第 156 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:9322
  undertook to tell the whole truth; and he perceived that it was;
  indeed; the truth。  She had not known that the cordial was injurious;
  deeming it a panacea against fretfulness; precious to nurses; but
  against which ladies always had a prejudice; and; therefore; to be
  kept secret。  Poor little Leonora had been very fretful and uneasy
  when Flora's many avocations had first caused her to be set aside;
  and Preston had had recourse to the remedy which; lulling her
  successfully; was applied with less moderation and judgment than
  would have been shown by a more experienced person; till gradually
  the poor child became dependent on it for every hour of rest。  When
  her mother; at last; became aware of her unsatisfactory condition;
  and spent her time in watching her; the nurse being prevented from
  continuing her drug; she was; of course; so miserable without it;
  that Preston had ventured on proposing it; to which Mrs。 Rivers had
  replied with displeasure sufficient to prevent her from declaring how
  much she had previously given。  Preston was in an agony of distress
  for her little charge; as well as of fear for herself; and could
  hardly understand what her error had been。  Dr。 May soon saw that;
  though not highly principled; her sorrow was sincere; and that she
  still wept bitterly over the consequences of her treatment; when he
  told her that she had nothing to fear from the law; and that he would
  protect her from Mr。 Rivers。
  Her confession was hardly over when Meta knocked at the door; pale
  and frightened。  〃Oh; Dr。 May; do come to poor Flora!  I don't know
  what to do; and George is in such a state!〃
  Dr。 May made a sound of sorrow and perplexity; and Meta; as she went
  down before him; asked; in a low; horror…stricken whisper; 〃Did
  Preston really〃
  〃Not knowingly;〃 said Dr。 May。  〃It is the way many children have
  gone; but I never thought〃
  They had come to Flora's dressing…room。  Her bedroom door was open;
  and George was pacing heavily up and down the length of both
  apartments; fiercely indignant。  〃Well!〃 said he; advancing eagerly
  on Dr。 May; 〃has she confessed?〃
  〃But Flora!〃 said Dr。 May; instead of answering him。  Flora lay on
  her bed; her face hidden on her pillow; only now and then moaning。
  〃Flora; my poor; poor child!〃 said her father; bending down to raise
  her; and taking her hand。
  She moved away; so as to bury her face more completely; but there was
  life in the movement; and he was sufficiently reassured on her
  situation to be able to attend to George; who was only impatient to
  rush off to take his revenge。  He led him into the outer room; where
  Meta was waiting; and forced upon his unwilling conviction that it
  was no case for the law。  The child had not been killed by any one
  dose; but had rather sunk from the want of stimulus; to which she had
  been accustomed。  As to any pity for the woman; George would not hear
  of it。  She was still; in his eyes; the destroyer of bis child; and;
  when he found the law would afford him no vengeance; he insisted that
  she should be turned out of his house at once。
  〃George!〃 called a hollow voice from the next room; and hurrying
  back; they saw Flora sitting up; and; as well as trembling limbs
  allowed; endeavouring to rise to her feet; while burning spots were
  in her cheeks。
  〃George; turn me out of the house too!  If Preston killed her; I
  did!〃 and she gave a ghastly laugh。
  George threw his arms round her; and laid her on her bed again; with
  many fond words; and strength which she had not power to withstand。
  Dr。 May; in the meantime; spoke quickly to Meta in the doorway。  〃She
  must go。  They cannot see her again; but has she any friends in
  London?〃
  〃I think not。〃
  〃Find out。  She must not be sent adrift。   Send her to the Grange; if
  nothing better offers。  You must judge。〃
  He felt that he could confide in Meta's discretion and promptitude;
  and returned to the parents。
  〃Is she gone?〃 said George; in a whisper; which he meant should be
  unheard by his wife; who had sunk her face in her pillows again。
  〃Going。  Meta is seeing to it。〃
  〃And that woman gets off free!〃 cried George; 〃while my poor little
  girl〃 and; no longer occupied by the hope of retribution; he gave
  way to an overpowering burst of grief。
  His wife did not rouse herself to comfort him; but still lay
  motionless; excepting for a convulsive movement that passed over her
  frame at each sound from him; and her father felt her pulse bound at
  the same time with corresponding violence; as if each of his deep…
  drawn sobs were a mortal thrust。  Going to him; Dr。 May endeavoured
  to repress his agitation; and lead him from the room; but he could
  not; at first; prevail on him to listen or understand; still less; to
  quit Flora。  The attempt to force on him the perception that his
  uncontrolled sorrow was injuring her; and that he ought to bear up
  for her sake; only did further harm; for; when he rose up and tried
  to caress her; there was the same torpid; passive resistance; the
  same burying her face from the light; and the only betrayal of
  consciousness in the agonised throbs of her pulse。
  He became excessively distressed at being thus repelled; and; at
  last; yielded to the impatient signals of Dr。 May; who drew him into
  the next room; and; with brief; strong; though most affectionate and
  pitying words; enforced on him that Flora's brainnay; her life; was
  risked; and that he must leave her alone to his care for the present。
  Meta coming back at the same moment; Dr。 May put him in her charge;
  with renewed orders to impress on him how much depended on
  tranquillity。
  Dr。 May went back; with his soft; undisturbing; physician's footfall;
  and stood at the side of the bed; in such intense anxiety as those
  only can endure who know how to pray; and to pray in resignation and
  faith。
  All was still in the darkening twilight; but the distant roar of the
  world surged without; and a gaslight shone flickering through the
  branches of the trees; and fell on the rich dress spread on the
  couch; and the ornaments on the toilet…table。  There was a sense of
  oppression; and of being pursued by the incongruous world; and Dr。
  May sighed to silence all around; and see his poor daughter in the
  calm of her own country air; but she had chosen for herself; and here
  she lay; stricken down in the midst of the prosperity that she had
  sought。
  He could hear every respiration; tightened and almost sobbing; and he
  was hesitating whether to run the risk of addressing her; when; as if
  it had occurred to her suddenly that she was alone and deserted; she
  raised up her head with a startled movement; but; as she saw him; she
  again hid her face; as if his presence were still more intolerable
  than solitude。
  〃Flora! my own; my dearestmy poor child! you should not turn from
  me。  Do I not carry with me the like self…reproachful conviction?〃
  Flora let him turn her face towards him and kiss her forehead。  It
  was burning; and he brought water and bathed it; now and then
  speaking a few fond; low; gentle words; which; though she did not
  respond; evidently had some soothing effect; for she admitted his
  services; still; however; keeping her eyes closed; and her face
  turned towards the darkest side of the room。  When he went towards
  the door; she murmured; 〃Papa!〃 as if to detain him。
  〃I am not going; darling。  I only wanted to speak to George。〃
  〃Don't let him come!〃 said Flora。
  〃Not till you wish it; my dear。〃
  George's step was heard; his hand was on the lock; and again Dr。 May
  was conscious of the sudden rush of blood through all her veins。  He
  quickly went forward; met him; and shut him out; persuading him; with
  difficulty; to remain outside; and giving him the occupation of
  sending out for an anodynesince the best hope; at present; lay in
  encouraging the torpor that had benumbed her crushed faculties。
  Her father would not even venture to rouse her to be undressed; he
  gave her the medicine; and let her lie still; with as little movement
  as possible; standing by till her regular breathings showed that she
  had sunk into a sleep; when he went into the other room and found
  that George had also forgotten his sorrows in slumber on the sofa;
  while Meta sat sadly presiding over the tea equipage。
  She came up to meet him; her question expressed in her looks。
  〃Asleep;〃 he said; 〃I hope the pulses are quieter。  All depends on
  her wakening。〃
  〃Poor; poor Flora!〃 said Meta; wiping away her tears。
  〃What have you done with the woman?〃
  〃I sent her to Mrs。 Larpent's。  I knew she would receive her and keep
  her till she could write to her friends。  Bellairs took her; but I
  could hardly speak to her〃
  〃She did it ignorantly;〃 said Dr。 May。
  〃I could never be so merciful and forbearing as you;〃 said Meta。
  〃Ah! my dear; you will never have the same cause!〃
  They could say no more; for George awoke; and the argument of his
  exclusion had to be gone through again。  He could not enter into it
  by any means; and when Dr。 May would have made him understand that
  poor Flora could not acquit herself of neglect; and that even his
  affection was too painful for her in the present state; he broke into
  a vehement angry defence of her devotion to h