第 40 节
作者:换裁判      更新:2022-07-12 16:21      字数:9322
  to change。〃
  Felicity said nothing。  She kept looking down at the grass on which she sat; absently pulling at the slender blades。  Presently we saw two big tears roll down over her cheeks。  The Story Girl looked surprised。
  〃Are you crying because I'm going away; Felicity?〃 she asked。
  〃Of course I am;〃 answered Felicity; with a big sob。  〃Do you think I've no f…f…eeling?〃
  〃I didn't think you'd care much;〃 said the Story Girl frankly。  〃You've never seemed to like me very much。〃
  〃I d…don't wear my h…heart on my sleeve;〃 said poor Felicity; with an attempt at dignity。  〃I think you m…might stay。  Your father would let you s…stay if you c…coaxed him。〃
  〃Well; you see I'd have to go some time;〃 sighed the Story Girl; 〃and the longer it was put off the harder it would be。  But I do feel dreadfully about it。  I can't even take poor Paddy。  I'll have to leave him behind; and oh; I want you all to promise to be kind to him for my sake。〃
  We all solemnly assured her that we would。
  〃I'll g…give him cream every m…morning and n…night;〃 sobbed Felicity; 〃but I'll never be able to look at him without crying。  He'll make me think of you。〃
  〃Well; I'm not going right away;〃 said the Story Girl; more cheerfully。  〃Not till the last of October。  So we have over a month yet to have a good time in。  Let's all just determine to make it a splendid month for the last。  We won't think about my going at all till we have to; and we won't have any quarrels among us; and we'll just enjoy ourselves all we possibly can。  So don't cry any more; Felicity。  I'm awfully glad you do like me and am sorry I'm going away; but let's all forget it for a month。〃
  Felicity sighed; and tucked away her damp handkerchief。
  〃It isn't so easy for me to forget things; but I'll try;〃 she said disconsolately; 〃and if you want any more cooking lessons before you go I'll be real glad to teach you anything I know。〃
  This was a high plane of self…sacrifice for Felicity to attain。  But the Story Girl shook her head。
  〃No; I'm not going to bother my head about cooking lessons this last month。  It's too vexing。〃
  〃Do you remember the time you made the pudding〃 began Peter; and suddenly stopped。
  〃Out of sawdust?〃 finished the Story Girl cheerfully。  〃You needn't be afraid to mention it to me after this。  I don't mind any more。  I begin to see the fun of it now。  I should think I do remember itand the time I baked the bread before it was raised enough。〃
  〃People have made worse mistakes than that;〃 said Felicity kindly。
  〃Such as using tooth…powd〃 but here Dan stopped abruptly; remembering the Story Girl's plea for a beautiful month。  Felicity coloured; but said nothingdid not even LOOK anything。
  〃We HAVE had lots of fun together one way or another;〃 said Cecily; retrospectively。
  〃Just think how much we've laughed this last year or so;〃 said the Story Girl。  〃We've had good times together; but I think we'll have lots more splendid years ahead。〃
  〃Eden is always behind usParadise always before;〃 said Uncle Blair; coming up in time to hear her。  He said it with a sigh that was immediately lost in one of his delightful smiles。
  〃I like Uncle Blair so much better than I expected to;〃 Felicity confided to me。  〃Mother says he's a rolling stone; but there really is something very nice about him; although he says a great many things I don't understand。  I suppose the Story Girl will have a very gay time in Paris。〃
  〃She's going to school and she'll have to study hard;〃 I said。
  〃She says she's going to study for the stage;〃 said Felicity。  〃Uncle Roger thinks it is all right; and says she'll be very famous some day。  But mother thinks it's dreadful; and so do I。〃
  〃Aunt Julia is a concert singer;〃 I said。
  〃Oh; that's very different。  But I hope poor Sara will get on all right;〃 sighed Felicity。  〃You never know what may happen to a person in those foreign countries。  And everybody says Paris is such a wicked place。  But we must hope for the best;〃 she concluded in a resigned tone。
  That evening the Story Girl and I drove the cows to pasture after milking; and when we came home we sought out Uncle Blair in the orchard。  He was sauntering up and down Uncle Stephen's Walk; his hands clasped behind him and his beautiful; youthful face uplifted to the western sky where waves of night were breaking on a dim primrose shore of sunset。
  〃See that star over there in the south…west?〃 he said; as we joined him。  〃The one just above that pine?  An evening star shining over a dark pine tree is the whitest thing in the universebecause it is LIVING whitenesswhiteness possessing a soul。  How full this old orchard is of twilight!  Do you know; I have been trysting here with ghosts。〃
  〃The Family Ghost?〃 I asked; very stupidly。
  〃No; not the Family Ghost。  I never saw beautiful; broken…hearted Emily yet。  Your mother saw her once; Sarathat was a strange thing;〃 he added absently; as if to himself。
  〃Did mother really see her?〃 whispered the Story Girl。
  〃Well; she always believed she did。  Who knows?〃
  〃Do you think there are such things as ghosts; Uncle Blair?〃 I asked curiously。
  〃I never saw any; Beverley。〃
  〃But you said you were trysting with ghosts here this evening;〃 said the Story Girl。
  〃Oh; yesthe ghosts of the old years。  I love this orchard  because of its many ghosts。  We are good comrades; those ghosts and I; we walk and talkwe even laugh togethersorrowful laughter that has sorrow's own sweetness。  And always there comes to me one dear phantom and wanders hand in hand with mea lost lady of the old years。〃
  〃My mother?〃 said the Story Girl very softly。
  〃Yes; your mother。  Here; in her old haunts; it is impossible for me to believe that she can be deadthat her LAUGHTER can be dead。  She was the gayest; sweetest thingand so youngonly three years older than you; Sara。  Yonder old house had been glad because of her for eighteen years when I met her first。〃
  〃I wish I could remember her;〃 said the Story Girl; with a little sigh。  〃I haven't even a picture of her。  Why didn't you paint one; father?〃
  〃She would never let me。  She had some queer; funny; half…playful; half…earnest superstition about it。  But I always meant to when she would become willing to let me。  And thenshe died。  Her twin brother Felix died the same day。  There was something strange about that; too。  I was holding her in my arms and she was looking up at me; suddenly she looked past me and gave a little start。  'Felix!' she said。  For a moment she trembled and then she smiled and looked up at me again a little beseechingly。  'Felix has come for me; dear;' she said。  'We were always together before you cameyou must not mindyou must be glad I do not have to go alone。' Well; who knows?  But she left me; Sarashe left me。〃
  There was that in Uncle Blair's voice that kept us silent for a time。  Then the Story Girl said; still very softly:
  〃What did mother look like; father?  I don't look the least little bit like her; do I?〃
  〃No; I wish you did; you brown thing。  Your mother's face was as white as a wood…lily; with only a faint dream of rose in her cheeks。  She had the eyes of one who always had a song in her heartblue as a mist; those eyes were。  She had dark lashes; and a little red mouth that quivered when she was very sad or very happy like a crimson rose too rudely shaken by the wind。  She was as slim and lithe as a young; white…stemmed birch tree。  How I loved her!  How happy we were!  But he who accepts human love must bind it to his soul with pain; and she is not lost to me。  Nothing is ever really lost to us as long as we remember it。〃
  Uncle Blair looked up at the evening star。  We saw that he had forgotten us; and we slipped away; hand in hand; leaving him alone in the memory…haunted shadows of the old orchard。
  CHAPTER XXVIII
  THE PATH TO ARCADY
  October that year gathered up all the spilled sunshine of the summer and clad herself in it as in a garment。  The Story Girl had asked us to try to make the last month together beautiful; and Nature seconded our efforts; giving us that most beautiful of beautiful thingsa gracious and perfect moon of falling leaves。  There was not in all that vanished October one day that did not come in with auroral splendour and go out attended by a fair galaxy of evening starsnot a day when there were not golden lights in the wide pastures and purple hazes in the ripened distances。  Never was anything so gorgeous as the maple trees that year。  Maples are trees that have primeval fire in their souls。  It glows out a little in their early youth; before the leaves open; in the redness and rosy…yellowness of their blossoms; but in summer it is carefully hidden under a demure; silver…lined greenness。  Then when autumn comes; the maples give up trying to be sober and flame out in all the barbaric splendour and gorgeousness of their real nature; making of the hills things out of an Arabian Nights dream in the golden prime of good Haroun Alraschid。
  You may never know what scarlet and crimson really are until you see them in their perfection on an October hillside; under the unfathomable blue of an autumn sky。  All the glow and radiance and joy at earth's heart seem to have broken loose in a splendid determin