第 79 节
作者:青涩春天      更新:2022-07-12 16:22      字数:9322
  Ambrose。
  Nothing had been taken away; but much had been added to the room;
  since Midwinter had first seen it。 The books which Mrs。 Armadale
  had left behind her; the furniture; the old matting on the floor;
  the old paper on the walls; were all undisturbed。 The statuette
  of Niobe still stood on its bracket; and the French window still
  opened on the garden。 But now; to the relics left by the mother;
  were added the personal possessions belonging to the son。 The
  wall; bare hitherto; was decorated with water…color
  drawingswith a portrait of Mrs。 Armadale supported on one side
  by a view of the old house in Somersetshire; and on the other by
  a picture of the yacht。 Among the books which bore in faded ink
  Mrs。 Armadale's inscriptions; 〃From my father;〃 were other books
  inscribed in the same handwriting; in brighter ink; 〃To my son。〃
  Hanging to the wall; ranged on the chimney…piece; scattered over
  the table; were a host of little objects; some associated with
  Allan's past life; others necessary to his daily pleasures and
  pursuits; and all plainly testifying that the room which he
  habitually occupied at Thorpe Ambrose was the very room which had
  once recalled to Midwinter the second vision of the dream。 Here;
  strangely unmoved by the scene around him; so lately the object
  of his superstitious distrust; Allan's friend now waited
  composedly for Allan's return; and here; more strangely still; he
  looked on a change in the household arrangements; due in the
  first instance entirely to himself。 His own lips had revealed the
  discovery which he had made on the first morning in the new
  house; his own voluntary act had induced the son to establish
  himself in the mother's room。
  Under what motives had he spoken the words? Under no motives
  which were not the natural growth of the new interests and the
  new hopes that now animated him。
  The entire change wrought in his convictions by the memorable
  event that had brought him face to face with Miss Gwilt was a
  change which it was not in his nature to hide from Allan's
  knowledge。 He had spoken openly; and had spoken as it was in his
  character to speak。 The merit of conquering his superstition was
  a merit which he shrank from claiming; until he had first
  unsparingly exposed that superstition in its worst and weakest
  aspects to view。
  It was only after he had unreservedly acknowledged the impulse
  under which he had left Allan at the Mere; that he had taken
  credit to himself for the new point of view from which he could
  now look at the Dream。 Then; and not till then; he had spoken of
  the fulfillment of the first Vision as the doctor at the Isle of
  Man might have spoken of it。 He had asked; as the doctor might
  have asked; Where was the wonder of their seeing a pool at
  sunset; when they had a whole network of pools within a few
  hours' drive of them? and what was there extraordinary in
  discovering a woman at the Mere; when there were roads that led
  to it; and villages in its neighborhood; and boats employed on
  it; and pleasure parties visiting it? So again; he had waited to
  vindicate the firmer resolution with which he looked to the
  future; until he had first revealed all that he now saw himself
  of the errors of the past。 The abandonment of his friend's
  interests; the unworthiness of the confidence that had given him
  the steward's place; the forgetfulness of the trust that Mr。
  Brock had reposed in him all implied in the one idea of leaving
  Allanwere all pointed out。 The glaring self…contradictions
  betrayed in accepting the Dream as the revelation of a fatality;
  and in attempting to escape that fatality by an exertion of
  free…willin toiling to store up knowledge of the steward's
  duties for the future; and in shrinking from letting the future
  find him in Allan's housewere; in their turn; unsparingly
  exposed。 To every error; to every inconsistency; he resolutely
  confessed; before he ventured on the last simple appeal which
  closed all; 〃Will you trust me in the future? Will you forgive
  and forget the past?〃
  A man who could thus open his whole heart; without one lurking
  reserve inspired by consideration for himself; was not a man to
  forget any minor act of concealment of which his weakness might
  have led him to be guilty toward his friend。 It lay heavy on
  Midwinter's conscience that he had kept secret from Allan a
  discovery which he ought in Allan's dearest interests to have
  revealedthe discovery of his mother's room。
  But one doubt still closed his lipsthe doubt whether Mrs。
  Armadale's conduct in Madeira had been kept secret on her return
  to England。
  Careful inquiry; first among the servants; then among the
  tenantry; careful consideration of the few reports current at the
  time; as repeated to him by the few persons left who remembered
  them; convinced him at last that the family secret had been
  successfully kept within the family limits。 Once satisfied that
  whatever inquiries the son might make would lead to no disclosure
  which could shake his respect for his mother's memory; Midwinter
  had hesitated no longer。 He had taken Allan into the room; and
  had shown him the books on the shelves; and all that the writing
  in the books disclosed。 He had said plainly; 〃My one motive for
  not telling you this before sprang from my dread of interesting
  you in the room which I looked at with horror as the second of
  the scenes pointed at in the Dream。 Forgive me this also; and you
  will have forgiven me all。〃
  With Allan's love for his mother's memory; but one result could
  follow such an avowal as this。 He had liked the little room from
  the first; as a pleasant contrast to the oppressive grandeur of
  the other rooms at Thorpe Ambrose; and; now that he knew what
  associations were connected with it; his resolution was at once
  taken to make it especially his own。 The same day; all his
  personal possessions were collected and arranged in his mother's
  roomin Midwinter's presence; and with Midwinter's assistance
  given to the work。
  Under those circumstances had the change now wrought in the
  household arrangements been produced; and in this way had
  Midwinter's victory over his own fatalismby making Allan the
  daily occupant of a room which he might otherwise hardly ever
  have enteredactually favored the fulfillment of the Second
  Vision of th e Dream。
  The hour wore on quietly as Allan's friend sat waiting for
  Allan's return。 Sometimes reading; sometimes thinking placidly;
  he whiled away the time。 No vexing cares; no boding doubts;
  troubled him now。 The rent…day; which he had once dreaded; had
  come and gone harmlessly。 A friendlier understanding had been
  established between Allan and his tenants; Mr。 Bashwood had
  proved himself to be worthy of the confidence reposed in him; the
  Pedgifts; father and son; had amply justified their client's good
  opinion of them。 Wherever Midwinter looked; the prospect was
  bright; the future was without a cloud。
  He trimmed the lamp on the table beside him and looked out at the
  night。 The stable clock was chiming the half…hour past eleven as
  he walked to the window; and the first rain…drops were beginning
  to fall。 He had his hand on the bell to summon the servant; and
  send him over to the cottage with an umbrella; when he was
  stopped by hearing the familiar footstep on the walk outside。
  〃How late you are!〃 said Midwinter; as Allan entered through the
  open French window。 〃Was there a party at the cottage?〃
  〃No! only ourselves。 The time slipped away somehow。〃 He answered
  in lower tones than usual; and sighed as he took his chair。
  〃You seem to be out of spirits?〃 pursued Midwinter。 〃What's the
  matter?〃
  Allan hesitated。 〃I may as well tell you;〃 he said; after a
  moment。 〃It's nothing to be ashamed of; I only wonder you haven't
  noticed it before! There's a woman in it; as usualI'm in love。〃
  Midwinter laughed。 〃Has Miss Milroy been more charming to…night
  than ever?〃 he asked; gayly。
  〃Miss Milroy!〃 repeated Allan。 〃What are you thinking of! I'm not
  in love with Miss Milroy。〃
  〃Who is it; then?〃
  〃Who is it! What a question to ask! Who can it be but Miss
  Gwilt?〃
  There was a sudden silence。 Allan sat listlessly; with his hands
  in his pockets; looking out through the open window at the
  falling rain。 If he had turned toward his friend when he
  mentioned Miss Gwilt's name he might possibly have been a little
  startled by the change he would have seen in Midwinter's face。
  〃I suppose you don't approve of it?〃 he said; after waiting a
  little。
  There was no answer。
  〃It's too late to make objections;〃 proceeded Allan。 〃I really
  mean it when I tell you I'm in love with her。〃
  〃A fortnight since you were in love with Miss Milroy;〃 said the
  other; in quiet; measured tones。
  〃Pooh! a mere flirtation。 It's different this time。 I'm in
  earnest about Miss Gwilt。〃
  He looked round as he spoke。 Midwinter turned his face aside on
  the instant; and bent it over a book。
  〃I see you don't approve of the thing;〃 Allan went on。 〃Do you
  object to her being only a governess? You can't do that; I'm
  sure。 If you were in my place; her being only a governess
  wouldn't stand in the way with _you?_〃
  〃No;〃 said Midwinter; 〃I can't honestly say it would stand in the
  way with m