第 50 节
作者:白寒      更新:2022-07-12 16:24      字数:9322
  together; to…morrow morning; in one last embrace; would be joy。 It
  seems to me that even then I should have lived more than a hundred
  years。 What does the number of days matter if we have spent a whole
  lifetime of peace and love in one night; in one hour?〃
  〃You are right; Heaven is speaking through that pretty mouth of yours。
  Grant that I may kiss you; and let us die;〃 said Raphael。
  〃Then let us die;〃 she said; laughing。
  Towards nine o'clock in the morning the daylight streamed through the
  chinks of the window shutters。 Obscured somewhat by the muslin
  curtains; it yet sufficed to show clearly the rich colors of the
  carpet; the silks and furniture of the room; where the two lovers were
  lying asleep。 The gilding sparkled here and there。 A ray of sunshine
  fell and faded upon the soft down quilt that the freaks of live had
  thrown to the ground。 The outlines of Pauline's dress; hanging from a
  cheval glass; appeared like a shadowy ghost。 Her dainty shoes had been
  left at a distance from the bed。 A nightingale came to perch upon the
  sill; its trills repeated over again; and the sounds of its wings
  suddenly shaken out for flight; awoke Raphael。
  〃For me to die;〃 he said; following out a thought begun in his dream;
  〃my organization; the mechanism of flesh and bone; that is quickened
  by the will in me; and makes of me an individual MAN; must display
  some perceptible disease。 Doctors ought to understand the symptoms of
  any attack on vitality; and could tell me whether I am sick or sound。〃
  He gazed at his sleeping wife。 She had stretched her head out to him;
  expressing in this way even while she slept the anxious tenderness of
  love。 Pauline seemed to look at him as she lay with her face turned
  towards him in an attitude as full of grace as a young child's; with
  her pretty; half…opened mouth held out towards him; as she drew her
  light; even breath。 Her little pearly teeth seemed to heighten the
  redness of the fresh lips with the smile hovering over them。 The red
  glow in her complexion was brighter; and its whiteness was; so to
  speak; whiter still just then than in the most impassioned moments of
  the waking day。 In her unconstrained grace; as she lay; so full of
  believing trust; the adorable attractions of childhood were added to
  the enchantments of love。
  Even the most unaffected women still obey certain social conventions;
  which restrain the free expansion of the soul within them during their
  waking hours; but slumber seems to give them back the spontaneity of
  life which makes infancy lovely。 Pauline blushed for nothing; she was
  like one of those beloved and heavenly beings; in whom reason has not
  yet put motives into their actions and mystery into their glances。 Her
  profile stood out in sharp relief against the fine cambric of the
  pillows; there was a certain sprightliness about her loose hair in
  confusion; mingled with the deep lace ruffles; but she was sleeping in
  happiness; her long lashes were tightly pressed against her cheeks; as
  if to secure her eyes from too strong a light; or to aid an effort of
  her soul to recollect and to hold fast a bliss that had been perfect
  but fleeting。 Her tiny pink and white ear; framed by a lock of her
  hair and outlined by a wrapping of Mechlin lace; would have made an
  artist; a painter; an old man; wildly in love; and would perhaps have
  restored a madman to his senses。
  Is it not an ineffable bliss to behold the woman that you love;
  sleeping; smiling in a peaceful dream beneath your protection; loving
  you even in dreams; even at the point where the individual seems to
  cease to exist; offering to you yet the mute lips that speak to you in
  slumber of the latest kiss? Is it not indescribable happiness to see a
  trusting woman; half…clad; but wrapped round in her love as by a cloak
  modesty in the midst of dishevelmentto see admiringly her
  scattered clothing; the silken stocking hastily put off to please you
  last evening; the unclasped girdle that implies a boundless faith in
  you。 A whole romance lies there in that girdle; the woman that it used
  to protect exists no longer; she is yours; she has become YOU;
  henceforward any betrayal of her is a blow dealt at yourself。
  In this softened mood Raphael's eyes wandered over the room; now
  filled with memories and love; and where the very daylight seemed to
  take delightful hues。 Then he turned his gaze at last upon the
  outlines of the woman's form; upon youth and purity; and love that
  even now had no thought that was not for him alone; above all things;
  and longed to live for ever。 As his eyes fell upon Pauline; her own
  opened at once as if a ray of sunlight had lighted on them。
  〃Good…morning;〃 she said; smiling。 〃How handsome you are; bad man!〃
  The grace of love and youth; of silence and dawn; shone in their
  faces; making a divine picture; with the fleeting spell over it all
  that belongs only to the earliest days of passion; just as simplicity
  and artlessness are the peculiar possession of childhood。 Alas! love's
  springtide joys; like our own youthful laughter; must even take
  flight; and live for us no longer save in memory; either for our
  despair; or to shed some soothing fragrance over us; according to the
  bent of our inmost thoughts。
  〃What made me wake you?〃 said Raphael。 〃It was so great a pleasure to
  watch you sleeping that it brought tears to my eyes。〃
  〃And to mine; too;〃 she answered。 〃I cried in the night while I
  watched you sleeping; but not with happiness。 Raphael; dear; pray
  listen to me。 Your breathing is labored while you sleep; and something
  rattles in your chest that frightens me。 You have a little dry cough
  when you are asleep; exactly like my father's; who is dying of
  phthisis。 In those sounds from your lungs I recognized some of the
  peculiar symptoms of that complaint。 Then you are feverish; I know you
  are; your hand was moist and burningDarling; you are young;〃 she
  added with a shudder; 〃and you could still get over it if
  unfortunatelyBut; no;〃 she cried cheerfully; 〃there is no
  'unfortunately;' the disease is contagious; so the doctors say。〃
  She flung both arms about Raphael; drawing in his breath through one
  of those kisses in which the soul reaches its end。
  〃I do not wish to live to old age;〃 she said。 〃Let us both die young;
  and go to heaven while flowers fill our hands。〃
  〃We always make such designs as those when we are well and strong;〃
  Raphael replied; burying his hands in Pauline's hair。 But even then a
  horrible fit of coughing came on; one of those deep ominous coughs
  that seem to come from the depths of the tomb; a cough that leaves the
  sufferer ghastly pale; trembling; and perspiring; with aching sides
  and quivering nerves; with a feeling of weariness pervading the very
  marrow of the spine; and unspeakable languor in every vein。 Raphael
  slowly laid himself down; pale; exhausted; and overcome; like a man
  who has spent all the strength in him over one final effort。 Pauline's
  eyes; grown large with terror; were fixed upon him; she lay quite
  motionless; pale; and silent。
  〃Let us commit no more follies; my angel;〃 she said; trying not to let
  Raphael see the dreadful forebodings that disturbed her。 She covered
  her face with her hands; for she saw Death before herthe hideous
  skeleton。 Raphael's face had grown as pale and livid as any skull
  unearthed from a churchyard to assist the studies of some scientific
  man。 Pauline remembered the exclamation that had escaped from Valentin
  the previous evening; and to herself she said:
  〃Yes; there are gulfs that love can never cross; and therein love must
  bury itself。〃
  On a March morning; some days after this wretched scene; Raphael found
  himself seated in an armchair; placed in the window in the full light
  of day。 Four doctors stood round him; each in turn trying his pulse;
  feeling him over; and questioning him with apparent interest。 The
  invalid sought to guess their thoughts; putting a construction on
  every movement they made; and on the slightest contractions of their
  brows。 His last hope lay in this consultation。 This court of appeal
  was about to pronounce its decisionlife or death。
  Valentin had summoned the oracles of modern medicine; so that he might
  have the last word of science。 Thanks to his wealth and title; there
  stood before him three embodied theories; human knowledge fluctuated
  round the three points。 Three of the doctors brought among them the
  complete circle of medical philosophy; they represented the points of
  conflict round which the battle raged; between Spiritualism; Analysis;
  and goodness knows what in the way of mocking eclecticism。
  The fourth doctor was Horace Bianchon; a man of science with a future
  before him; the most distinguished man of the new school in medicine;
  a discreet and unassuming representative of a studious generation that
  is preparing to receive the inheritance of fifty years of experience
  treasured up by the Ecole de Paris; a generation that perhaps will
  erect the monument for the building of which the centuries behind us
  have collected the different materials。 As a personal friend of the
  Marquis and of Rastignac; he had been in attendance on the former for
  some days past; and was helping him to answer