第 14 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:39      字数:9322
  collected; papa at leisure and ready for talk or for play; mamma
  smiling over her work…basket; the sisters full of chatter; the
  brothers full of fun; all the tidings of the day discussed; and
  nothing unwelcome but bedtime。  How different now!  The doctor was
  with Margaret; and though Richard tried to say something cheerful as
  his brothers entered; there was no response; and they sat down on the
  opposite sides of the fire; forlorn and silent; till Richard; who was
  printing some letters on card…board to supply the gaps in Aubrey's
  ivory Alphabet; called Harry to help him; but Ethel; as she sat at
  work; could only look at Norman; and wish she could devise anything
  likely to gratify him。
  After a time Flora came down; and laying some sheets of closely
  written note…paper before her sister; said; 〃Here is dear mamma's
  unfinished letter to Aunt Flora。  Papa says we elder ones are to read
  it。  It is a description of us all; and very much indeed we ought to
  learn from it。  I shall keep a copy of it。〃
  Flora took up her work; and began to consult with Richard; while
  Ethel moved to Norman's side; and kneeling so as to lean against his
  shoulder; as he sat on a low cushion; they read their mother's last
  letter by the fire…light; with indescribable feelings; as they went
  through the subjects that had lately occupied them; related by her
  who would never be among them again。  After much of this kind; for
  her letters to Mrs。 Arnott were almost journals; came;
  〃You say it is long since you had a portrait gallery of the chicken
  daisies; and if I do not write in these leisure days; you will hardly
  get it after I am in the midst of business again。  The new Daisy is
  like Margaret at the same agemay she continue like her!  Pretty
  creature; she can hardly be more charming than at present。  Aubrey;
  the moon…faced; is far from reconciled to his disposition from
  babyhood; he is a sober; solemn gentleman; backward in talking; and
  with such a will of his own; as will want much watching; very
  different from Blanche; who is Flora over again; perhaps prettier and
  more fairy…like; unless this is only one's admiration for the buds of
  the present season。  None of them has ever been so winning as this
  little maid; who even attracts Dr。 Hoxton himself; and obtains sugar…
  plums and kisses。  'Rather she than I;' says Harry; but notice is
  notice to the white Mayflower; and there is my anxietyI am afraid
  it is not wholesome to be too engaging ever to get a rebuff。  I hope
  having a younger sister; and outgrowing baby charms may be salutary。
  Flora soon left off thinking about her beauty; and the fit of vanity
  does less harm at five than fifteen。  My poor Tom has not such a
  happy life as Blanche; he is often in trouble at lessons; and bullied
  by Harry at play; in spite of his champion; Mary; and yet I cannot
  interfere; for it is good for him to have all this preparatory
  teasing before he goes into school。  He has good abilities; but not
  much perseverance or energy; and I must take the teaching of him into
  my own hands till his school…days begin; in hopes of instilling them。
  The girlishness and timidity will be knocked out of him by the boys;
  I suppose; Harry is too kind and generous to do more than tease him
  moderately; and Norman will see that it does not go too far。  It is a
  common saying that Tom and Mary made a mistake; that he is the girl;
  and she the boy; for she is a rough; merry creature; the noisiest in
  the house; always skirmishing with Harry in defence of Tom; and yet
  devoted to him; and wanting to do everything he does。  Those two;
  Harry and Mary; are exactly alike; except for Harry's curly mane of
  lion…coloured wig。  The yellow…haired laddie; is papa's name for
  Harry; which he does not mind from him; though furious if the girls
  attempt to call him so。  Harry is the thorough boy of the family; all
  spirit; recklessness; and mischief; but so true; and kind; and noble…
  hearted; that one loves him the better after every freely confessed
  scrape。  I cannot tell you how grateful I am to my boy for his
  perfect confidence; the thing that chiefly lessens my anxiety for him
  in his half…school; half…home life; which does not seem to me to work
  quite well with him。  There are two sons of Mrs。 Anderson's at the
  school; who are more his friends than I like; and he is too easily
  led by the desire not to be outdone; and to show that he fears
  nothing。  Lately; our sailor…guest has inspired him with a vehement
  wish to go to sea; I wish it was not necessary that the decision
  should be made so early in life; for this fault is just what would
  make us most fear to send him into the world very young; though in
  some ways it might not do amiss for him。
  〃So much for the younger bairns; whom you never beheld; dear Flora。
  The three whom you left; when people used to waste pity on me for
  their being all babies together; now look as if any pair of them were
  twins; for Norman is the tallest; almost outgrowing his strength; and
  Ethel's sharp face; so like her papa's; makes her look older than
  Flora。  Norman and Ethel do indeed take after their papa; more than
  any of the others; and are much alike。  There is the same brilliant
  cleverness; the same strong feeling; not easy of demonstration;
  though impetuous in action; but poor Ethel's old foibles; her harum…
  scarum nature; quick temper; uncouth manners; and heedlessness of all
  but one absorbing object; have kept her back; and caused her much
  discomfort; yet I sometimes think these manifest defects have
  occasioned a discipline that is the best thing for the character in
  the end。  They are faults that show themselves; and which one can
  tell how to deal with; and I have full confidence that she has the
  principle within her that will conquer them。〃
  〃If〃mournfully sighed Ethel; but her brother pointed on further。
  〃My great hope is her entire indifference to praisenot approval;
  but praise。  If she has not come up to her own standard; she works
  on; not always with good temper; but perseveringly; and entirely;
  unheeding of commendation till she has satisfied herself; only
  thinking it stupid not to see the faults。  It is this independence of
  praise that I want to see in her brother and sister。  They justly
  earn it; and are rightly pleased with it; but I cannot feel sure
  whether they do not depend on it too much。  Norman lives; like all
  school…boys; a life of emulation; and has never met with anything but
  success。  I do believe Dr。 Hoxton and Mr。 Wilmot are as proud of him
  as we are; and he has never shown any tendency to conceit; but I am
  afraid he has the love of being foremost; and pride in his
  superiority; caring for what he is; compared with others; rather than
  what he is himself。〃
  〃I know;〃 said Norman; 〃I have done so; but that's over。  I see what
  it is worth。  I'd give all the quam optimes I ever got in my life to
  be the help Richard is to papa。〃
  〃You would if you were his age。〃
  〃Not I; I'm not the sort。  I'm not like her。  But are we to go on
  about the elders?〃
  〃Oh! yes; don't let us miss a word。  There can't be anything but
  praise of them。〃
  〃Your sweet goddaughter。  I almost feel as if I had spoken in
  disparagement of her; but I meant no such thing; dear girl。  It would
  be hard to find a fault in her; since the childish love of admiration
  was subdued。  She is so solid and steady; as to be very valuable with
  the younger ones; and is fast growing so lovely; that I wish you
  could behold her。  I do not see any vanity; but there lies my dread;
  not of beautyvanity; but that she will find temptation in the being
  everywhere liked and sought after。  As to Margaret; my precious
  companion and friend; you have heard enough of her to know her; and;
  as to telling you what she is like; I could as soon set about
  describing her papa。  When I thought of not being spared to them this
  time; it was happiness indeed to think of her at their head; fit to
  be his companion; with so much of his own talent as to be more up to
  conversation with him; than he could ever have found his stupid old
  Maggie。  It was rather a trial of her discretion to have Mr。
  Ernescliffe here while I was upstairs; and very well she seems to
  have come out of it。  Poor Richard's last disappointment is still our
  chief trouble。  He has been working hard with a tutor all through the
  vacation; and has not even come home to see his new sister; on his
  way to Oxford。  He had made a resolution that he would not come to us
  till he had passed; and his father thought it best that it should be
  kept。  I hope he will succeed next time; but his nervousness renders
  it still more doubtful。  With him it is the very reverse of Norman。
  He suffers too much for want of commendation; and I cannot wonder at
  it; when I see how much each failure vexes his father; and Richard
  little knows how precious is our perfect confidence in him; how much
  more valuable than any honours he could earn。  You would be amused to
  see how little he is altered from the pretty little fair fellow; that
  you used to say was so like my old portrait; even the wavy rings of
  light glossy hair sit on his forehead; just as you liked to twist
  them; and his small trim figure is a fine contrast to Norm