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  slight were real; it ought to be borne forgivingly; and not brooded
  over。  Ah! you are laughing; perhaps you have said the same about
  me。〃
  〃You would forgive it now; I think;〃 said Ethel。
  〃I never thought I did not forgive。  I did not see that brooding over
  vexations was not pardoning them。  I have told her so now; and; oh!
  if she could but have seen how true sorrows are borne here; she would
  be cured; like me; of making imaginary ones。〃
  〃None could help being better for living with papa;〃 said Ethel。
  Ethel made Miss Bracy happy by a kiss before she left her。  It was a
  cheering belief that; whatever the future trials of her life might
  be; the gentle little lady would meet them with a healthier mind;
  more vigorous in overlooking troubles and without punctilious
  sensitiveness on the lookout for affronts。  〃Believing all things;
  bearing all things; hoping all things; enduring all things;〃 would be
  to her the true secret of serenity of spirits。
  Ethel might not have been blameless or consistent in her dealings in
  this difficult intercourse; but her kind heart; upright intention;
  and force of character; had influence far beyond her own perception。
  Indeed; she knew not that she had personal influence at all; but went
  on in her own straightforward humility。
  CHAPTER XXIV。
  〃Enough of foresight sad; too much
  Of retrospect have I;
  And well for me; that I; sometimes;
  Can put those feelings by。
  There speaks the man we knew of yore;
  Well pleased; I hear them say;
  Such was he; in his lighter moods;
  Before our heads were gray。
  Buoyant he was in spirit; quick
  Of fancy; light of heart;
  And care; and time; and change have left
  Untouch'd his better part。〃SOUTHEY。
  Etheldred May and Meta Rivers were together in the drawing…room。  The
  timepiece pointed towards ten o'clock; but the tea…things were on the
  table; prepared for a meal; the lamp shone with a sort of
  consciousness; and Ethel moved restlessly about; sometimes settling
  her tea equipage; sometimes putting away a stray book; or resorting
  by turns to her book; or to work a red and gold scroll on coarse
  canvas; on the other end of which Meta was employed。
  〃Nervous; Ethel?〃 said Meta; looking up with a merry provoking smile;
  knowing how much the word would displease。
  〃That is for you;〃 retorted Ethel; preferring to carry the war into
  the enemy's quarters。  〃What; don't you know that prudent people say
  that your fate depends on her report?〃
  〃At least;〃 said Meta; laughing; 〃she is a living instance that every
  one is not eaten up; and we shall see if she fulfils Tom's prediction
  of being tattooed; or of having a slice out of the fattest part of
  her cheek。〃
  〃I know very well;〃 said Ethel; 〃the worst she said it would be; the
  more you would go。〃
  〃Not quite that;〃 said Meta; blushing; and looking down。
  〃Come; don't be deceitful!〃 said Ethel。  〃You know very well that you
  are still more bent on it than you were last year。〃
  〃To be sure I am!〃 said Meta; looking up with a sudden beamy flash of
  her dark eyes。  〃Norman and I know each other so much better now;〃
  she added; rather falteringly。
  〃Ay!  I know you are ready to go through thick and thin; and that is
  why I give my consent and approbation。  You are not to be stopped for
  nonsense。〃
  〃Not for nonsense; certainly;〃 said Meta; 〃but〃and her voice became
  tremulous〃if Dr。 May deliberately said it would be wrong; and that
  I should be an encumbrance and perplexity; I am making up my mind to
  the chance。〃
  〃But what would you do?〃 asked Ethel。
  〃I don't know。  You should not ask such questions; Ethel。〃
  〃Well! it won't happen; so it is no use to talk about it;〃 said
  Ethel。  〃Fancy my having made you cry。〃
  〃Very silly of me;〃 said Meta; brightening and laughing; but sighing。
  〃I am only afraid Mrs。 Arnott may think me individually unfit for the
  kind of life; as if I could not do what other women can。  Do I look
  so?〃
  〃You look as if you were meant to be put under a glass case!〃 said
  Ethel; surveying the little elegant figure; whose great
  characteristic was a look of exquisite finish; not only in the
  features and colouring; the turn of the head; and the shape of the
  small rosy…tipped fingers; but in everything she wore; from the
  braids of black silk hair; to the little shoe on her foot; and even
  in the very lightness and gaiety of her movements。
  〃Oh; Ethel!〃 cried Meta; springing up in dismay; and looking at
  herself in the glass。  〃What is the matter with me?  Do tell me!〃
  〃You'll never get rid of it;〃 said Ethel; 〃unless you get yourself
  tattooed!  Even separation from Bellairs hasn't answered。  And; after
  all; I don't think it would be any satisfaction to Norman or papa。  I
  assure you; Meta; whatever you may think of it; it is not so much
  bother to be prettier than needful; as it is to be uglier than
  needful。〃
  〃What is needful?〃 said Meta; much amused。
  〃I suppose to be like Mary; so that nobody should take notice of one;
  but that one's own people may have the satisfaction of saying; 'she
  is pleasing;' or 'she is in good looks。'  I think Gertrude will come
  to that。  That's one comfort。〃
  〃That is your own case; Ethel。  I have heard those very things said
  of you。〃
  〃Of my hatchet face!〃 said Ethel contemptuously。  〃Some one must have
  been desperately bent on flattering the Member's family。〃
  〃I could repeat more;〃 said Meta; 〃if I were to go back to the
  Commemoration; and to the day you went home。〃
  Ethel crimsoned; and made a sign with her hand; exclaiming; 〃Hark!〃
  〃It went past。〃
  〃It was the omnibus。  She must be walking down!〃 Ethel breathed
  short; and wandered aimlessly about; Meta put her arm round her
  waist。
  〃I did not think this would be so much to you;〃 she said。
  〃Oh; Meta; it seems like dear mamma coming to see how we have been
  going on。  And then papa!  I wish I had gone up to the station with
  him。〃
  〃He has Richard。〃
  〃Ay; but I am afraid Margaret is listening and will be restless; and
  have a palpitation; and I can't go and see; or I shall disturb her。
  Oh; I wish it were over。〃
  Meta stroked her; and soothed her; and assured her that all would do
  well; and presently they heard the click of the door。  Ethel flew
  into the hall; where she stopped short; her heart beating high at the
  sound of overpoweringly familiar accents。
  She was almost relieved by detecting otherwise little resemblance;
  the height was nearly the same; but there was not the plump softness
  of outline。  Mrs。 Arnott was small; thin; brisk and active; with a
  vivacious countenance; once evidently very fair and pretty; but aged
  and worn by toil; not trouble; for the furrows were the traces of
  smiles around her merry mouth; and beautiful blue eyes; that had a
  tendency lo laugh and cry both at once。  Dr。 May who had led her into
  the light; seemed to be looking her all over; while Richard was
  taking the wraps from her; and Ethel tried to encourage herself to go
  forward。
  〃Ay!〃 said the doctor; kissing her。  〃I see you; Flora; now。  I have
  found you again。〃
  〃I found you as soon as I heard your voice; Richard;〃 said she。  〃And
  now for the bairnies。〃
  〃Here is one; but there is but a poor show forthcoming to…night。  Do
  you know her?〃
  There was an unspeakable joy in being pressed in Aunt Flora's arms;
  like a returning beam from the sunshine of seven years ago。
  〃This must be Ethel!  My dear; how you tower above meyou that I
  left in arms!  And;〃 as she advanced into the drawing…room〃why;
  surely this is not Margaret!〃
  〃A Margaretnot the Margaret。  I wish I were;〃 said Meta; as Mrs。
  Arnott stood with an arm on her shoulder; in the midst of an embrace;
  Dr。 May enjoying her perplexity and Meta's blushes。  〃See; Flora;
  these black locks never belonged to Calton Hill daisies; yet a daisy
  of my own she is。  Can't you guess?〃
  〃Miss Rivers!〃 exclaimed Mrs。 Arnott; and though she kissed her
  cordially; Meta suspected a little doubt and disappointment。
  〃Yes;〃 said Dr。 May。  〃We change Mary for this little woman as
  Flora's lady…in…waiting; when she and her husband go out yachting and
  shooling。〃
  〃Flora and her husband!  There's a marvellous sound!  Where are
  they?〃
  〃They are staying at Eccleswood Castle;〃 said Ethel; 〃and Mary with
  them。  They would have been at home to receive you; but your note
  yesterday took us all by surprise。  Norman is away too; at a college
  meeting。〃
  〃And Margaretmy Margaret!  Does not she come downstairs?〃
  〃Ah! poor dear;〃 said Dr。 May; 〃she has not been in this room since
  that sultry day in July。〃
  〃The eighteenth;〃 said Richard; the precision of the date marking but
  too well the consciousness that it was an epoch。
  〃We can keep her quieter upstairs;〃 said Dr。 May; 〃but you must not
  see her to…night。  She will enjoy you very much to…morrow; but
  excitement at night always does her harm; so we put her to bed; and
  told her to think about no one。〃
  Mrs。 Arnott looked at him as if longing; but dreading; to ask
  further; and allowed her nephew and niece to seat her at the table;
  and attend to her wants; before she spoke again。  〃Then the babies。〃
  〃We don't keep babies; Gertrude would tell you;〃 said Dr。 May。
  〃There are three great cre