第 111 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:9322
  〃Not I!〃 cried Ethel; terrified。
  〃Then you must come to me; and secondary motives。  SeriouslyI do
  mean that George should do something for Stoneborough; and; in a
  position of influence; I hope to be able to be useful to my poor old
  town。  Perhaps we shall have the minster restored。〃
  Flora did wish it。  She did love Stoneborough; and was sincerely
  interested for Cocksmoor。  She thought she worked earnestly for them;
  and that her situation would be turned to their profit; but there was
  something for which she worked more earnestly。  Had Flora never heard
  of the two masters whom we cannot serve at the same time?
  Richard came home for 〃a parson's week;〃 so as to include the
  wedding。  He looked very fresh and youthful; but his manner; though
  still gentle and retiring; had lost all that shrinking diffidence;
  and had; now; a very suitable grave composure。  Everybody was
  delighted to have him; and Ethel; more than any one; except Margaret。
  What floods of Cocksmoor histories were poured upon him; and what
  comparing of notes about his present school…children!  He could not
  enter into the refinements of her dread of the Ladies' Committee; and
  thought she might be thankful if the school were built by any proper
  means; for; if Cherry Elwood were retained; and the ladies prevented
  from doing harm; he did not understand why Ethel should wish to
  reject all assistance that did not come in a manner she admired。  He
  never would comprehendso Ethel gave it upfeared she was again
  jealous and self…sufficient; and contented herself with the joy that
  his presence produced at Cocksmoor; where the children smiled;
  blushed; and tittered; with ecstasy; whenever he even looked at one
  of them。
  Richard was not allowed to have a Sunday of rest。  His father
  apologised for having made an engagement for himas Mr。 Ramsden was
  unwell; and the school clergy were all absent; so that he could do no
  otherwise than assist in the service。  Richard coloured; and said
  that he had brought no sermon; and he was; in fact; deprived of much
  of his sister's company; for composition was not easy to him; and the
  quantity of time he spent on it; quite alarmed Norman and Ethel; who
  both felt rather nervous on the Sunday morning; but agreed that
  preaching was not everything。
  Ethel could not see well as far as the reading…desk; but she saw her
  father glance up; take off his spectacles; wipe them; and put them
  away; and she could not be displeased; though she looked reproof at
  Blanche's breathless whisper; 〃Oh; he looks so nice!〃  Those white
  folds did truly suit well with the meek; serious expression of the
  young deacon's fair face; and made him; as his sisters afterwards
  said; like one of the solemnly peaceful angel…carvings of the earlier
  ages。
  His voice was sweet and clear; and his reading full of quiet
  simplicity and devotion; such as was not often heard by that
  congregation; who were too much used either to carelessness or to
  pomposity。  The sermon made his brother and sister ashamed of their
  fears。  It was an exposition of the Gospel for the day; practical and
  earnest; going deep; and rising high; with a clearness and soberness;
  yet with a beauty and elevation; such as Norman and Ethel had
  certainly not expectedor; rather; they forgot all their own
  expectations and Richard himself; and only recollected their own
  hearts and the great future before them。
  Even Blanche and Aubrey told Margaret a great deal about it; and
  declared that; if Richard preached every Sunday; they should like
  going to church much better。
  When Dr。 May came in; some time after; he was looking much pleased。
  〃So; Mr。 Ritchie;〃 he said; 〃you have made quite a sensationevery
  one shaking me by the hand; and thanking me for my son's sermon。  You
  will be a popular preacher at last!〃
  Richard blushed distressfully; and quoted the saying; that it would
  be the true comfort to hear that people went home; thinking of
  themselves rather than of the sermon。  This put an end to the
  subject; but the doctor went over it again; most thoroughly; with his
  other children; who were greatly delighted。
  Flora's last home Sunday!  She was pale and serious; evidently
  feeling much; though seeking no tete…a…tetes; and chiefly engrossed
  with waiting on Margaret; or fondling little Gertrude。  No one saw
  the inside of her mindprobably; she did not herself。  On the
  outside was a very suitable pensiveness; and affection for all that
  she was leaving。  The only one in the family to whom she talked much
  was Norman; who continued to see many perfections in George; and
  contrived; by the force of his belief; to impress the same on the
  others; and to make them think his great talent for silence such a
  proof of his discretion; that they were not staggered; even by his
  shy blundering exclamation that his wedding would be a great
  nuisancea phrase which; as Dr。 May observed; was; to him; what
  Est…il…possible was to his namesake of Denmark。
  Nobody wished for any misgivings; so Richard was never told of any;
  though there was a careful watch kept to see what were his first
  impressions。  None transpired; except something about good nature;
  but it was shrewdly believed that Richard and George; being much
  alike in shy unwillingness to speak; had been highly satisfied with
  the little trouble they had caused to each other; and so had come to
  a tacit esteem。
  There was very little bustle of preparation。  Excepting the packing;
  everything went on much as usual; till the Thursday morning; and then
  the children were up early; refreshing the Christmas hollies; and
  working up their excitement; only to have it damped by the suppressed
  agitation of their elders at the breakfast…table。
  Dr。 May did not seem to know what he was about; and Flora looked
  paler and paler。  She went away before the meal was over; and when
  Ethel went to the bedroom; shortly after; she found that she had
  fairly broken down; and was kneeling beside Margaret's sofa; resting
  her head on her sister's bosom; and sobbingas Ethel had never seen
  her weep; except on that dreadful night; after their mother's death。
  In a person ordinarily of such self…command as Flora; weeping was a
  terrible thing; and Margaret was much distressed and alarmed; but the
  worst had passed before Ethel came up; and Flora was able to speak。
  〃Oh! Margaret!  I cannot leave you!  Oh! how happy we have been〃
  〃You are going to be happier; we trust; dearest;〃 said Margaret
  fondly。
  〃Oh! what have I done?  It is not worth it!〃
  Ethel thought she caught those words; but no more。  Mary's step was
  heard; and Flora was on her feet; instantly; composing herself
  rapidly。  She shed no more tears; but her eyelids were very heavy;
  and her face softened; in a manner that; though she was less pretty
  than usual; was very becoming under her bridal veil。  She recovered
  calmness and even cheerfulness; while reversing the usual order of
  things; and dressing her bride's…maids; who would never have turned
  out fit to be seen; but for the exertions of herself; Margaret; and
  Miss Bracy。  Ethel's long Scotch bones and Mary's round; dumpy
  shapelessness were; in their different ways; equally hard to
  overcome; and the one was swelled out with a fabulous number of
  petticoats; and the other pinched in; till she gasped and screamed
  for mercy; while Blanche and Gertrude danced about; beautiful to
  behold; under their shady hats; and presently; with a light tap at
  the door; Meta Rivers stepped in; looking so pretty; that all felt
  that to try to attain to such an appearance was vain。
  Timid in her affection; she hardly dared to do more than kiss them;
  and whisper her pretty caressing words to each。  There was no more
  timeDr。 Hoxton's carriage was come to take up the bride。
  Ethel did as she was told; without much volition of her own; and she
  quitted the carriage; and was drawn into her place by Norman;
  trusting that Meta would not let her do wrong; and relieved that just
  in front of her were the little ones; over whose heads she could see
  her father; with Flora's veiled bending figure。
  That pause while the procession was getting into order; the slow
  movement up the centre aisle; the week…day atmosphere of the church;
  brought back to her thoughts a very different time; and one of those
  strange echoings on the mind repeated in her ears the words; 〃For man
  walketh in a vain shadow; and disquieteth himself in vain〃
  There was a little pauseGeorge did not seem to be forthcoming; and
  Meta turned round; rather uneasily; and whispered something about his
  having been so nervous。  However; there he was; looking exceedingly
  red; and very sheepish; and disposed to fall back on his best man;
  Norman; whose countenance was at the brightestand almost handsome。
  Dr。 Hoxton performed the ceremony; 〃assisted by〃 Richard。  It had
  been Flora's choice; and his loud sonorous voice was thought very
  impressive。  Blanche stood the nearest; and looked happy and
  important; with Flora's glove。  Gertrude held Mary's hand; and gazed
  straight up into the fretted roof; as if that were to her the chief
  marvel。  Ethel stood and knelt; but did not seem; to herself; to have
  the power of thinking or feeling。  She saw and heardthat was al