第 29 节
作者:美丽心点      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:9322
  seamanship I had an opportunity of observing was the boarding of
  ships at sea; at all times; in all states of the weather。  They
  gave it to me to the full。  And I have been invited to sit in
  more than one tall; dark house of the old town at their
  hospitable board; had the bouillabaisse ladled out into a thick
  plate by their high…voiced; broad…browed wives; talked to their
  daughtersthick…set girls; with pure profiles; glorious masses
  of black hair arranged with complicated art; dark eyes; and
  dazzlingly white teeth。
  I had also other acquaintances of quite a different sort。  One of
  them; Madame Delestang; an imperious; handsome lady in a
  statuesque style; would carry me off now and then on the front
  seat of her carriage to the Prado; at the hour of fashionable
  airing。  She belonged to one of the old aristocratic families in
  the south。  In her haughty weariness she used to make me think of
  Lady Dedlock in Dickens's 〃Bleak House;〃 a work of the master for
  which I have such an admiration; or rather such an intense and
  unreasoning affection; dating from the days of my childhood; that
  its very weaknesses are more precious to me than the strength of
  other men's work。  I have read it innumerable times; both in
  Polish and in English; I have read it only the other day; and; by
  a not very surprising inversion; the Lady Dedlock of the book
  reminded me strongly of the belle Madame Delestang。
  Her husband (as I sat facing them both); with his thin bony nose;
  and a perfectly bloodless; narrow physiognomy clamped together as
  it were by short formal side…whiskers; had nothing of Sir
  Leicester Dedlock's 〃grand air〃 and courtly solemnity。  He
  belonged to the haute bourgeoisie only; and was a banker; with
  whom a modest credit had been opened for my needs。 He was such an
  ardentno; such a frozen…up; mummified Royalist that he used in
  current conversation turns of speech contemporary; I should say;
  with the good Henri Quatre; and when talking of money matters
  reckoned not in francs; like the common; godless herd of post…
  Revolutionary Frenchmen; but in obsolete and forgotten ecusecus
  of all money units in the world!as though Louis Quatorze were
  still promenading in royal splendour the gardens of Versailles;
  and Monsieur de Colbert busy with the direction of maritime
  affairs。  You must admit that in a banker of the nineteenth
  century it was a quaint idiosyncrasy。  Luckily in the counting…
  house (it occupied part of the ground floor of the Delestang town
  residence; in a silent; shady street) the accounts were kept in
  modern money; so that I never had any difficulty in making my
  wants known to the grave; low…voiced; decorous; Legitimist (I
  suppose) clerks; sitting in the perpetual gloom of heavily barred
  windows behind the sombre; ancient counters; beneath lofty
  ceilings with heavily moulded cornices。  I always felt on going
  out as though I had been in the temple of some very dignified but
  completely temporal religion。  And it was generally on these
  occasions that under the great carriage gateway Lady Ded I mean
  Madame Delestang; catching sight of my raised hat; would beckon
  me with an amiable imperiousness to the side of the carriage; and
  suggest with an air of amused nonchalance; 〃Venez donc faire un
  tour avec nous;〃 to which the husband would add an encouraging
  〃C'est ca。  Allons; montez; jeune homme。〃  He questioned me
  sometimes; significantly but with perfect tact and delicacy; as
  to the way I employed my time; and never failed to express the
  hope that I wrote regularly to my 〃honoured uncle。〃  I made no
  secret of the way I employed my time; and I rather fancy that my
  artless tales of the pilots and so on entertained Madame
  Delestang; so far as that ineffable woman could be entertained by
  the prattle of a youngster very full of his new experience
  amongst strange men and strange sensations。  She expressed no
  opinions; and talked to me very little; yet her portrait hangs in
  the gallery of my intimate memories; fixed there by a short and
  fleeting episode。  One day; after putting me down at the corner
  of a street; she offered me her hand; and detained me by a slight
  pressure; for a moment。  While the husband sat motionless and
  looking straight before him; she leaned forward in the carriage
  to say; with just a shade of warning in her leisurely tone:  〃Il
  faut; cependant; faire attention a ne pas gater sa vie。〃  I had
  never seen her face so close to mine before。  She made my heart
  beat; and caused me to remain thoughtful for a whole evening。
  Certainly one must; after all; take care not to spoil one's life。
  But she did not knownobody could knowhow impossible that
  danger seemed to me。
  Chapter VII。
  Can the transports of first love be calmed; checked; turned to a
  cold suspicion of the future by a grave quotation from a work on
  Political Economy?  I askis it conceivable?  Is it possible?
  Would it be right?  With my feet on the very shores of the sea
  and about to embrace my blue…eyed dream; what could a good…
  natured warning as to spoiling one's life mean to my youthful
  passion?  It was the most unexpected and the last too of the many
  warnings I had received。  It sounded to me very bizarreand;
  uttered as it was in the very presence of my enchantress; like
  the voice of folly; the voice of ignorance。  But I was not so
  callous or so stupid as not to recognise there also the voice of
  kindness。  And then the vagueness of the warningbecause what
  can be the meaning of the phrase:  to spoil one's life?arrested
  one's attention by its air of wise profundity。  At any rate; as I
  have said before; the words of la belle Madame Delestang made me
  thoughtful for a whole evening。  I tried to understand and tried
  in vain; not having any notion of life as an enterprise that
  could be mismanaged。  But I left off being thoughtful shortly
  before midnight; at which hour; haunted by no ghosts of the past
  and by no visions of the future; I walked down the quay of the
  Vieux Port to join the pilot…boat of my friends。  I knew where
  she would be waiting for her crew; in the little bit of a canal
  behind the Fort at the entrance of the harbour。  The deserted
  quays looked very white and dry in the moonlight and as if frost…
  bound in the sharp air of that December night。  A prowler or two
  slunk by noiselessly; a custom…house guard; soldier…like; a sword
  by his side; paced close under the bowsprits of the long row of
  ships moored bows on opposite the long; slightly curved;
  continuous flat wall of the tall houses that seemed to be one
  immense abandoned building with innumerable windows shuttered
  closely。  Only here and there a small dingy cafe for sailors cast
  a yellow gleam on the bluish sheen of the flagstones。  Passing
  by; one heard a deep murmur of voices insidenothing more。  How
  quiet everything was at the end of the quays on the last night on
  which I went out for a service cruise as a guest of the
  Marseilles pilots!  Not a footstep; except my own; not a sigh;
  not a whispering echo of the usual revelry going on in the narrow
  unspeakable lanes of the Old Town reached my earand suddenly;
  with a terrific jingling rattle of iron and glass; the omnibus of
  the Jolliette on its last journey swung round the corner of the
  dead wall which faces across the paved road the characteristic
  angular mass of the Fort St。 Jean。  Three horses trotted abreast
  with the clatter of hoofs on the granite setts; and the yellow;
  uproarious machine jolted violently behind them; fantastic;
  lighted up; perfectly empty and with the driver apparently asleep
  on his swaying perch above that amazing racket。  I flattened
  myself against the wall and gasped。  It was a stunning
  experience。  Then after staggering on a few paces in the shadow
  of the Fort casting a darkness more intense than that of a
  clouded night upon the canal; I saw the tiny light of a lantern
  standing on the quay; and became aware of muffled figures making
  towards it from various directions。  Pilots of the Third Company
  hastening to embark。  Too sleepy to be talkative they step on
  board in silence。  But a few low grunts and an enormous yawn are
  heard。  Somebody even ejaculates:  〃Ah!  Coquin de sort!〃 and
  sighs wearily at his hard fate。
  The patron of the Third Company (there were five companies of
  pilots at that time; I believe) is the brother…in…law of my
  friend Solary (Baptistin); a broad…shouldered;