第 22 节
作者:美丽心点      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:9322
  friends should nurse the germ of incipient madness than that I
  should turn into a writer of tales。
  To survey with wonder the changes of one's own self is a
  fascinating pursuit for idle hours。  The field is so wide; the
  surprises so varied; the subject so full of unprofitable but
  curious hints as to the work of unseen forces; that one does not
  weary easily of it。  I am not speaking here of megalomaniacs who
  rest uneasy under the crown of their unbounded conceitwho
  really never rest in this world; and when out of it go on
  fretting and fuming on the straitened circumstances of their last
  habitation; where all men must lie in obscure equality。  Neither
  am I thinking of those ambitious minds who; always looking
  forward to some aim of aggrandisement; can spare no time for a
  detached; impersonal glance upon themselves。
  And that's a pity。  They are unlucky。  These two kinds; together
  with the much larger band of the totally unimaginative; of those
  unfortunate beings in whose empty and unseeing gaze (as a great
  French writer has put it) 〃the whole universe vanishes into blank
  nothingness;〃 miss; perhaps; the true task of us men whose day is
  short on this earth; the abode of conflicting opinions。  The
  ethical view of the universe involves us at last in so many cruel
  and absurd contradictions; where the last vestiges of faith;
  hope; charity; and even of reason itself; seem ready to perish;
  that I have come to suspect that the aim of creation cannot be
  ethical at all。  I would fondly believe that its object is purely
  spectacular:  a spectacle for awe; love; adoration; or hate; if
  you like; but in this viewand in this view alonenever for
  despair!  Those visions; delicious or poignant; are a moral end
  in themselves。  The rest is our affairthe laughter; the tears;
  the tenderness; the indignation; the high tranquillity of a
  steeled heart; the detached curiosity of a subtle mindthat's
  our affair!  And the unwearied self…forgetful attention to every
  phase of the living universe reflected in our consciousness may
  be our appointed task on this earth。  A task in which fate has
  perhaps engaged nothing of us except our conscience; gifted with
  a voice in order to bear true testimony to the visible wonder;
  the haunting terror; the infinite passion and the illimitable
  serenity; to the supreme law and the abiding mystery of the
  sublime spectacle。
  Chi lo sa?  It may be true。  In this view there is room for every
  religion except for the inverted creed of impiety; the mask and
  cloak of arid despair; for every joy and every sorrow; for every
  fair dream; for every charitable hope。  The great aim is to
  remain true to the emotions called out of the deep encircled by
  the firmament of stars; whose infinite numbers and awful
  distances may move us to laughter or tears (was it the Walrus or
  the Carpenter; in the poem; who 〃wept to see such quantities of
  sand〃?); or; again; to a properly steeled heart; may matter
  nothing at all。
  The casual quotation; which had suggested itself out of a poem
  full of merit; leads me to remark that in the conception of a
  purely spectacular universe; where inspiration of every sort has
  a rational existence; the artist of every kind finds a natural
  place; and amongst them the poet as the seer par excellence。
  Even the writer of prose; who in his less noble and more toilsome
  task should be a man with the steeled heart; is worthy of a
  place; providing he looks on with undimmed eyes and keeps
  laughter out of his voice; let who will laugh or cry。  Yes!  Even
  he; the prose artist of fiction; which after all is but truth
  often dragged out of a well and clothed in the painted robe of
  imaged phraseseven he has his place amongst kings; demagogues;
  priests; charlatans; dukes; giraffes; Cabinet Ministers; Fabians;
  bricklayers; apostles; ants; scientists; Kaffirs; soldiers;
  sailors; elephants; lawyers; dandies; microbes and constellations
  of a universe whose amazing spectacle is a moral end in itself。
  Here I perceive (speaking without offence) the reader assuming a
  subtle expression; as if the cat were out of the bag。  I take the
  novelist's freedom to observe the reader's mind formulating the
  exclamation; 〃That's it!  The fellow talks pro domo。〃
  Indeed it was not the intention!  When I shouldered the bag I was
  not aware of the cat inside。  But; after all; why not?  The fair
  courtyards of the House of Art are thronged by many humble
  retainers。  And there is no retainer so devoted as he who is
  allowed to sit on the doorstep。  The fellows who have got inside
  are apt to think too much of themselves。  This last remark; I beg
  to state; is not malicious within the definition of the law of
  libel。  It's fair comment on a matter of public interest。  But
  never mind。  Pro domo。  So be it。  For his house tant que vous
  voudrez。  And yet in truth I was by no means anxious to justify
  my existence。  The attempt would have been not only needless and
  absurd; but almost inconceivable; in a purely spectacular
  universe; where no such disagreeable necessity can possibly
  arise。  It is sufficient for me to say (and I am saying it at
  some length in these pages):  〃J'ai vecu。〃  I have existed;
  obscure amongst the wonders and terrors of my time; as the Abbe
  Sieyes; the original utterer of the quoted words; had managed to
  exist through the violences; the crimes; and the enthusiasms of
  the French Revolution。  〃J'ai vecu〃; as I apprehend most of us
  manage to exist; missing all along the varied forms of
  destruction by a hair's…breadth; saving my body; that's clear;
  and perhaps my soul also; but not without some damage here and
  there to the fine edge of my conscience; that heirloom of the
  ages; of the race; of the group; of the family; colourable and
  plastic; fashioned by the words; the looks; the acts; and even by
  the silences and abstentions surrounding one's childhood; tinged
  in a complete scheme of delicate shades and crude colours by the
  inherited traditions; beliefs; or prejudicesunaccountable;
  despotic; persuasive; and often; in its texture; romantic。
  And often romantic!。 。 。The matter in hand; however; is to keep
  these reminiscences from turning into confessions; a form of
  literary activity discredited by Jean Jacques Rousseau on account
  of the extreme thoroughness he brought to the work of justifying
  his own existence; for that such was his purpose is palpably;
  even grossly; visible to an unprejudiced eye。  But then; you see;
  the man was not a writer of fiction。  He was an artless moralist;
  as is clearly demonstrated by his anniversaries being celebrated
  with marked emphasis by the heirs of the French Revolution; which
  was not a political movement at all; but a great outburst of
  morality。  He had no imagination; as the most casual perusal of
  〃Emile〃 will prove。  He was no novelist; whose first virtue is
  the exact understanding of the limits traced by the reality of
  his time to the play of his invention。  Inspiration comes from
  the earth; which has a past; a history; a future; not from the
  cold and immutable heaven。  A writer of imaginative prose (even
  more than any other sort of artist) stands confessed in his
  works。  His conscience; his deeper sense of things; lawful and
  unlawful; gives him his attitude before the world。  Indeed; every
  one who puts pen to paper for the reading of strangers (unless a
  moralist; who; generally speaking; has no conscience except the
  one he is at pains to produce for the use of others) can speak of
  nothing else。  It is M。 Anatole France; the most eloquent and
  just of French prose writers; who says that we must recognise at
  last that; 〃failing the resolution to hold our peace; we can only
  talk of ourselves。〃
  This remark; if I remember rightly; was made in the course of a
  sparring match with the late Ferdinand Brunetiere over the
  principles and rules of literary criticism。  As was fitting for a
  man to whom we owe the memorable saying; 〃The good critic is he
  who relates the adventures of his soul amongst masterpieces;〃 M。
  Anatole France maintained that there were no rules and no
  principles。  And that may be very true。  Rules; principles and
  standards die and vanish every day。  Perhaps they are all dead
  and vanished by this time。  These; if ever; are the brave; free
  days of destroyed landmarks; while the ingenious minds are busy
  inventing the forms of the new beacons whic