第 161 节
作者:青涩春天      更新:2022-07-12 16:22      字数:9322
  forgot my risks and responsibilities in my anxieties to be
  charming。 For a minute or two I felt a warm little flutter of
  triumph。 And it was a triumpheven with an old man! In a quarter
  of an hour I had him smirking and smiling; hanging on my lightest
  words in an ecstasy; and answering all the questions I put to him
  like a good little child。
  〃Here is his account of affairs at Thorpe Ambrose; as I gently
  extracted it from him bit by bit:
  〃In the first place; the news of Armadale's death has reached
  Miss Milroy。 It has so completely overwhelmed her that her father
  has been compelled to remove her from the school。 She is back at
  the cottage; and the doctor is in daily attendance。 Do I pity
  her? Yes! I pity her exactly as much as she once pitied me!
  〃In the next place; the state of affairs at the great house;
  which I expected to find some difficulty in comprehending; tu rns
  out to be quite intelligible; and certainly not discouraging so
  far。 Only yesterday; the lawyers on both sides came to an
  understanding。 Mr。 Darch (the family solicitor of the Blanchards;
  and Armadale's bitter enemy in past times) represents the
  interests of Miss Blanchard; who (in the absence of any male
  heir) is next heir to the estate; and who has; it appears; been
  in London for some time past。 Mr。 Smart; of Norwich (originally
  employed to overlook Bashwood); represents the deceased Armadale。
  And this is what the two lawyers have settled between them。
  〃Mr。 Darch; acting for Miss Blanchard; has claimed the possession
  of the estate; and the right of receiving the rents at the
  Christmas audit; in her name。 Mr。 Smart; on his side; has
  admitted that there is great weight in the family solicitor's
  application。 He cannot see his way; as things are now; to
  contesting the question of Armadale's death; and he will consent
  to offer no resistance to the application; if Mr。 Darch will
  consent; on his side; to assume the responsibility of taking
  possession in Miss Blanchard's name。 This Mr。 Darch has already
  done; and the estate is now virtually in Miss Blanchard's
  possession。
  〃One result of this course of proceeding will be (as Bashwood
  thinks) to put Mr。 Darch in the position of the person who really
  decides on my claim to the widow's place and the widow's money。
  The income being charged on the estate; it must come out of Miss
  Blanchard's pocket; and the question of paying it would appear;
  therefore; to be a question for Miss Blanchard's lawyer。
  To…morrow will probably decide whether this view is the right
  one; for my letter to Armadale's representatives will have been
  delivered at the great house this morning。
  〃So much for what old Bashwood had to tell me。 Having recovered
  my influence over him; and possessed myself of all his
  information so far; the next thing to consider was the right use
  to turn him to in the future。 He was entirely at my disposal; for
  his place at the steward's office has been already taken by Miss
  Blanchard's man of business; and he pleaded hard to be allowed to
  stay and serve my interests in London。 There would not have been
  the least danger in letting him stay; for I had; as a matter of
  course; left him undisturbed in his conviction that I really am
  the widow of Armadale of Thorpe Ambrose。 But with the doctor's
  resources at my command; I wanted no assistance of any sort in
  London; and it occurred to me that I might make Bashwood more
  useful by sending him back to Norfolk to watch events there in my
  interests。
  〃He looked sorely disappointed (having had an eye evidently to
  paying his court to me in my widowed condition!) when I told him
  of the conclusion at which I had arrived。 But a few words of
  persuasion; and a modest hint that he might cherish hopes in the
  future if he served me obediently in the present; did wonders in
  reconciling him to the necessity of meeting my wishes。 He asked
  helplessly for 'instructions' when it was time for him to leave
  me and travel back by the evening train。 I could give him none;
  for I had no idea as yet of what the legal people might or might
  not do。 'But suppose something happens;' he persisted; 'that I
  don't understand; what am I to do; so far away from you?' I could
  only give him one answer。 'Do nothing;' I said。 'Whatever it is;
  hold your tongue about it; and write; or come up to London
  immediately to consult me。' With those parting directions; and
  with an understanding that we were to correspond regularly; I let
  him kiss my hand; and sent him off to the train。
  〃Now that I am alone again; and able to think calmly of the
  interview between me and my elderly admirer; I find myself
  recalling a certain change in old Bashwood's manner which puzzled
  me at the time; and which puzzles me still。
  〃Even in his first moments of agitation at seeing me; I thought
  that his eyes rested on my face with a new kind of interest while
  I was speaking to him。 Besides this; he dropped a word or two
  afterward; in telling me of his lonely life at Thorpe Ambrose;
  which seemed to imply that he had been sustained in his solitude
  by a feeling of confidence about his future relations with me
  when we next met If he had been a younger and a bolder man (and
  if any such discovery had been possible); I should almost have
  suspected him of having found out something about my past life
  which had made him privately confident of controlling me; if I
  showed any disposition to deceive and desert him again。 But such
  an idea as this in connection with old Bashwood is simply absurd。
  Perhaps I am overexcited by the suspense and anxiety of my
  present position? Perhaps the merest fancies and suspicions are
  leading me astray? Let this be as it may; I have; at any rate;
  more serious subjects than the subject of old Bashwood to occupy
  me now。 Tomorrow's post may tell me what Armadale's
  representatives think of the claim of Armadale's widow。
  〃November 26th。The answer has arrived this morning; in the form
  (as Bashwood supposed) of a letter from Mr。 Darch。 The crabbed
  old lawyer acknowledges my letter in three lines。 Before he takes
  any steps; or expresses any opinion on the subject; he wants
  evidence of identity as well as the evidence of the certificate;
  and he ventures to suggest that it may be desirable; before we go
  any further; to refer him to my legal advisers。
  〃Two o'clock。The doctor called shortly after twelve to say that
  he had found a lodging for me within twenty minutes' walk of the
  Sanitarium。 In return for his news; I showed him Mr。 Darch's
  letter。 He took it away at once to his lawyers; and came back
  with the necessary information for my guidance。 I have answered
  Mr。 Darch by sending him the address of my legal
  advisersotherwise; the doctor's lawyerswithout making any
  comment on the desire that he has expressed for additional
  evidence of the marriage。 This is all that can be done to…day。
  To…morrow will bring with it events of greater interest; for
  to…morrow the doctor is to make his Declaration before the
  magistrate; and to…morrow I am to move to my new lodging in my
  widow's weeds。
  〃November 27th。Fairweather Vale Villas。The Declaration has
  been made; with all the necessary formalities。 And I have taken
  possession; in my widow's costume; of my new rooms。
  〃I ought to be excited by the opening of this new act in the
  drama; and by the venturesome part that I am playing in it
  myself。 Strange to say; I am quiet and depressed。 The thought of
  Midwinter has followed me to my new abode; and is pressing on me
  heavily at this moment。 I have no fear of any accident happening;
  in the interval that must still pass before I step publicly into
  the place of Armadale's widow。 But when that time comes; and when
  Midwinter finds me (as sooner or later find me he must!) figuring
  in my false character; and settled in the position that I have
  usurped_then;_ I ask myself; What will happen? The answer still
  comes as it first came to me this morning; when I put on my
  widow's dress。 Now; as then; the presentiment is fixed in my mind
  that he will kill me。 If it was not too late to draw back
  Absurd! I shall shut up my journal。
  〃November 28th。The lawyers have heard from Mr。 Darch; and have
  sent him the Declaration by return of post。
  〃When the doctor brought me this news; I asked him whether his
  lawyers were aware of my present address; and; finding that he
  had not yet mentioned it to them; I begged that he would continue
  to keep it a secret for the future。 The doctor laughed。 'Are you
  afraid of Mr。 Darch's stealing a march on us; and coming to
  attack you personally?' he asked。 I accepted the imputation; as
  the easiest way of making him comply with my request。 'Yes;' I
  said; 'I am afraid of Mr。 Darch。'
  〃My spirits have risen since the doctor left me。 There is a
  pleasant sensation of security in feeling that no strangers are
  in possession of my address。 I am easy enough in my mind to…day
  to notice how wonderfully well I look in my widow's weeds; and to
  make myself agreeable to the people of the house。
  〃Midwinter disturbed me a little again last night; but I have got
  over the ghastly delusion which possessed me yesterday。
  I know better now than to dread violence from him when he
  discovers what I have done。 An