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  compassionate; when he heard of the doubts that had assailed poor
  Norman。  〃Foolish boy; what business had he to meddle with those
  accursed books; when he knew what they were made ofit was tasting
  poison; it was running into temptation!  He had no right to expect to
  come out safe〃 and then he grasped tightly hold of Ethel's hands;
  and; as if the terror had suddenly flashed on him; asked her; with
  dilated eye and trembling voice; whether she were sure that he was
  safe; and held the faith。
  Ethel repeated his asseveration; and her father covered his face with
  his hands in thanksgiving。
  After this; he seemed somewhat inclined to hold poor Oxford in
  horror; only; as he observed; it would be going out of the frying…pan
  into the fire; to take refuge at Parisa recurrence to the notion of
  Norman's medical studies; that showed him rather enticed by the
  proposal。
  He sent Ethel to bed; saying he should talk to Norman and find out
  what was the meaning of it; and she walked upstairs; much ashamed of
  having so ill served her brother; as almost to have made him
  ridiculous。
  Dr May and Norman never failed to come to an understanding; and after
  they had had a long drive into the country together; Dr May told
  Ethel that he was afraid; of what he ought not to be afraid of; that
  she was right; that the lad was very much in earnest now at any rate;
  and if he should continue in the same mind; he hoped he should not be
  so weak as to hold him from a blessed work。
  From Norman; Ethel heard the warmest gratitude for his father's
  kindness。  Nothing could be done yet; he must wait patiently for the
  present; but he was to write to his uncle; Mr。 Arnott; in New
  Zealand; and; without pledging himself; to make inquiries as to the
  mission; and in the meantime; return to Oxford; where; to his other
  studies; he was to add a course of medical lectures; which; as Dr。
  May said; would do him no harm; would occupy his mind; and might turn
  to use wherever he
  was。
  Ethel was surprised to find that Norman wrote to Flora an expression
  of his resolution; that; if he found he could be spared from
  assisting his father as a physician; he would give himself up to the
  mission in New Zealand。  Why should he tell any one so unsympathetic
  as Flora; who would think him wasted in either case?
  CHAPTER XVII。
  Do not fear: Heaven is as near;
  By water; as by land。LONGFELLOW。
  The fifth of May was poor Harry's eighteenth birthday; and; as usual;
  was a holiday。  Etheldred privately thought his memory more likely to
  be respected; if Blanche and Aubrey were employed; than if they were
  left in idleness; but Mary would have been wretched had the
  celebration been omitted; and a leisure day was never unwelcome。
  Dr。 Spencer carried off Blanche and Aubrey for a walk; and Ethel
  found Mary at her great resortHarry's cupboarddusting and
  arranging his books; and the array of birthday gifts; to which; even
  to…day; she had not failed to add the marker that had been in hand at
  Christmas。  Ethel entreated her to come down; and Mary promised; and
  presently appeared; looking so melancholy; that; as a sedative; Ethel
  set her down to the basket of scraps to find materials for a tippet
  for some one at Cocksmoor; intending; as soon as Margaret should be
  dressed; to resign her morning to the others; invite Miss Bracy to
  the drawing…room; and read aloud。
  Gertrude was waiting for her walk; till nurse should have dressed
  Margaret; and was frisking about the lawn; sometimes looking in at
  the drawing…room window at her sisters; sometimes chattering to Adams
  at his work; or laughing to herself and the flowers; in that overflow
  of mirth; that seemed always bubbling up within her。
  She was standing in rapt contemplation of a pear…tree in full
  blossom; her hands tightly clasped behind the back; for greater
  safety from the temptation; when; hearing the shrubbery gate open;
  she turned; expecting to see her papa; but was frightened at the
  sight of two strangers; and began to run off at full speed。
  〃Stop!  Blanche!  Blanche; don't you know me?〃  The voice was that
  tone of her brother's; and she stood and looked; but it came from a
  tall; ruddy youth; in a shabby rough blue coat; followed by a
  grizzled old seaman。  She was too much terrified and perplexed even
  to run。
  〃What's the matter!  Blanche; it is I!  Why; don't you know me
  Harry?〃
  〃Poor brother Harry is drowned;〃 she answered; and; with one bound;
  he was beside her; and; snatching her up; devoured her with kisses。
  〃Put me downput me down; please;〃 was all she could say。
  〃It is not Blanche!  What? the little Daisy; I do believe!〃
  〃Yes; I am Gertrude; but please let me go;〃 and; at the same time;
  Adams hurried up; as if he thought her being kidnapped; but his
  aspect changed at the glad cry; 〃Ha! Adams' how are you?  Are they
  all well?〃
  〃'Tisn't never Master Harry!  Bless me!〃 as Harry's hand gave him
  sensible proof; 〃when we had given you up for lost!〃
  〃My father well?〃 Harry asked; hurrying the words one over the other。
  〃Quite well; sir; but he never held up his head since he heard it;
  and poor Miss Mary has so moped about。  If ever I thought to see the
  like〃
  〃So they did not get my letter; but I can't stop。  Jennings will tell
  you。  Take care of him。  Come; Daisy〃 for he had kept her unwilling
  hand all the time。  〃But what's that for?〃 pointing to the black
  ribbons; and; stopping short; startled。
  〃Because of poor Harry;〃 said the bewildered child。
  〃Oh; that's right!〃 cried he; striding on; and dragging her in a
  breathless run; as he threw open the well…known doors; and; she
  escaping from him; hid her face in Mary's lap; screaming; 〃He says he
  is Harry! he says he is not drowned!〃
  At the same moment Ethel was in his arms; and his voice was sobbing;
  〃Ethel!  Mary! home!  Where's papa?〃  One moment's almost agonising
  joy in the certainty of his identity! but ere she could look or
  think; he was crying; 〃Mary! oh; Ethel; see〃
  Mary had not moved; but sat as if turned to stone; with breath
  suspended; wide…stretched eyes; and death…like cheeksEthel sprang
  to her; 〃Mary; Mary dear; it is Harry!  It is himself!  Don't you
  see?  Speak to her; Harry。〃
  He seemed almost afraid to do so; but; recovering himself; exclaimed;
  〃Mary; dear old Polly; here I am!  Oh; won't you speak to me?〃 he
  added piteously; as he threw his arm round her and kissed her;
  startled at the cold touch of her cheek。
  The spell seemed broken; and; with a wild hoarse shriek that rang
  through the house; she struggled to regain her breath; but it would
  only come in painful; audible catches; as she held Harry's hand
  convulsively。
  〃What have I done?〃 he exclaimed; in distress。
  〃What's this!  Who is this frightening my dear?〃 was old nurse's
  exclamation; as she and James came at the outcry。
  〃Oh; nurse; what have I done to her?〃 repeated Harry。
  〃It is joyit is sudden joy!〃 said Ethel。  〃See; she is better
  now〃
  〃Master Harry!  Well; I never!〃 and James; 〃with one wring of the
  hand; retreated; while old nurse was nearly hugged to death;
  declaring all the time that he didn't ought to have come in such a
  way; terrifying every one out of their senses! and as for poor Miss
  May
  〃Where is she? 〃 cried Harry; starting at the sight of the vacant
  sofa。
  〃Only upstairs;〃 said Ethel; 〃but where's Alan?  Is not he come?〃
  〃Oh; Ethel; don't you know?〃 His face told but too plainly。
  〃Nurse! nurse; how shall we tell her?〃 said Ethel。
  〃Poor dear!〃 exclaimed nurse; sounding her tongue on the roof of her
  mouth。  〃She'll never abear it without her papa。  Wait for him; I
  should say。  But bless me; Miss Mary; to see you go on like that;
  when Master Harry is come back such a bonny
  man!〃
  〃I'm better now;〃 said Mary; with an effort。  〃Oh; Harry! speak to me
  again。〃
  〃But Margaret!〃 said Ethel; while the brother was holding Mary in his
  embrace; and she lay tremulous with the new ecstasy upon his breast
  〃but Margaret。  Nurse; you must go up; or she will suspect。  I'll
  come when I can; speak quietly。  Oh! poor Margaret!  If Richard would
  but come in!〃
  Ethel walked up and down the room; divided between a tumult of joy;
  grief; dread; and perplexity。  At that moment a little voice said at
  the door; 〃Please; Margaret wants Harry to come up directly。〃
  They looked one upon another in consternation。 They had never thought
  of the child; who; of course; had flown up at once with the tidings。
  〃Go up; Miss Ethel;〃 said nurse。
  〃Oh! nurse; I can't be the first。  Come; Harry; come。〃
  Hand…in…hand; they silently ascended the stairs; and Ethel pushed
  open the door。  Margaret was on her couch; her whole form and face in
  one throb of expectation。
  She looked into Harry's facethe eagerness flitted like sunshine on
  the hillside; before a cloud; and; without a word; she held out her
  arms。
  He threw himself on his knees; and her fingers were clasped among his
  thick curls; while his frame heaved with suppressed sobs; 〃Oh; if he
  could only have come back to you。〃
  〃Thank God;〃 she said; then slightly pushing him back; she lay
  holding his hand in one of hers; and resting the other on his
  shoulder; and gazing in silence into his face。