第 12 节
作者:青涩春天      更新:2022-07-12 16:21      字数:9322
  slower articulation。 〃Help me to speak it。〃
  The doctor administered a stimulant; and signed to Mr。 Neal to
  give him time。 After a little delay; the flame of the sinking
  spirit leaped up in his eyes once more。 Resolutely struggling
  with his failing speech; he summoned the Scotchman to take the
  pen; and pronounced the closing sentences of the narrative; as
  his memory gave them back to him; one by one; in these words:
  〃Despise my dying conviction if you will; but grant me; I
  solemnly implore you; one last request。 My son! the only hope I
  have left for you hangs on a great doubtthe doubt whether we
  are; or are not; the masters of our own destinies。 It may be that
  mortal free…will can conquer mortal fate; and that going; as we
  all do; inevitably to death; we go inevitably to nothing that is
  before death。 If this be so; indeed; respectthough you respect
  nothing elsethe warning which I give you from my grave。 Never;
  to your dying day; let any living soul approach you who is
  associated; directly or indirectly; with the crime which your
  father has committed。 Avoid the widow of the man I killedif the
  widow still lives。 Avoid the maid whose wicked hand smoothed the
  way to the marriageif the maid is still in her service。 And
  more than all; avoid the man who bears the same name as your own。
  Offend your best benefactor; if that benefactor's influence has
  connected you one with the other。 Desert the woman who loves you;
  if that woman is a link between you and him。 Hide yourself from
  him under an assumed name。 Put the mountains and the seas between
  you; be ungrateful; be unforgiving; be all that is most repellent
  to your own gentler nature; rather than live under the same roof;
  and breathe the same air; with that man。 Never let the two Allan
  Armadales meet in this world: never; never; never!
  〃There lies the way by which you may escapeif any way there be。
  Take it; if you prize your own innocence and your own happiness;
  through all your life to come!
  〃I have done。 If I could have trusted any weaker influence than
  the influence of this confession to incline you to my will; I
  would have spared you the disclosure which these pages contain。
  You are lying on my breast; sleeping the innocent sleep of a
  child; while a stranger's hand writes these words for you as they
  fall from my lips。 Think what the strength of my conviction must
  be; when I can find the courage; on my death…bed; to darken all
  your young life at its outset with the shadow of your father's
  crime。 Think; and be warned。 Think; and forgive me if you can。〃
  There it ended。 Those were the father's last words to the son。
  Inexorably faithful to his forced duty; Mr。 Neal laid aside the
  pen; and read over aloud the lines he had just written。 〃Is there
  more to add?〃 he asked; with his pitilessly steady voice。 There
  was no more to add。
  Mr。 Neal folded the manuscript; inclosed it in a sheet of paper;
  and sealed it with Mr。 Armadale's own seal。 〃The address?〃 he
  said; with his merciless business formality。 〃To Allan Armadale;
  junior;〃 he wrote; as the words were dictated from the bed。 〃Care
  of Godfrey Hammick; Esq。; Offices of Messrs。 Hammick and Ridge;
  Lincoln's Inn Fields; London。〃 Having written the address; he
  waited; and considered for a moment。 〃Is your executor to open
  this?〃 he asked。
  〃No! he is to give it to my son when my son is of an age to
  understand it。〃
  〃In that case;〃 pursued Mr。 Neal; with all his wits in
  remorseless working order; 〃I will add a dated note to the
  address; repeating your own words as you have just spoken them;
  and explaining the circumstances under which my handwriting
  appears on the document。〃 He wrote the note in the briefest and
  plainest terms; read it over aloud as he had read over what went
  before; signed his name and address at the end; and made the
  doctor sign next; as witness of the proceedings; and as medical
  evidence of the condition in which Mr。 Armadale then lay。 This
  done; he placed the letter in a second inclosure; sealed it as
  before; and directed it to Mr。 Hammick; with the superscription
  of 〃private〃 added to the address。 〃Do you insist on my posting
  this?〃 he asked; rising with the letter in his hand。
  〃Give him time to think;〃 said the doctor。 〃For the child's sake;
  give him time to think! A minute may change him。〃
  〃I will give him five minutes;〃 answered Mr。 Neal; placing his
  watch on the table; implacably just to the very last。
  They waited; both looking attentively at Mr。 Armadale。 The signs
  of change which had appeared in him already were multiplying
  fast。 The movement which continued mental agitation had
  communicated to the muscles of his face was beginning; under the
  same dangerous influence; to spread downward。 His once helpless
  hands lay still no longer; they struggled pitiably on the
  bedclothes。 At sight of that warning token; the doctor turned
  with a gesture of alarm; and beckoned Mr。 Neal to come nearer。
  〃Put the question at once;〃 he said; 〃if you let the five minutes
  pass; you may be too late。〃
  Mr。 Neal approached the bed。 He; too; noticed the movement of the
  hands。 〃Is that a bad sign?〃 he asked。
  The doctor bent his head gravely。 〃Put your question at once;〃 he
  repeated; 〃or you may be too late。〃
  Mr。 Neal held the letter before the eyes of the dying man 〃Do you
  know what this is?〃
  〃My letter。〃
  〃Do you insist on my posting it?〃
  He mastered his failing speech for the last time; and gave the
  answer: 〃Yes!〃
  Mr。 Neal moved to the door; with the letter in his hand。 The
  German followed him a few steps; opened his lips to plead for a
  longer delay; met the Scotchman's inexorable eye; and drew back
  again in silence。 The door closed and parted them; without a word
  having passed on either side。
  The doctor went back to the bed and whispered to the sinking man:
  〃Let me call him back; there is time to stop him yet!〃 It was
  useless。 No answer came; nothing showed that he heeded; or even
  heard。 His eyes wandered from the child; rested for a moment on
  his own struggling hand; and looked up entreatingly in the
  compassionate face that bent over him。 The doctor lifted the
  hand; paused; followed the father's longing eyes back to the
  child; and; interpreting his last wish; moved the hand gently
  toward the boy's head。 The hand touched it; and trembled
  violently。 In another instant the trembling seized on the arm;
  and spread over the whole upper part of the body。 The face turned
  from pale to red; from red to purple; from purple to pale again。
  Then the toiling hands lay still; and the shifting color changed
  no more。
  The window of the next room was open; when the doctor entered it
  from the death chamber; with the child in
  his arms。 He looked out as he passed by; and saw Mr。 Neal in the
  street below; slowly returning to the inn。
  〃Where is the letter?〃 he asked。
  Three words sufficed for the Scotchman's answer。
  〃In the post。〃
  THE END OF THE PROLOGUE。
  THE STORY。
  _BOOK THE FIRST。_
  CHAPTER I。
  THE MYSTERY OF OZIAS MIDWINTER。
  ON a warm May night; in the year eighteen hundred and fifty…one;
  the Reverend Decimus Brockat that time a visitor to the Isle of
  Manretired to his bedroom at Castletown; with a serious
  personal responsibility in close pursuit of him; and with no
  distinct idea of the means by which he might relieve himself from
  the pressure of his present circumstances。
  The clergyman had reached that mature period of human life at
  which a sensible man learns to decline (as often as his temper
  will let him) all useless conflict with the tyranny of his own
  troubles。 Abandoning any further effort to reach a decision in
  the emergency that now beset him; Mr。 Brock sat down placidly in
  his shirt sleeves on the side of his bed; and applied his mind to
  consider next whether the emergency itself was as serious as he
  had hitherto been inclined to think it。 Following this new way
  out of his perplexities; Mr。 Brock found himself unexpectedly
  traveling to the end in view by the least inspiriting of all
  human journeysa journey through the past years of his own life。
  One by one the events of those yearsall connected with the same
  little group of characters; and all more or less answerable for
  the anxiety which was now intruding itself between the clergyman
  and his night's restrose; in progressive series; on Mr。 Brock's
  memory。 The first of the series took him back; through a period
  of fourteen years; to his own rectory on the Somersetshire shores
  of the Bristol Channel; and closeted him at a private interview
  with a lady who had paid him a visit in the character of a total
  stranger to the parson and the place。
  The lady's complexion was fair; the lady's figure was well
  preserved; she was still a young woman; and she looked even
  younger than her age。 There was a shade of melancholy in her
  expression; and an undertone of suffering in her voiceenough;
  in each case; to indicate that she had known trouble; but not
  enough to obtrude that trouble on the notice of others。 She
  brought with her a fine; fair…haired boy of eight years old; whom
  she presented as her son; and who was sent out of the way; at the
  beginning of the interview; to amuse himself in the rectory
  gard