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作者:青涩春天      更新:2022-07-12 16:22      字数:9321
  higher mental capacity and a clearer mental view; he might have
  found the letter no easy one to write。 As it was; he calculated
  no consequences; and felt no difficulty。 His instinct warned him
  to withdraw at once from the position in which he now stood
  toward the major's wife; and he wrote what his instinct counseled
  him to write under those circumstances; as rapidly as the pen
  could travel over the paper:
  〃Dunn's Hotel; Covent Garden; Tuesday。
  〃DEAR MADAMPray excuse my not returning to Thorpe Ambrose
  today; as I said I would。 Unforeseen circumstances oblige me to
  stop in London。 I am sorry to say I have not succeeded in seeing
  Mrs。 Mandeville; for which reason I cannot perform your errand;
  and I beg; therefore; with many apologies; to return the letter
  of introduction。 I hope you will allow me to conclude by saying
  that I am very much obliged to you for your kindness; and that I
  will not venture to trespass on it any further。
  〃I remain; dear madam; yours truly;
  〃ALLAN ARMADALE。〃
  In those artless words; still entirely unsuspicious of the
  character of the woman he had to deal with; Allan put the weapon
  she wanted into Mrs。 Milroy's hands。
  The letter and its inclosure once sealed up and addressed; he was
  free to think of himself and his future。 As he sat idly drawing
  lines with his pen on the blotting…paper; the tears came into his
  eyes for the first timetears in which the woman who had
  deceived him had no share。 His heart had gone back to his dead
  mother。 〃If she had been alive;〃 he thought; 〃I might have
  trusted _her;_ and she would have comforted me。〃 It was useless
  to dwell on it; he dashed away the tears; and turned his
  thoughts; with the heart…sick resignation that we all know; to
  living and present things。
  He wrote a line to Mr。 Bashwood; briefly informing the deputy
  steward that his absence from Thorpe Ambrose was likely to be
  prolonged for some little time; and that any further instructions
  which might be necessary; under those circumstances; would reach
  him through Mr。 Pedgift the elder。 This done; and the letters
  sent to the post; his thoughts were forced back once more on
  himself。 Again the blank future waited before him to be filled
  up; and again his heart shrank from it to the refuge of the past。
  This time other images than the image of his mother filled his
  mind。 The one all…absorbing interest of his earlier days stirred
  living and eager in him again。 He thought of the sea; he thought
  of his yacht lying idle in the fishing h arbor at his
  west…country home。 The old longing got possession of him to hear
  the wash of the waves;; to see the filling of the sails; to feel
  the vessel that his own hands had helped to build bounding under
  him once more。 He rose in his impetuous way to call for the
  time…table; and to start for Somersetshire by the first train;
  when the dread of the questions which Mr。 Brock might ask; the
  suspicion of the change which Mr。 Brock might see in him; drew
  him back to his chair。 〃I'll write;〃 he thought; 〃to have the
  yacht rigged and refitted; and I'll wait to go to Somersetshire
  myself till Midwinter can go with me。〃 He sighed as his memory
  reverted to his absent friend。 Never had he fell the void made in
  his life by Midwinter's departure so painfully as he felt it now;
  in the dreariest of all social solitudesthe solitude of a
  stranger in London; left by himself at a hotel。
  Before long; Pedgift Junior looked in; with an apology for his
  intrusion。 Allan felt too lonely and too friendless not to
  welcome his companion's re…appearance gratefully。 〃I'm not going
  back to Thorpe Ambrose;〃 he said; 〃I'm going to stay a little
  while in London。 I hope you will be able to stay with me?〃 To do
  him justice; Pedgift was touched by the solitary position in
  which the owner of the great Thorpe Ambrose estate now appeared
  before him。 He had never; in his relations with Allan; so
  entirely forgotten his business interests as he forgot them now。
  〃You are quite right; sir; to stop here; London's the place to
  divert your mind;〃 said Pedgift; cheerfully。 〃All business is
  more or less elastic in its nature; Mr。 Armadale; I'll spin _my_
  business out; and keep you company with the greatest pleasure。 We
  are both of us on the right side of thirty; sir; let's enjoy
  ourselves。 What do you say to dining early; and going to the
  play; and trying the Great Exhibition in Hyde Park to…morrow
  morning; after breakfast? If we only live like fighting…cocks;
  and go in perpetually for public amusements; we shall arrive in
  no time at the _mens sana in corpore sano_ of the ancients。 Don't
  be alarmed at the quotation; sir。 I dabble a little in Latin
  after business hours; and enlarge my sympathies by occasional
  perusal of the Pagan writers; assisted by a crib。 William; dinner
  at five; and; as it's particularly important to…day; I'll see the
  cook myself。〃
  The evening passed; the next day passed; Thursday morning came;
  and brought with it a letter for Allan。 The direction was in Mrs。
  Milroy's handwriting; and the form of address adopted in the
  letter warned Allan; the moment he opened it; that something had
  gone wrong。
  '〃Private。〃'
  〃The Cottage; Thorpe Ambrose; Wednesday。
  〃SIRI have just received your mysterious letter。 It has more
  than surprised; it has really alarmed me。 After having made the
  friendliest advances to you on my side; I find myself suddenly
  shut out from your confidence in the most unintelligible; and; I
  must add; the most discourteous manner。 It is quite impossible
  that I can allow the matter to rest where you have left it。 The
  only conclusion I can draw from your letter is that my confidence
  must have been abused in some way; and that you know a great deal
  more than you are willing to tell me。 Speaking in the interest of
  my daughter's welfare; I request that you will inform me what the
  circumstances are which have prevented your seeing Mrs。
  Mandeville; and which have led to the withdrawal of the
  assistance that you unconditionally promised me in your letter of
  Monday last。
  〃In my state of health; I cannot involve myself in a lengthened
  correspondence。 I must endeavor to anticipate any objections you
  may make; and I must say all that I have to say in my present
  letter。 In the event (which I am most unwilling to consider
  possible) of your declining to accede to the request that I have
  just addressed to you; I beg to say that I shall consider it my
  duty to my daughter to have this very unpleasant matter cleared
  up。 If I don't hear from you to my full satisfaction by return of
  post; I shall be obliged to tell my husband that circumstances
  have happened which justify us in immediately testing the
  respectability of Miss Gwilt's reference。 And when he asks me for
  my authority; I will refer him to you。
  〃Your obedient servant; ANNE MILROY。〃
  In those terms the major's wife threw off the mask; and left her
  victim to survey at his leisure the trap in which she had caught
  him。 Allan's belief in Mrs。 Milroy's good faith had been so
  implicitly sincere that her letter simply bewildered him。 He saw
  vaguely that he had been deceived in some way; and that Mrs。
  Milroy's neighborly interest in him was not what it had looked on
  the surface; and he saw no more。 The threat of appealing to the
  majoron which; with a woman's ignorance of the natures of men;
  Mrs。 Milroy had relied for producing its effectwas the only
  part of the letter to which Allan reverted with any satisfaction:
  it relieved instead of alarming him。 〃If there _is_ to be a
  quarrel;〃 he thought; 〃it will be a comfort; at any rate; to have
  it out with a man。〃
  Firm in his resolution to shield the unhappy woman whose secret
  he wrongly believed himself to have surprised; Allan sat down to
  write his apologies to the major's wife。 After setting up three
  polite declarations; in close marching order; he retired from the
  field。 〃He was extremely sorry to have offended Mrs。 Milroy。 He
  was innocent of all intention to offend Mrs。 Milroy。 And he
  begged to remain Mrs。 Milroy's truly。〃 Never had Allan's habitual
  brevity as a letter…writer done him better service than it did
  him now。 With a little more skillfulness in the use of his pen;
  he might have given his enemy even a stronger hold on him than
  the hold she had got already。
  The interval day passed; and with the next morning's post Mrs。
  Milroy's threat came realized in the shape of a letter from her
  husband。 The major wrote less formally than his wife had written;
  but his questions were mercilessly to the point:
  '〃Private。〃'
  〃The Cottage; Thorpe Ambrose; Friday; July 11; 1851。
  〃DEAR SIRWhen you did me the favor of calling here a few days
  since; you asked a question relating to my governess; Miss Gwilt;
  which I thought rather a strange one at the time; and which
  caused; as you may remember; a momentary embarrassment between
  us。
  〃This morning the subject of Miss Gwilt has been brought to my
  notice again in a manner which has caused me the utmost
  astonishment。 In plain words; Mrs。 Milroy has informed me that
  Miss Gwilt has exposed herself to the suspicion of having
  deceived us by a false reference。 On my expressing the surprise
  which such an extraordinary