第 30 节
作者:负债赌博      更新:2022-07-12 16:19      字数:9321
  oft mud; taken from the road; into the house。  With the mud she smeared the face of the boards used for the pressing of trousers and then went back to her work feeling relieved and happy。
  Belle Carpenter occasionally walked out in the evening with George Willard。  Secretly she loved an… other man; but her love affair; about which no one knew; caused her much anxiety。  She was in love with Ed Handby; bartender in Ed Griffith's Saloon; and went about with the young reporter as a kind of relief to her feelings。  She did not think that her station in life would permit her to be seen in the company of the bartender and walked about under the trees with George Willard and let him kiss her to relieve a longing that was very insistent in her nature。  She felt that she could keep the younger man within bounds。  About Ed Handby she was somewhat uncertain。
  Handby; the bartender; was a tall; broad…shouldered man of thirty who lived in a room upstairs above Griffith's saloon。  His fists were large and his eyes unusually small; but his voice; as though striving to conceal the power back of his fists; was soft and quiet。
  At twenty…five the bartender had inherited a large farm from an uncle in Indiana。  When sold; the farm brought in eight thousand dollars; which Ed spent in six months。  Going to Sandusky; on Lake Erie; he began an orgy of dissipation; the story of which afterward filled his home town with awe。  Here and there he went throwing the money about; driving carriages through the streets; giving wine parties to crowds of men and women; playing cards for high stakes and keeping mistresses whose wardrobes cost him hundreds of dollars。  One night at a resort called Cedar Point; he got into a fight and ran amuck like a wild thing。  With his fist he broke a large mirror in the wash room of a hotel and later went about smashing windows and breaking chairs in dance halls for the joy of hearing the glass rattle on the floor and seeing the terror in the eyes of clerks who had come from Sandusky to spend the evening at the resort with their sweethearts。
  The affair between Ed Handby and Belle Carpen… ter on the surface amounted to nothing。  He had suc… ceeded in spending but one evening in her company。 On that evening he hired a horse and buggy at Wes… ley Moyer's livery barn and took her for a drive。 The conviction that she was the woman his nature demanded and that he must get her settled upon him and he told her of his desires。  The bartender was ready to marry and to begin trying to earn money for the support of his wife; but so simple was his nature that he found it difficult to explain his intentions。  His body ached with physical longing and with his body he expressed himself。  Taking the milliner into his arms and holding her tightly in spite of her struggles; he kissed her until she became helpless。  Then he brought her back to town and let her out of the buggy。  〃When I get hold of you again I'll not let you go。  You can't play with me;〃 he de… clared as he turned to drive away。  Then; jumping out of the buggy; he gripped her shoulders with his strong hands。  〃I'll keep you for good the next time;〃 he said。  〃You might as well make up your mind to that。  It's you and me for it and I'm going to have you before I get through。〃
  One night in January when there was a new moon George Willard; who was in Ed Handby's mind the only obstacle to his getting Belle Carpenter; went for a walk。  Early that evening George went into Ransom Surbeck's pool room with Seth Richmond and Art Wilson; son of the town butcher。  Seth Richmond stood with his back against the wall and remained silent; but George Willard talked。  The pool room was filled with Winesburg boys and they talked of women。  The young reporter got into that vein。  He said that women should look out for themselves; that the fellow who went out with a girl was not responsible for what happened。  As he talked he looked about; eager for attention。  He held the floor for five minutes and then Art Wilson began to talk。 Art was learning the barber's trade in Cal Prouse's shop and already began to consider himself an au… thority in such matters as baseball; horse racing; drinking; and going about with women。  He began to tell of a night when he with two men from Wines… burg went into a house of prostitution at the county seat。  The butcher's son held a cigar in the side of his mouth and as he talked spat on the floor。  〃The women in the place couldn't embarrass me although they tried hard enough;〃 he boasted。  〃One of the girls in the house tried to get fresh; but I fooled her。 As soon as she began to talk I went and sat in her lap。  Everyone in the room laughed when I kissed her。  I taught her to let me alone。〃
  George Willard went out of the pool room and into Main Street。  For days the weather had been bitter cold with a high wind blowing down on the town from Lake Erie; eighteen miles to the north; but on that night the wind had died away and a new moon made the night unusually lovely。  With… out thinking where he was going or what he wanted to do; George went out of Main Street and began walking in dimly lighted streets filled with frame houses。
  Out of doors under the black sky filled with stars he forgot his companions of the pool room。  Because it was dark and he was alone he began to talk aloud。 In a spirit of play he reeled along the street imitating a drunken man and then imagined himself a soldier clad in shining boots that reached to the knees and wearing a sword that jingled as he walked。  As a soldier he pictured himself as an inspector; passing before a long line of men who stood at attention。 He began to examine the accoutrements of the men。 Before a tree he stopped and began to scold。  〃Your pack is not in order;〃 he said sharply。  〃How many times will I have to speak of this matter? Everything must be in order here。  We have a difficult task be… fore us and no difficult task can be done without order。〃
  Hypnotized by his own words; the young man stumbled along the board sidewalk saying more words。  〃There is a law for armies and for men too;〃 he muttered; lost in reflection。  〃The law begins with little things and spreads out until it covers every… thing。  In every little thing there must be order; in the place where men work; in their clothes; in their thoughts。  I myself must be orderly。  I must learn that law。  I must get myself into touch with something orderly and big that swings through the night like a star。  In my little way I must begin to learn some… thing; to give and swing and work with life; with the law。〃
  George Willard stopped by a picket fence near a street lamp and his body began to tremble。  He had never before thought such thoughts as had just come into his head and he wondered where they had come from。  For the moment it seemed to him that some voice outside of himself had been talking as he walked。  He was amazed and delighted with his own mind and when he walked on again spoke of the matter with fervor。  〃To come out of Ransom Surbeck's pool room and think things like that;〃 he whispered。  〃It is better to be alone。  If I talked like Art Wilson the boys would understand me but they wouldn't understand what I've been thinking down here。〃
  In Winesburg; as in all Ohio towns of twenty years ago; there was a section in which lived day laborers。  As the time of factories had not yet come; the laborers worked in the fields or were section hands on the railroads。  They worked twelve hours a day and received one dollar for the long day of toil。  The houses in which they lived were small cheaply constructed wooden affairs with a garden at the back。  The more comfortable among them kept cows and perhaps a pig; housed in a little shed at the rear of the garden。
  With his head filled with resounding thoughts; George Willard walked into such a street on the clear January night。  The street was dimly lighted and in places there was no sidewalk。  In the scene that lay about him there was something that excited his al… ready aroused fancy。  For a year he had been devot… ing all of his odd moments to the reading of books and now some tale he had read concerning fife in old world towns of the middle ages came sharply back to his mind so that he stumbled forward with the curious feeling of one revisiting a place that had been a part of some former existence。  On an impulse he turned out of the street and went into a little dark alleyway behind the sheds in which lived the cows and pigs。
  For a half hour he stayed in the alleyway; smelling the strong smell of animals too closely housed and letting his mind play with the strange new thoughts that came to him。  The very rankness of the smell of manure in the clear sweet air awoke something heady in his brain。  The poor little houses lighted by kerosene lamps; the smoke from the chimneys mounting straight up into the clear air; the grunting of pigs; the women clad in cheap calico dresses and washing dishes in the kitchens; the footsteps of men coming out of the houses and going off to the stores and saloons of Main Street; the dogs barking and the children cryingall of these things made him seem; as he lurked in the darkness; oddly detached and apart from all life。
  The excited young man; unable to bear the