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作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:8296
  days after; when Flora was making arrangements for going to church; a
  moment of confidence came over her; and she said; 〃I did it; Ethel!
  I have spoken to Richard。〃
  〃I am so glad!〃
  〃You were right。  He is as clear as he is kind;〃 said Flora; 〃he
  showed me that; for George's sake; I must bear with my present life;
  and do the best I can with it; unless some leading comes for an
  escape; and that the glare; and weariness; and being spoken well of;
  must be taken as punishment for having sought after these things。〃
  〃I was afraid he would say so;〃 said Ethel。  〃But you will find
  happiness again; Flora dear。〃
  〃Scarcelybefore I come to Margaret and to my child;〃 sighed Flora。
  〃I suppose it was Mercy that would not let me follow when I wished
  it。  I must work till the time of rest comes!〃
  〃And your own little Margaret will cheer you!〃 said Ethel; more
  hopefully; as she saw Flora bend over her baby with a face that might
  one day be bright。
  She trusted that patient continuance in well…doing would one day win
  peace and joy; even in the dreary world that poor Flora had chosen。
  For her own part; Ethel found Flora's practical good sense and
  sympathy very useful; in her present need of the counsel she had
  always had from Margaret。
  The visit to Flora lasted a fortnight; and Ethel was much benefited
  by the leisure for reading and the repose after the long nursing;
  though; before the end; her refreshed energies began to pine for
  Daisy and her hymns; for Aubrey and his Virgil; for Cherry and her
  scholars; and; above all; for her father; for; come as often as he
  would; it was not papa at home。
  On the other hand; Mary was at a loss for Ethel every hour; Richard
  was putting off his affairs till Ethel should come home; Miss Bracy
  and Blanche longed for her to relieve the schoolroom from the
  children; Aubrey could not perform a lesson in comfort with any one
  elsenever ended a sum without groaning for Ethel; and sometimes
  rode to Abbotstoke for the mere purpose of appealing to her; in
  short; no one could get on without her; and the doctor least of all。
  Dr。 Spencer; and Mr。 Wilmot; and all his sons and daughters; had done
  their best for him; but; in spite of his satisfaction at seeing the
  two sisters so happy together; he could not help missing Ethel every
  minute; as the very light of his home; and when; at last; Flora
  brought her back; she was received with uproarious joy by Aubrey and
  Daisy; while the rest of the household felt a revival and refreshment
  of spiritsthe first drawing aside of the cloud that had hung over
  the winter。  The pearl of their home might be missed every hour; but
  they could thankfully rest in the trust that she was a jewel stored
  up in safety and peace; to shine as a star for evermore。
  A few weeks more; and there were other partings; sad indeed; yet
  cheery。  Dr。 May told Mrs。 Arnott that; though he grieved that so
  much of sorrow had come to dim her visit; he could not but own that
  it was the very time when her coming could be most comforting; and
  this; as she truly said; was satisfaction enough for her; besides
  that she could not rejoice enough that her arrival had been in time
  to see their dear Margaret。  She should carry away most precious
  recollections; and she further told Dr。 Spencer that she was far more
  comfortable about her brother…in…law; than if she had only known him
  in his youthful character; which had seemed so little calculated to
  bear sorrow or care。  She looked at him now only to wonder at; and
  reverence the change that had been gradually wrought by the
  affections placed above。
  Norman and his wife went with herthe one grave but hopeful; the
  other trying to wile away the pain of parting; by her tearful mirth
  making all sorts of odd promises and touching requests; between jest
  and earnest; and clinging to the last to her dear father…in…law; as
  if the separation from him were the hardest of all。
  〃Well; humming…birds must be let fly!〃 said he at last。  〃Ah! ha!
  Meta; are they of no use?〃
  〃Stay till you hear!〃 said Meta archlythen turning back once more。
  〃Oh! how I have thanked you; Ethel; for those first hints you gave me
  how to make my life real。  If I had only sat still and wished;
  instead of trying what could be done as I was; how unhappy I should
  have been!〃
  〃Come; take your sprite away; Norman; if you don't want me to keep
  her for good!  God bless you; my dear children!  Good…bye!  Who knows
  but when Doctor Tom sets up in my place; Ethel and I may come out and
  pay you a visit?〃
  It had all been over for some weeks; and the home…party had settled
  down again into what was likely to be their usual course; excepting
  in the holidays; to which the doctor looked forward with redoubled
  interest; as Tom was fast becoming a very agreeable and sensible
  companion; for his moodiness had been charmed away by Meta; and
  principle was teaching him true command of temper。  He seemed to take
  his father as a special charge; bequeathed to him by Norman; and had
  already acquired that value and importance at home which comes of the
  laying aside of all self…importance。
  It was a clear evening in March; full of promise of spring; and Ethel
  was standing in the church porch at Cocksmoor; after making some
  visits in the parish; waiting for Richard; while the bell was ringing
  for the Wednesday evening service; and the pearly tints of a
  cloudless sunset were fading into the western sky。
  Ethel began to wonder where Norman might be looking at the sun
  dipping into the western sea; and thence arose before her the visions
  of her girlhood; when she had first dreamt of a church on Cocksmoor;
  and of Richard ministering before a willing congregation。  So strange
  did the accomplishment seem; that she even touched the stone to
  assure herself of the reality; and therewith came intense
  thanksgiving that the work had been taken out of her hands; to be the
  more fully blessed and accomplishedthat is; as far as the building
  went; as to the people; there was far more labour in store; and the
  same Hand must be looked to for the increase。
  For herself; Ethel looked back and looked on。  Norman Ogilvie's
  marriage seemed to her to have fixed her lot in life; and what was
  that lot?  Home and Cocksmoor had been her choice; and they were
  before her。  Home! but her eyes had been opened to see that earthly
  homes may not endure; nor fill the heart。  Her dear father might;
  indeed; claim her full…hearted devotion; but; to him; she was only
  one of many。  Norman was no longer solely hers; and she had begun to
  understand that the unmarried woman must not seek undivided return of
  affection; and must not set her love; with exclusive eagerness; on
  aught below; but must be ready to cease in turn to be first with any。
  Ethel was truly a mother to the younger ones; but she faced the
  probability that they would find others to whom she would have the
  second place。  To love each heartily; to do her utmost for each in
  turn; and to be grateful for their fondness; was her call; but never
  to count on their affection as her sole right and inalienable
  possession。  She felt that this was the probable course; and that she
  might look to becoming comparatively solitary in the course of years…
  …then tried to realise what her lonely life might be; but broke off
  smiling at herself; 〃What is that to me?  What will it be when it is
  over?  My course and aim are straight on; and He will direct my
  paths。  I don't know that I shall be alone; and I shall have the
  memorythe communion with them; if not their presence。  Some one
  there must be to be loved and helped; and the poor for certain。  Only
  I must have my treasure above; and when I think what is there; and
  of Oh! that bliss of being perfectly able to praisewith no bad
  old self to mar the full joy of giving thanks; and blessing; and
  honour; and power!  Need I dread a few short years?and they have
  not begun yetperhaps they won't Oh! here is actually papa coming
  home this way! how delightful!  Papa; are you coming to church here?〃
  〃Ay; Ethel。  That weathercock of Spencer's is a magnet; I believe!
  It draws me from all parts of the country to hear Richard in St。
  Andrew's Church。〃
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