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作者:缘圆      更新:2022-08-21 16:34      字数:9319
  but that he was a human being。 He need not lose her then; but always be
  near her。 The idea grew and with it the mighty temptation to lead Virginia
  Maxon   far   into   the   jungle;   and   keep   her   forever   from   the   sight   of   men。
  And why not? Had he not saved her where others had failed?                       Was she
  not; by all that was just and fair; his?
  Did he owe any loyalty to either her father or von Horn? Already he
  had saved Professor Maxon's life; so the obligation; if there was any; lay
  all   against   the   older   man;   and   three   times   he   had   saved   Virginia。 He
  would be very kind and good to her。 She should be much happier and a
  thousand times safer than with those others who were so poorly equipped
  to protect her。
  As he stood silently gazing out across the jungle beneath them toward
  the new sun the girl watched him in a spell of admiration of his strong and
  noble     face;  and    his  perfect   physique。      What     would     have   been    her
  emotions had she guessed what thoughts were his! It was she who broke
  the silence。
  〃Can   you   find   the   way   to   the   long…house   where   my   father   is?〃   she
  asked。
  Bulan; startled at the question; looked up from his reverie。 The thing
  must be faced; then; sooner than he thought。 How was he to tell her of his
  intention?     It occurred to him to sound her firstpossibly she would make
  no objection to the plan。
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  〃You are anxious to return?〃 he asked。
  〃Why; yes; of course; I am;〃 she replied。            〃My father will be half mad
  with    apprehension;      until   he   knows    that   I  am   safe。   What      a  strange
  question;  indeed。〃       Still; however;  she  did   not   doubt   the  motives   of   her
  companion。
  〃Suppose we should be unable to find our way to the long…house?〃 he
  continued。
  〃Oh; don't   say  such   a   thing;〃 cried the girl。  〃It   would be   terrible。       I
  should die of misery and fright and loneliness in this awful jungle。 Surely
  you can find your way to the river it was but a short march through the
  jungle from where we landed to the spot at which you took me away from
  that fearful Malay。〃
  The   girl's   words   cast   a   cloud   over   Bulan's   hopes。  The   future   looked
  less roseate with the knowledge that she would be unhappy in the life that
  he had been mapping for them。             He was silentthinking。         In his breast a
  riot of conflicting emotions were waging the first great battle which was to
  point   the   trend   of   the   man's   characterwould   the   selfish   and   the   base
  prevail; or would the noble?
  With     the  thought    of   losing   her   his  desire   for  her   companionship
  became almost a mania。           To return her to her father and von Horn would
  be to lose her of that there could be no doubt; for they would not leave
  her long in ignorance of his origin。            Then; in addition to being deprived
  of her forever; he must suffer the galling mortification of her scorn。
  It was a great deal to ask of a fledgling morality that was yet scarcely
  cognizant of its untried wings; but even as the man wavered between right
  and wrong there crept into his mind the one great and burning question of
  his lifehad he a soul?        And he knew that upon his decision of the fate of
  Virginia Maxon rested to some extent the true answer to that question; for;
  unconsciously;   he   had   worked   out   his   own   crude   soul   hypothesis   which
  imparted   to   this   invisible   entity   the   power   to   direct   his   actions   only   for
  good。   Therefore   he   reasoned   that   wickedness   presupposed   a   small   and
  worthless soul; or the entire lack of one。
  That   she   would   hate   a   soulless   creature   he   accepted   as   a   foregone
  conclusion。       He desired her respect; and that fact helped him to his final
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  decision; but the thing that decided him was born of the truly chivalrous
  nature he possessedhe wanted Virginia Maxon to be happy; it mattered
  not at what cost to him。
  The girl had been watching him closely as he stood silently thinking
  after her last words。      She did not know the struggle that the calm face hid;
  yet she felt that the dragging moments were big with the question of her
  fate。
  〃Well?〃 she said at length。
  〃We must eat first;〃 he replied in a matter…of…fact tone; and not at all as
  though he was about to renounce his life's happiness; 〃and then we shall
  set out in search of your father。         I shall take you to him; Virginia; if man
  can find him。〃
  〃I knew that you could;〃 she said; simply; 〃but how my father and I
  ever can repay you I do not knowdo you?〃
  〃Yes;〃 said Bulan; and there was a sudden rush of fire to his eyes that
  kept Virginia Maxon from urging a detailed explanation of just how she
  might repay him。
  In truth she did not know whether to be angry; or frightened; or glad of
  the   truth   that   she   read   there;   or   mortified   that   it   had   awakened   in   her   a
  realization   that   possibly   an   analysis   of   her   own   interest   in   this   young
  stranger might reveal more than she had imagined。
  The constraint that suddenly fell upon them was relieved when Bulan
  motioned her to follow him back down the trail into the gorge in search of
  food。 There they sat together upon a fallen tree beside a tiny rivulet; eating
  the   fruit   that   the   man   gathered。   Often   their   eyes   met   as   they  talked;   but
  always the girl's fell before the open worship of the man's。
  Many were the men who had looked in admiration at Virginia Maxon
  in the past; but never; she felt; with eyes so clean and brave and honest。
  There was no guile or evil in them; and because of it she wondered all the
  more that she could not face them。
  〃What   a   wonderful   soul   those   eyes   portray;〃   she   thought;   〃and   how
  perfectly they assure the safety of my life and honor while their owner is
  near me。〃
  And the man thought: 〃Would that I owned a soul that I might aspire
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  to live always near heralways to protect her。〃
  When they had eaten the two set out once more in search of the river;
  and   the   confidence   that   is   born   of   ignorance   was   theirs;   so   that   beyond
  each succeeding tangled barrier of vines and creepers they looked to see
  the swirling stream that would lead them to the girl's father。
  On   and   on   they   trudged;   the   man   often   carrying   the   girl   across   the
  rougher   obstacles   and   through   the   little   streams   that   crossed   their   path;
  until   at   last   came   noon;   and   yet   no   sign   of   the   river   they   sought。   The
  combined jungle craft of the two had been insufficient either to trace the
  way that they had come; or point the general direction of the river。
  As the afternoon drew to a close Virginia Maxon commenced to lose
  heartshe was confident that they were lost。               Bulan made no pretence of
  knowing the way; the most that he would say being that eventually they
  must come to the river。          As a matter…of…fact had it not been for the girl's
  evident     concern     he   would     have    been   glad    to  know     that   they   were
  irretrievably     lost;   but  for   her  sake    his  efforts   to  find   the  river   were
  conscientious。
  When at last night closed down upon them the girl was; at heart; terror
  stricken; but she hid her true state from the man; because she knew that
  their plight was no fault of his。           The strange and uncanny noises of the
  jungle   night   filled   her   with   the   most   dreadful   forebodings;   and   when   a
  cold; drizzling rain set in upon them her cup of misery was full。
  Bulan   rigged   a   rude   shelter   for   her;  making   her   lie   down beneath   it;
  and then he removed his Dyak war…coat and threw it over her; but it was
  hours before her exhausted body overpowered her nervous fright and won
  a   fitful   and   restless   slumber。   Several   times   Virginia   became   obsessed
  with the idea that Bulan had left her alone there in the jungle; but when
  she called his name he answered from close beside her shelter。
  She thought that he had reared another for himself nearby; but even the
  thought that he might sleep filled her with dread; yet she would not call to
  him   again;