第 82 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:9321
  no one but Richard would!〃 sighed Ethel。
  〃I cannot see that you have; dearest;〃 said Margaret fondly; 〃but
  your own heart must tell you that。  And now; only try to be calm and
  patient。  Getting into these fits of despair is the very thing to
  make people decide against you。〃
  〃I will!  I will!  I will try to be patient;〃 sobbed Ethel; 〃I know
  to be wayward and set on it would only hurt。  I might only do more
  harmI'll try。  But oh; my poor children!〃
  Margaret gave a little space for the struggle with herself; then
  advised her resolutely to fix her attention on something else。  It
  was a Saturday morning; and time was more free than usual; so
  Margaret was able to persuade her to continue a half…forgotten
  drawing; while listening to an interesting article in a review; which
  opened to her that there were too many Cocksmoors in the world。
  The dinner…hour sounded too soon; and as she was crossing the hall to
  put away her drawing materials; the front door gave the click
  peculiar to Dr。 May's left…handed way of opening it。  She paused; and
  saw him enter; flushed; and with a look that certified her that
  something had happened。
  〃Well; Ethel; he is come。〃
  〃Oh; papa; Mr。 Ernes〃
  He held up his finger; drew her into the study; and shut the door。
  The expression of mystery and amusement gave way to sadness and
  gravity as he sat down in his arm…chair; and sighed as if much
  fatigued。  She was checked and alarmed; but she could not help
  asking; 〃Is he here?〃
  〃At the Swan。  He came last night; and watched for me this morning as
  I came out of the hospital。  We have been walking over the meadows to
  Fordholm。〃
  No wonder Dr。 May was hot and tired。
  〃But is he not coming?〃 asked Ethel。
  〃Yes; poor fellow; but hush; stop; say nothing to the others。  I must
  not have her agitated till she has had her dinner in peace; and the
  house is quiet。  You know she cannot run away to her room as you
  would。〃
  〃Then he is really come for that?〃 cried Ethel breathlessly; and;
  perceiving the affirmative; added; 〃But why did he wait so long?〃
  〃He wished to see his way through his affairs; and also wanted to
  hear of her from Harry。  I am afraid poor July's colours were too
  bright。〃
  〃And why did he come to the Swan instead of to us?〃
  〃That was his fine; noble feeling。  He thought it right to see me
  first; that if I thought the decision too trying for Margaret; in her
  present state; or if I disapproved of the long engagement; I might
  spare her all knowledge of his coming。〃
  〃Oh; papa; you won't!〃
  〃I don't know but that I ought; but yet; the fact is; that I cannot。
  With that fine young fellow so generously; fondly attached I cannot
  find it in my heart to send him away for four years without seeing
  her; and yet; poor things; it might be better for them both。  Oh;
  Ethel; if your mother were but here!〃
  He rested his forehead on his hands; and Ethel stood aghast at his
  unexpected reception of the addresses for which she had so long
  hoped。  She did not venture to speak; and presently he roused himself
  as the dinner…bell rang。  〃One comfort is;〃 he said; 〃that Margaret
  has more composure than I。  Do you go to Cocksmoor this afternoon?〃
  〃I wished it。〃
  〃Take them all with you。  You may tell them why when you are out。
  I must have the house quiet。  I shall get Margaret out into the
  shade; and prepare her; as best I can; before he comes at three
  o'clock。〃
  It was not flattering to be thus cleared out of the way; especially
  when full of excited curiosity; but any such sensation was quite
  overborne by sympathy in his great anxiety; and Ethel's only question
  was; 〃Had not Flora better stay to keep off company?〃
  〃No; no;〃 said Dr。 May impatiently; 〃the fewer the better;〃 and
  hastily passing her; he dashed up to his room; nearly running over
  the nursery procession; and; in a very few seconds; was seated at
  table; eating and speaking by snatches; and swallowing endless
  draughts of cold water。
  〃You are going to Cocksmoor!〃 said he; as they were finishing。
  〃It is the right day;〃 said Richard。 〃Are you coming; Flora?〃
  〃Not to…day; I have to call on Mrs。 Hoxton。〃
  〃Never mind Mrs。 Hoxton;〃 said the doctor; 〃you had better go to…day;
  a fine cool day for a walk。〃
  He did not look as if he had found it so。
  〃Oh; yes; Flora; you must come;〃 said Ethel; 〃we want you。〃
  〃I have engagements at home;〃 replied Flora。
  〃And it really is a trying walk;〃 said Miss Winter。
  〃You must;〃 reiterated Ethel。  〃Come to our room; and I will tell you
  why。〃
  〃I do not mean to go to Cocksmoor till something positive is settled。
  I cannot have anything to do with that woman。〃
  〃If you would only come upstairs;〃 implored Ethel; at the door; 〃I
  have something to tell you alone。〃
  〃I shall come up in due time。  I thought you had outgrown closetings
  and foolish secrets;〃 said Flora。
  Her movements were quickened; however; by her father; who; finding
  her with Margaret in the drawing…room; ordered her upstairs in a
  peremptory manner; which she resented; as treating her like a child;
  and therefore proceeded in no amiable mood to the room; where Ethel
  awaited her in wild tumultuous impatience。
  〃Well; Ethel; what is this grand secret?〃
  〃Oh; Flora!  Mr。 Ernescliffe is at the Swan!  He has been speaking to
  papa about Margaret。〃
  〃Proposing for her; do you mean?〃 said Flora。
  〃Yes; he is coming to see her this afternoon; and that is the reason
  that papa wants us to be all out of the way。〃
  〃Did papa tell you this?〃
  〃Yes;〃 said Ethel; beginning to perceive the secret of her
  displeasure; 〃but only because I was the first person he met; and
  Norman guessed it long ago。  Do put on your things!  I'll tell you
  all I know when we are out。  Papa is so anxious to have the coast
  clear。〃
  〃I understand;〃 said Flora; 〃but I shall not go with you。  Do not be
  afraid of my interfering with any one。  I shall sit here。〃
  〃But papa said you were to go。〃
  〃If he had done me the favour of speaking to me himself;〃 said Flora;
  〃I should have shown him that it is not right that Margaret should be
  left without any one at hand in case she should be overcome。  He is
  of no use in such cases; only makes things worse。  I should not feel
  justified in leaving Margaret with no one else; but he is in one of
  those hand…over…head moods; when it is not of the least use to say a
  word to him。〃
  〃Flora; how can you; when he expressly ordered you?〃
  〃All he meant was; do not be in the way; and I shall not show myself
  unless I am needed; when he would be glad enough of me。  I am not
  bound to obey the very letter; like Blanche or Mary。〃
  Ethel looked horrified by the assertion of independence; but Richard
  called her from below; and; with one more fruitless entreaty; she ran
  downstairs。
  Richard had been hearing all from his father; and it was comfortable
  to talk the matter over with him; and hear explained the anxiety
  which frightened her; while she scarcely comprehended it; how Dr。 May
  could not feel certain whether it was right or expedient to promote
  an engagement which must depend on health so uncertain as poor
  Margaret's; and how he dreaded the effect on the happiness of both。
  Ethel's romance seemed to be turning to melancholy; and she walked on
  gravely and thoughtfully; though repeating that there could be no
  doubt of Margaret's perfect recovery by the time of the return from
  the voyage。
  Her lessons were somewhat nervous and flurried; and even the sight of
  two very nice neat new scholars; of very different appearance from
  the rest; and of much superior attainments; only half interested her。
  Mary was enchanted at them as a pair of prodigies; actually able to
  read! and had made out their names; and their former abodes; and how
  they had been used to go to school; and had just come to live in the
  cottage deserted by the lamented Una。
  Ethel thought it quite provoking in her brother to accede to Mary's
  entreaties that they should go and call on this promising
  importation。  Even the children's information that they were taught
  now by 〃Sister Cherry〃 failed to attract her; but Richard looked at
  his watch; and decided that it was too soon to go home; and she had
  to submit to her fate。
  Very different was the aspect of the house from the wild Irish cabin
  appearance that it had in the M'Carthy days。  It was the remains of
  an old farm…house that had seen better days; somewhat larger than the
  general run of the Cocksmoor dwellings。  Respectable furniture had
  taken up its abode against the walls; the kitchen was well arranged;
  and; in spite of the wretched flooring and broken windows; had an air
  of comfort。  A very tidy woman was bustling about; still trying to
  get rid of the relics of her former tenants; who might; she much
  feared; have left a legacy of typhus fever。  The more interesting
  person was; however; a young woman of three or four and twenty; pale;
  and very lame; and with the air of a respectable servant; her manners
  particularly pleasing。  It appeared that she was the daughter of a
  first wife; and; after the period of schooling; had been at service;
  but had been lamed by a fall downstairs; and had been obliged to come
  home; just as scarcity of work had