第 8 节
作者:美丽心点      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:9321
  the oppressive shadow of the great Russian Empirethe shadow
  lowering with the darkness of a new…born national hatred fostered
  by the Moscow school of journalists against the Poles after the
  ill…omened rising of 1863。
  This is a far cry back from the MS。 of 〃Almayer's Folly;〃 but the
  public record of these formative impressions is not the whim of
  an uneasy egotism。  These; too; are things human; already distant
  in their appeal。  It is meet that something more should be left
  for the novelist's children than the colours and figures of his
  own hard…won creation。  That which in their grown…up years may
  appear to the world about them as the most enigmatic side of
  their natures and perhaps must remain for ever obscure even to
  themselves; will be their unconscious response to the still voice
  of that inexorable past from which his work of fiction and their
  personalities are remotely derived。
  Only in men's imagination does every truth find an effective and
  undeniable existence。  Imagination; not invention; is the supreme
  master of art as of life。  An imaginative and exact rendering of
  authentic memories may serve worthily that spirit of piety
  towards all things human which sanctions the conceptions of a
  writer of tales; and the emotions of the man reviewing his own
  experience。
  Chapter II。
  As I have said; I was unpacking my luggage after a journey from
  London into Ukraine。  The MS。 of 〃Almayer's Folly〃my companion
  already for some three years or more; and then in the ninth
  chapter of its agewas deposited unostentatiously on the
  writing…table placed between two windows。  It didn't occur to me
  to put it away in the drawer the table was fitted with; but my
  eye was attracted by the good form of the same drawer's brass
  handles。  Two candelabra with four candles each lighted up
  festally the room which had waited so many years for the
  wandering nephew。 The blinds were down。
  Within five hundred yards of the chair on which I sat stood the
  first peasant hut of the villagepart of my maternal
  grandfather's estate; the only part remaining in the possession
  of a member of the family; and beyond the village in the
  limitless blackness of a winter's night there lay the great
  unfenced fieldsnot a flat and severe plain; but a kindly bread…
  giving land of low rounded ridges; all white now; with the black
  patches of timber nestling in the hollows。  The road by which I
  had come ran through the village with a turn just outside the
  gates closing the short drive。  Somebody was abroad on the deep
  snowtrack; a quick tinkle of bells stole gradually into the
  stillness of the room like a tuneful whisper。
  My unpacking had been watched over by the servant who had come to
  help me; and; for the most part; had been standing attentive but
  unnecessary at the door of the room。  I did not want him in the
  least; but I did not like to tell him to go away。  He was a young
  fellow; certainly more than ten years younger than myself; I had
  not beenI won't say in that place but within sixty miles of it;
  ever since the year '67; yet his guileless physiognomy of the
  open peasant type seemed strangely familiar。  It was quite
  possible that he might have been a descendant; a son or even a
  grandson; of the servants whose friendly faces had been familiar
  to me in my early childhood。  As a matter of fact he had no such
  claim on my consideration。  He was the product of some village
  near by and was there on his promotion; having learned the
  service in one or two houses as pantry…boy。  I know this because
  I asked the worthy V next day。  I might well have spared the
  question。  I discovered before long that all the faces about the
  house and all the faces in the village:  the grave faces with
  long moustaches of the heads of families; the downy faces of the
  young men; the faces of the little fair…haired children; the
  handsome; tanned; wide…browed faces of the mothers seen at the
  doors of the huts were as familiar to me as though I had known
  them all from childhood; and my childhood were a matter of the
  day before yesterday。
  The tinkle of the traveller's bels; after growing louder; had
  faded away quickly; and the tumult of barking dogs in the village
  had calmed down at last。  My uncle; lounging in the corner of a
  small couch; smoked his long Turkish chibouk in silence。
  〃This is an extremely nice writing…table you have got for my
  room;〃 I remarked。
  〃It is really your property;〃 he said; keeping his eyes on me;
  with an interested and wistful expression as he had done ever
  since I had entered the house。  〃Forty years ago your mother used
  to write at this very table。 In our house in Oratow it stood in
  the little sitting…room which; by a tacit arrangement; was given
  up to the girlsI mean to your mother and her sister who died so
  young。  It was a present to them jointly from our uncle Nicholas
  B。 when your mother was seventeen and your aunt two years
  younger。  She was a very dear; delightful girl; that aunt of
  yours; of whom I suppose you know nothing more than the name。
  She did not shine so much by personal beauty and a cultivated
  mind; in which your mother was far superior。  It was her good
  sense; the admirable sweetness of her nature; her exceptional
  facility and ease in daily relations that endeared her to
  everybody。  Her death was a terrible grief and a serious moral
  loss for us all。  Had she lived she would have brought the
  greatest blessings to the house it would have been her lot to
  enter; as wife; mother and mistress of a household。  She would
  have created round herself an atmosphere of peace and content
  which only those who can love unselfishly are able to evoke。
  Your motherof far greater beauty; exceptionally distinguished
  in person; manner and intellecthad a less easy disposition。
  Being more brilliantly gifted she also expected more from life。
  At that trying time especially; we were greatly concerned about
  her state。  Suffering in her health from the shock of her
  father's death (she was alone in the house with him when he died
  suddenly); she was torn by the inward struggle between her love
  for the man whom she was to marry in the end and her knowledge of
  her dead father's declared objection to that match。  Unable to
  bring herself to disregard that cherished memory and that
  judgment she had always respected and trusted; and; on the other
  hand; feeling the impossibility to resist a sentiment so deep and
  so true; she could not have been expected to preserve her mental
  and moral balance。  At war with herself; she could not give to
  others that feeling of peace which was not her own。  It was only
  later; when united at last with the man of her choice that she
  developed those uncommon gifts of mind and heart which compelled
  the respect and admiration even of our foes。  Meeting with calm
  fortitude the cruel trials of a life reflecting all the national
  and social misfortunes of the community; she realised the highest
  conceptions of duty as a wife; a mother and a patriot; sharing
  the exile of her husband and representing nobly the ideal of
  Polish womanhood。  Our Uncle Nicholas was not a man very
  accessible to feelings of affection。  Apart from his worship for
  Napoleon the Great; he loved really; I believe; only three people
  in the world:  his motheryour great…grandmother; whom you have
  seen but cannot possibly remember; his brother; our father; in
  whose house he lived for so many years; and of all of us; his
  nephews and nieces grown up round him; your mother alone。  The
  modest; lovable qualities of the youngest sister he did not seem
  able to see。  It was I who felt most profoundly this unexpected
  stroke of death falling upon the family less than a year after I
  had become its head。  It was terribly unexpected。  Driving home
  one wintry afternoon to keep me company in our empty house; where
  I had to remain permanently administering the estate and
  attending to the complicated affairs(the girls took it in turn
  week and week about)driving; as I said; from the house of the
  Countess Tekla Potochka; where our invalid mother was staying
  then to be near a doctor; they lost the road and got stuck in a
  snowdrift。  She was alone with the coachman and old Valery; the
  personal servant of our late father。  Impatient of delay while
  they were trying to dig themselves out; she jumped out of the
  sledge and went