第 42 节
作者:青涩春天      更新:2022-07-12 16:22      字数:9321
  hit on some plan of his own for dealing with this matter; rather
  strangely involving; among other results; the letting of the
  cottage which was the old steward's place of abode; in
  consequence of the new steward's contemplated residence in the
  great house。 A chance word in our conversation on the journey
  here led Allan into speaking out more plainly than he had spoken
  yet; and I heard to my unutterable astonishment that the person
  who was at the bottom of the whole arrangement about the steward
  was no other than myself!
  〃It is needless to tell you how I felt this new instance of
  Allan's kindness。 The first pleasure of hearing from his own lips
  that I had deserved the strongest proof he could give of his
  confidence in me was soon dashed by the pain which mixes itself
  with all pleasureat least; with all that I have ever known。
  Never has my past life seemed so dreary to look back on as it
  seems now; when I feel how entirely it has unfitted me to take
  the place of all others that I should have liked to occupy in my
  friend's service。 I mustered courage to tell him that I had none
  of the business knowledge and business experience which his
  steward ought to possess。 He generously met the objection by
  telling me that I could learn; and he has promised to send to
  London for the person who has already been employed for the time
  being in the steward's office; and who will; therefore; be
  perfectly competent to teach me。
  〃Do you; too; think I can learn? If you do; I will work day and
  night to instruct myself。 But if (as I am afraid) the steward's
  duties are of far too serious a kind to be learned off…hand by a
  man so young and so inexperienced as I am; then pray hasten your
  journey to Thorpe Ambrose; and exert your influence over Allan
  personally。 Nothing less will induce him to pass me over; and to
  employ a steward who is really fit to take the place。 Pray; pray
  act in this matter as you think best for Allan's interests。
  Whatever disappointment I may feel; _he_ shall not see it。
  〃Believe me; dear Mr。 Brock;
  〃Gratefuly yours;
  〃OZIAS MIDWINTER。
  〃P。S。I open the envelope again to add one word more。 If you
  have heard or seen anything since your return to Somersetshire of
  the woman in the black dress and the red shawl; I hope you will
  not forget; when you write; to let me know it。
  O。 M。〃
  2。 _From Mrs。 Oldershaw to Miss Gwilt。_
  〃Ladies' Toilet Repository; Diana Street; Pimlico;
  Wednesday。
  〃MY DEAR LYDIATo save the post; I write to you; after a long
  day's worry at my place of business; on the business
  letter…paper; having news since we last met which it seems
  advisable to send you at the earliest opportunity。
  〃To begin at the beginning。 After carefully considering the
  thing; I am quite sure you will do wisely with young Armadale if
  you hold your tongue about Madeira and all that happened there。
  Your position was; no doubt; a very strong one with his mother。
  You had privately helped her in playing a trick on her own
  father; you had been ungratefully dismissed; at a pitiably tender
  age; as soon as you had served her purpose; and; when you came
  upon her suddenly; after a separation of more than twenty years;
  you found her in failing health; with a grown…up son; whom she
  had kept in total ignorance of the true story of her marriage。
  〃Have you any such advantages as these with the young gentleman
  who has survived her? If he is not a born idiot he will decline
  to believe your shocking aspersions on the memory of his mother;
  andseeing that you have no proofs at this distance of time to
  meet him withthere is an end of your money…grubbing in the
  golden Armadale diggings。 Mind; I don't dispute that the old
  lady's heavy debt of obligation; after what you did for her in
  Madeira; is not paid yet; and that the son is the next person to
  settle with you; now the mother has slipped through your fingers。
  Only squeeze him the right way; my dear; that's what I venture to
  suggestsqueeze him the right way。
  〃And which is the right way? That question brings me to my news。
  〃Have you thought again of that other notion of yours of trying
  your hand on this lucky young gentleman; with nothing but your
  own good looks and your own quick wits to help you? The idea hung
  on my mind so strangely after you were gone that it ended in my
  sending a little note to my lawyer; to have the will under which
  young Armadale has got his fortune examined at Doctor's Commons。
  The result turns out to be something infinitely more encouraging
  than either you or I could possibly have hoped for。 After the
  lawyer's report to me; there cannot be a moment's doubt of what
  you ought to do。 In two words; Lydia; take the bull by the
  hornsand marry him!
  〃I am quite serious。 He is much better worth the venture than you
  suppose。 Only persuade him to make you Mrs。 Armadale; and you may
  set all after…discoveries at flat defiance。 As long as he lives;
  you can make your own terms with him; and; if he dies; the will
  entitles you; in spite of anything he can say or dowith
  children or without themto an income chargeable on his estate
  of _twelve hundred a year for life。_ There is no doubt about
  this; the lawyer himself has looked at the will。 Of course; Mr。
  Blanchard had his son and his son's widow in his eye when he made
  the provision。 But; as it is not limited to any one heir by name;
  and not revoked anywhere; it now holds as good with young
  Armadale as it would have held under other circumstances with Mr。
  Blanchard's son。 W hat a chance for you; after all the miseries
  and the dangers you have gone through; to be mistress of Thorpe
  Ambrose; if he lives; to have an income for life; if he dies!
  Hook him; my poor dear; hook him at any sacrifice。
  〃I dare say you will make the same objection when you read this
  which you made when we were talking about it the other day; I
  mean the objection of your age。
  〃Now; my good creature; just listen to me。 The question isnot
  whether you were five…and…thirty last birthday; we will own the
  dreadful truth; and say you werebut whether you do look; or
  don't look; your real age。 My opinion on this matter ought to be;
  and is; one of the best opinions in London。 I have had twenty
  years experience among our charming sex in making up battered old
  faces and wornout old figures to look like new; and I say
  positively you don't look a day over thirty; if as much。 If you
  will follow my advice about dressing; and use one or two of my
  applications privately; I guarantee to put you back three years
  more。 I will forfeit all the money I shall have to advance for
  you in this matter; if; when I have ground you young again in my
  wonderful mill; you look more than seven…and…twenty in any man's
  eyes livingexcept; of course; when you wake anxious in the
  small hours of the morning; and then; my dear; you will be old
  and ugly in the retirement of your own room; and it won't matter。
  〃 'But;' you may say; 'supposing all this; here I am; even with
  your art to help me; looking a good six years older than he is;
  and that is against me at starting。' Is it? Just think again。
  Surely; your own experience must have shown you that the
  commonest of all common weaknesses; in young fellows of this
  Armadale's age; is to fall in love with women older than
  themselves。 Who are the men who really appreciate us in the bloom
  of our youth (I'm sure I have cause to speak well of the bloom of
  youth; I made fifty guineas to…day by putting it on the spotted
  shoulders of a woman old enough to be your mother)who are the
  men; I say; who are ready to worship us when we are mere babies
  of seventeen? The gay young gentlemen in the bloom of their own
  youth? No! The cunning old wretches who are on the wrong side of
  forty。
  〃And what is the moral of this; as the story…books say?
  〃The moral is that the chances; with such a head as you have got
  on your shoulders; are all in your favor。 If you feel your
  present forlorn position; as I believe you do; if you know what a
  charming woman (in the men's eyes) you can still be when you
  please; and if all your resolution has really come back; after
  that shocking outbreak of desperation on board the steamer
  (natural enough; I own; under the dreadful provocation laid on
  you); you will want no further persuasion from me to try this
  experiment。 Only to think of how things turn out! If the other
  young booby had not jumped into the river after you; _this_ young
  booby would never have had the estate。 It really looks as if fate
  had determined that you were to be Mrs。 Armadale; of Thorpe
  Ambrose; and who can control his fate; as the poet says?
  〃Send me one line to say Yes or No; and believe me your attached
  old friend;
  〃MARIA OLDERSHAW。〃
  3。 _From Miss Gwilt to Mrs。 Oldershaw。_
  Richmond; Thursday。
  'YOU OLD WRETCHI won't say Yes or No till I have had a long;
  long look at my glass first。 If you had any real regard for
  anybody but your wicked old self; you would know that the bare
  idea of marrying again (after what I have gone through) is an
  idea that makes my flesh creep。
  〃But there can be no harm in your sending me a little more
  information while I am making up my mind。 You have got twenty
  pounds of mine still left out of