第 181 节
作者:青涩春天      更新:2022-07-12 16:22      字数:9321
  〃Mustapha was like all the rest of you young men of the present
  dayhe go t restless after dinner。 'Let's go to a public
  amusement; Mr。 Pedgift;' says he。 'Public amusement? Why; it's
  Sunday evening!' says I。 'All right; sir;' says Mustapha。 'They
  stop acting on the stage; I grant you; on Sunday eveningbut
  they don't stop acting in the pulpit。 Come and see the last new
  Sunday performer of our time。' As he wouldn't have any more wine;
  there was nothing else for it but to go。
  〃We went to a street at the West End; and found it blocked up
  with carriages。 If it hadn't been Sunday night; I should have
  thought we were going to the opera。 'What did I tell you?' says
  Mustapha; taking me up to an open door with a gas star outside
  and a bill of the performance。 I had just time to notice that I
  was going to one of a series of 'Sunday Evening Discourses on the
  Pomps and Vanities of the World; by A Sinner Who Has Served
  Them;' when Mustapha jogged my elbow; and whispered; 'Half a
  crown is the fashionable tip。' I found myself between two demure
  and silent gentlemen; with plates in their hands; uncommonly well
  filled already with the fashionable tip。 Mustapha patronized one
  plate; and I the other。 We passed through two doors into a long
  room; crammed with people。 And there; on a platform at the
  further end; holding forth to the audience; wasnot a man; as I
  had expected but a Woman; and that woman; MOTHER OLDERSHAW! You
  never listened to anything more eloquent in your life。 As long as
  I heard her she was never once at a loss for a word anywhere。 I
  shall think less of oratory as a human accomplishment; for the
  rest of my days; after that Sunday evening。 As for the matter of
  the sermon; I may describe it as a narrative of Mrs。 Oldershaw's
  experience among dilapidated women; profusely illustrated in the
  pious and penitential style。 You will ask what sort of audience
  it was。 Principally Women; Augustusand; as I hope to be saved;
  all the old harridans of the world of fashion whom Mother
  Oldershaw had enameled in her time; sitting boldly in the front
  places; with their cheeks ruddled with paint; in a state of
  devout enjoyment wonderful to see! I left Mustapha to hear the
  end of it。 And I thought to myself; as I went out; of what
  Shakespeare says somewhere; 'Lord; what fools we mortals be!'
  〃Have I anything more to tell you before I leave off? Only one
  thing that I can remember。
  〃That wretched old Bashwood has confirmed the fears I told you I
  had about him when he was brought back here from London。 There is
  no kind of doubt that he has really lost all the little reason he
  ever had。 He is perfectly harmless; and perfectly happy。 And he
  would do very well if we could only prevent him from going out in
  his last new suit of clothes; smirking and smiling and inviting
  everybody to his approaching marriage with the handsomest woman
  in England。 It ends of course in the boys pelting him; and in his
  coming here crying to me; covered with mud。 The moment his
  clothes are cleaned again he falls back into his favorite
  delusion; and struts about before the church gates; in the
  character of a bridegroom; waiting for Miss Gwilt。 We must get
  the poor wretch taken care of somewhere for the rest of the
  little time he has to live。 Who would ever have thought of a man
  at his age falling in love? And who would ever have believed that
  the mischief that woman's beauty has done could have reached as
  far in the downward direction as our superannuated old clerk?
  〃Good…by; for the present; my dear boy。 If you see a particularly
  handsome snuff…box in Paris; rememberthough your father scorns
  Testimonialshe doesn't object to receive a present from his
  son。
  〃Yours affectionately;
  A。 PEDGIFT; Sen。
  〃POSTSCRIPT。I think it likely that the account you mention in
  the French papers; of a fatal quarrel among some foreign sailors
  in one of the Lipari Islands; and of the death of their captain;
  among others; may really have been a quarrel among the scoundrels
  who robbed Mr。 Armadale and scuttled his yacht。 _Those_ fellows;
  luckily for society; can't always keep up appearances; and; in
  their case; Rogues and Retribution do occasionally come into
  collision with each other。〃
  CHAPTER II。
  MIDWINTER。
  THE spring had advanced to the end of April。 It was the eve of
  Allan's wedding…day。 Midwinter and he had sat talking together at
  the great house till far into the nighttill so far that it had
  struck twelve long since; and the wedding day was already some
  hours old。
  For the most part the conversation had turned on the bridegroom's
  plans and projects。 It was not till the two friends rose to go to
  rest that Allan insisted on making Midwinter speak of himself。
  〃We have had enough; and more than enough; of _my_ future;〃 he
  began; in his bluntly straightforward way。 〃Let's say something
  now; Midwinter; about yours。 You have promised me; I know; that;
  if you take to literature; it shan't part us; and that; if you go
  on a sea…voyage; you will remember; when you come back; that my
  house is your home。 But this is the last chance we have of being
  together in our old way; and I own I should like to know〃 His
  voice faltered; and his eyes moistened a little。 He left the
  sentence unfinished。
  Midwinter took his hand and helped him; as he had often helped
  him to the words that he wanted in the by…gone time。
  〃You would like to know; Allan;〃 he said; 〃that I shall not bring
  an aching heart with me to your wedding day? If you will let me
  go back for a moment to the past; I think I can satisfy you。〃
  They took their chairs again。 Allan saw that Midwinter was moved。
  〃Why distress yourself?〃 he asked; kindly〃why go back to the
  past?〃
  〃For two reasons; Allan。 I ought to have thanked you long since
  for the silence you have observed; for my sake; on a matter that
  must have seemed very strange to you。 You know what the name is
  which appears on the register of my marriage; and yet you have
  forborne to speak of it; from the fear of distressing me。 Before
  you enter on your new life; let us come to a first and last
  understanding about this。 I ask youas one more kindness to
  meto accept my assurance (strange as the thing may seem to you)
  that I am blameless in this matter; and I entreat you to believe
  that the reasons I have for leaving it unexplained are reasons
  which; if Mr。 Brock was living; Mr。 Brook himself would approve。〃
  In those words he kept the secret of the two names; and left the
  memory of Allan's mother; what he had found it; a sacred memory
  in the heart of her son。
  〃One word more;〃 he went on〃a word which will take us; this
  time; from past to future。 It has been said; and truly said; that
  out of Evil may come Good。 Out of the horror and the misery of
  that night you know of has come the silencing of a doubt which
  once made my life miserable with groundless anxiety about you and
  about myself。 No clouds raised by my superstition will ever come
  between us again。 I can't honestly tell you that I am more
  willing now than I was when we were in the Isle of Man to take
  what is called the rational view of your Dream。 Though I know
  what extraordinary coincidences are perpetually happening in the
  experience of all of us; still I cannot accept coincidences as
  explaining the fulfillment of the Visions which our own eyes have
  seen。 All I can sincerely say for myself is; what I think it will
  satisfy you to know; that I have learned to view the purpose of
  the Dream with a new mind。 I once believed that it was sent to
  rouse your distrust of the friendless man whom you had taken as a
  brother to your heart。 I now _know_ that it came to you as a
  timely warning to take him closer still。 Does this help to
  satisfy you that I; too; am standing hopefully on the brink of a
  new life; and that while we live; brother; your love and mine
  will never be divided again?〃
  They shook hands in silence。 Allan was the first to recover
  himself。 He answered in the few words of kindly assurance which
  were the best words that he could address to his friend。
  〃I have heard all I ever want to hear about the past;〃 he said;
  〃and I know what I most wanted to know about the future。
  Everybody says; Midwinter; you have a career before you; and I
  believe that everybody is right。 Who knows what great things may
  happen before you and I are many years older?〃
  〃Who _need_ know?〃 said Midwinter; calmly。 〃Happen what may; God
  is all…merciful; God is all…wise。 In those words your dear old
  friend once wrote to me。 In that faith I can look back without
  murmuring at the years that are past; and can look on without
  doubting to the years that are to come。〃
  He rose; and walked to the window。 While they had been speaking
  together the darkness had passed。 The first light of the new day
  met him as he looked out; and rested tenderly on his face。
  APPENDIX。
  NOTEMy readers will perceive that I have purposely left them;
  with reference to the Dream in this story; in the position which
  they would occupy in the case of a dream in real life: they are
  free to interpret it by the natural or the supernatural theory;
  as the bent of their own minds may incline them。 Persons disposed
  to take the rational view