第 167 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:9322
  dress; and you must be a good child; and come down to me。〃
  The playfulness ill suited the wan; worn face that seemed to have
  caught a gray tint from her rich poplin; her full toilet making the
  contrast almost more painful; and; as she closed the door; her
  brother could only exclaim; 〃Poor Flora!〃
  〃She is so kind;〃 said the voice of the white figure that moved
  towards him。  〃Oh; if we could comfort her!〃
  〃I trust to her own kindness working comfort to her; at last;〃 said
  Norman。  〃But is she often thus?〃
  〃Whenever she is not bearing up for George's sake;〃 said Meta。  〃She
  never says anything when she is alone with me; only she does not
  struggle with her looks。〃
  〃It must be very trying for you。〃
  〃Nay; I feel grateful to her for even so far relaxing the restraint。
  If I could but do her any good。〃
  〃You cannot help doing her good;〃 said Norman。
  Meta sighed; and shook her head slightly; as she said; 〃She is so
  gentle and considerate。  I think this has been no fresh pain to her
  to…day; but I cannot tell。  The whole day has been a strange
  intermixture。〃
  〃The two strands of joy and grief have been very closely twisted;〃
  said Norman。  〃That rose is shedding its fragrant leaves in its
  glory; and there is much that should have chastened the overflowing
  gladness of to…day。〃
  〃As I was thinking;〃 whispered Meta; venturing nearer to him; and
  looking into his face with the sweet reliance of union in thought。
  She meant him to proceed; but he paused; saying; 〃You were thinking…〃
  〃I had rather hear it from you。〃
  〃Was it not that we were taught to…day what is enduring; and gives
  true permanence and blessedness to suchto what there was between
  Ernescliffe and Margaret?〃
  Her dewy eyes; and face of deep emotion; owned that he had
  interpreted her thought。
  〃Theirs would; indeed; be a disheartening example;〃 he said; 〃if it
  did not show the strength and peace that distance; sickness; death;
  cannot destroy。〃
  〃Yes。  To see that church making Margaret happy as she lies smiling
  on her couch; is a lesson of lessons。〃
  〃That what is hallowed must be blest;〃 said Norman; 〃whatever the
  sundry and manifold changes。〃
  Each was far too humble to deny aloud any inequality with the
  goodness of Alan and Margaret; knowing that it would be at once
  disputed; trusting to time to prevent the over…estimate; and each
  believing the other was the one to bring the blessing。
  〃But; Meta;〃 said Norman; 〃have you heard nothing ofof the elders?〃
  〃Oh; yes;〃 said Meta; smiling; 〃have not you?〃
  〃I have seen no one。〃
  〃I have!〃 said Meta merrily。  〃Uncle Cosham is delighted。  That
  speech of yours has captivated him。  He calls me a wise little woman
  to have found out your first…rate abilities。  There's for you; sir。〃
  〃I don't understand it!  Surely he must be aware of my intentions?〃
  〃He said nothing about them; but; of course; Dr。 May must have
  mentioned them。〃
  〃I should have thought so; but I cannot suppose〃
  〃That he would be willing to let me go;〃 said Meta。  〃But then you
  know he cannot help it;〃 added she; with a roguish look; at finding
  herself making one of her saucy independent speeches。
  〃I believe you are taking a would…be missionary instead of Norman
  May!〃 he answered; with a sort of teasing sweetness。
  〃All would…be missionaries did not make dear papa so fond of them;〃
  said Meta; very low; 〃and you would not be Norman May without such
  purposes。〃
  〃The purpose was not inspired at first by the highest motive;〃 said
  Norman; 〃but it brought me peace; and; after the kind of dedication
  that I inwardly made of myself in my time of trouble; it would take
  some weighty reason; amounting to a clear duty; or physical
  impossibility; to make me think I ought to turn back。  I believe〃
  the tears rose to his eyes; and he brought out the words with
  difficulty〃that; if this greatest of all joys were likely to hinder
  me from my calling; I ought to seek strength to regard it as a
  temptation; and to forgo it。〃
  〃You ought; if it were so;〃 said Meta; nevertheless holding him
  tighter。  〃I could not bear to keep back a soldier。  If this were
  last year; and I had any tie or duty here; it would be very hard。
  But no one needs me; and if the health I have always had be continued
  to me; I don't think I shall be much in the way。  There;〃drawing
  back a little; and trying to laugh off her feeling〃only tell me at
  once if you think me still too much of a fine lady。〃
  〃Iyoua fine lady!  Did anything ever give you the impression that
  I did?〃
  〃I shall not get poor Harry into a scrape; shall I?  He told me that
  you said so; last spring; and I feared you judged me too truly。〃
  After a few exclamations of utter surprise; it flashed on Norman。  〃I
  know; I knowHarry interpreted my words in his own blunt fashion!〃
  〃Then you did say something like it?〃
  〃No; butbut In short; Meta; these sailors' imaginations go to
  great lengths。 Harry had guessed more than I knew myself; before he
  had sailed; and taxed me with it。  It was a subject I could not bear
  then; and I answered that you were too far beyond my hopes。〃
  〃Six years ago!〃 said Meta slowly; blushing deeper and deeper。  〃Some
  eyes saw it all that time; and youand;〃 she added; laughing; though
  rather tearfully; 〃I should never have known it; if Tom had not taken
  me through the plantations!〃
  〃Not if I had not discovered that your preferences did not lie〃
  〃Among boudoirs and balls?〃 said Meta。  〃Harry was right。  You
  thought me a fine lady after all。〃
  The gay taunt was cut short by a tap at the door; and Flora looked
  in。
  〃Dr。 Spencer has brought your things; Norman。  I am sorry to disturb
  youbut come down; MetaI ran away very uncivilly to fetch you。  I
  hope it is not too cruel;〃 as she drew Meta's arm into her own; and
  added; 〃I have not been able speak to George。〃
  Meta suspected that; in the wish to spare her; Flora had abstained
  from seeking him。
  The evening went off like any other eveningpeople ate and talked;
  thought Mrs。 Rivers looking very ill; and Miss Rivers very pretty
  Flora forced herself into being very friendly to Sir Henry;
  commiserating the disappointment to which she had led him; and she
  hoped that he suspected the state of affairs; though Tom; no longer
  supplanted by his elder brother; pursued Meta into the sheltered
  nook; where Flora had favoured her seclusion; to apologise for having
  left her to the guidance of poor Norman; whose head was with the
  blackamoors。  It was all Harry's fault。
  〃Nonsense; Tom;〃 said Harry; 〃don't you think Norman is better
  company than you any day?〃
  〃Then why did you not walk him off instead of me?〃 said Tom; turning
  round sharply。
  〃Out of consideration for Meta。  She will tell you that she was very
  much obliged to me〃
  Harry checked himself; for Meta was colouring so painfully that his
  own sunburned face caught the glow。  He pushed Tom's slight figure
  aside with a commanding move of his broad hand; and said; 〃I beg your
  pardon; upon my word; though I don't know what for。〃
  〃Nor I;〃 said Meta; rallying herself; and smiling。  〃You have no
  pardon to beg。  You will know it all to…morrow。〃
  〃Then I know it now;〃 said Harry; sheltering his face by leaning over
  the back of a chair; and taming the hearty gaiety of his voice。
  〃Well done; Meta; there's nothing like old June in all the world!
  You may take my word for it; and I knew you would have the sense to
  find it out。〃
  They were well out of sight; and Meta only answered by a good tight
  squeeze of his kind hand between both her own。  Tom; suddenly
  recovering from his displeasure at being thrust aside; whisked round;
  dropped on a footstool before Meta; locked up in her face; and said;
  〃Hallo!〃 in such utter amazement that there was nothing for it but to
  laugh more uncontrollably than was convenient。  〃Come along; Tom;〃
  said Harry; pulling him up by force; 〃she does not want any of your
  nonsense。  We will not plague her now。〃
  〃Thank you; Harry;〃 said Meta。  〃I cannot talk rationally just yet。
  Don't think me unkind; Tom。〃
  Tom sat in a sort of trance all the rest of the evening。
  Lord Cosham talked to Norman; who felt as if he were being patronised
  on false pretences; drew into his shell; and displayed none of his
  〃first…rate abilities。〃
  Dr。 Spencer discussed his architecture with the archdeacon; but his
  black eyes roamed heedfully after the young gentleman and lady; in
  the opposite corners of the room; and; as he drove home afterwards
  with the youths; he hummed scraps of Scottish songs; and indulged in
  silent smiles。
  Those at home had been far more demonstrative。  Dr。 May had arrived;
  declaring himself the proudest doctor in her Majesty's dominions; and
  Ethel needed nothing but his face to explain why; and tell her that
  dear old June's troubles were over; and their pretty little Meta was
  their owna joy little looked for to attend their foundation…stone。
  The dreaded conference with Lord Cosham had proved highly gratifying。
  There might be something in the fact that he could not help it; which
  assisted in his ready acquiescence; but he was also a sensible right…
  minded man; who thought that the largeness of Meta's fortune was no
  reason that it should be d