by an old graveyard。  Between these
  two the roadway runs in a trench; sparsely lighted at night;
  sparsely frequented by day; and bordered; when it was cleared
  the place of tombs; by dingy and ambiguous houses。  One of
  these was the house of Colette; and at his door our ill…
  starred John was presently beating for admittance。  In an
  evil hour he satisfied the jealous inquiries of the
  contraband hotel…keeper; in an evil hour he penetrated into
  the somewhat unsavoury interior。  Alan; to be sure; was
  there; seated in a room lighted by noisy gas…jets; beside a
  dirty table…cloth; engaged on a coarse meal; and in the
  company of several tipsy members of the junior bar。  But Alan
  was not sober; he had lost a thousand pounds upon a horse…
  race; had received the news at dinner…time; and was now; in
  default of a